nurturing creativity

Elizabeth Gilbert talks
">http://www.ted.org/index.php/talks/elizabeth_gilbert_on_genius.html

I had a massive relief from hearing this particular talk.
It sums up almost Everything of my worries.
Few points rapped the clouds off my head.

it explains exactly why I have lightnings of ideas keep striking me and that sometimes my mind is in crazy need to get it out of my system in creative forms, like my writings, paintings and scribble journals.
of course all comes from Allah. I knew that deep down.
it's just that, it's really hard to grasp that doing what i do is enough?.
which i guess we all feels sometimes.
to have No Worries at all is of course present more thinking space available for something else.

so the idea of being more than you really ARE is the ego talking.
being the best of what you are able to become is functional.
that's what i get from her talk.
but of course, a source isn't sufficient.
another way of looking at it is that her idea might send a message that we can't grasp the unreachable ourselves. that we are limited. which in return, stop us from pushing ourselves to the limit and beyond or cause some Men to feel they are God.

so i can see why in Islam, moderation is ultimate.
living large in sufficient.
i need to find more knowledge on this particular way.

at least for now, i get to grip little bit more on my entire principle.
that i love to grow and learn. that is my job. my goal.

~ getting a job

never go to bed angry they say

i tried to go to sleep. reading Children if Hurin. before that checking my usual net stops. no tumblr post idea yet. then i got really sleepy while thinking about my dad and his dream for me. it's an admiration how much he works for us. *sigh*
anyway, for some reason i checked my deviantart. then i read a DA friend's journal. He posted about how DA rejected to ban an art drawing of prophet Muhamad with swords in his hand and "killer" in a sentence portraying that Islam first breed of murder.
Reason : not Hate Art.
it's disgraceful. many of us, non-muslims included exploded with opinions, reasons, statements, this and that.
within all those words, it seem clear cut to me that the rule which Muslim believed in at it's core = "NO DRAWING OF PROPHET'S FACE" is exactly what "these" people used to provoke ANGER.

so now, I couldn't sleep at all! urgh! after my own feedback to that, now i'm sitting here and thinking. If this is the tactic "they" are using. the same as the comic years ago.
Why the same reaction?
So i pat myself in the back, for not replying to the guy's journal.
Instead, I just converse with others on how we agree that this "kind" still exist.
And now I'm laughing hysterically in my mind...of course THEY DO! dhuh!

what came out of this was to continue living and paint the right way for the generations before me. because, the legacy we are creating today, is what shaped them. we want LESSER humans with this "hatred mind games lovers". we want to let them grow knowing that the better way is the ONLY way. no matter how cool the Wrong seems to be.

in order to do this, WE have to Change..Now! keep the counter-attack full-on.
it's How we live our lives that matters. period. and i intend to live mine bravely and as rightly as I could. for the black potches, i need YOU to help me.

~ ya Allah, forgive all my wrong doings. amin.

Love at first Preview

The Fray self titled album kidnapped my heart to a place I have been missing for a while.
It feels good to be with the melody and to be able to 'sing' again.
Last night, I went to Amazon.com and previewed their latest album.
It got me so excited, that I bought it today.

I LOVE IT! really do. instantly, it's in my fav album of all time list.
10 years from now, I will still love it.
The album, reads like a story book. The design is brilliant. It was all connected to the songs, lyrics & voice. I sit and read, and listen, all at the same time.
(haven't done this since high school!) .
Reached the end, there were tiny tears in my eyes.
Perhaps, I'm around that time.
Which is good, considering I need to refuel my passion with inspiration.

Looks like, the "connection" found it's way to me again.
I think no one understands what the heck I am saying but that's ok.
It's unseen for a reason.

Few days ago, while I was driving and stopped at a red light. There was a bird on top of a row of bushes. Parallel to my driver seat window, I observed it's behavior. The red/black bird struggled on its feet to drink the flowers. It looks painful, I thought. but maybe the bird feels nothing because I assumed the feet must be thick and hard that the bushes sharp branches couldn't have hurt it.
Then, the bird lost its balance, fell down into it and disappeared from my sight!
Then the light changed to green.
Continued driving, I thought.
No matter what ones first thought formed based on clear view and knowledge, people and life surprised us at our most sincere pure moment.
It shakes us. It made me feel that nothing is permanent.
It feels good to know that there are mysteries and more to be discovered.
To be able to, is actually one of Allah's gift.


~ grateful for the deeper sight.

I have decided..No Coke

until Peace & Democracy is fully imposed in Israel.
(an sms was given to me by a friend yesterday morning)
I read further. Google these : killercoke, ei:the case for boycotting Israel.

It's the state of mind of a community.
We tell ourselves, we can't change who we are, who they are, that some people will not change just because we told them to. We change when we want to.
If that so, in this case of a country, it is a dead end, right?
Revolution is a waste of time then huh.

Well, this got me thinking, of individuality & humanity.
It is not the same thing is it.
Humanity is embedded in us.
Individuality is created by us.

So I believe, people can change.That's the whole purpose of humanity.
We evolved. We don't get stuck in a rut forever.
We just got lost sometimes.

In Palestine, families got killed in the name of power.
Humans will fight back on injustice. Why question that?
When we know the tug and war of both opposite will go on,
because there is No Justice in War.
History teach us that.
This 'humanity' process of attack and fight is the middle phase.
The beginning phase is 'our mind'.
where we decided on choices.
The end phase MUST BE 'our mind' as well.
where we Must decide on choices as well.

The choices lies back to the 'humanity' in us.
Until what end,
does the Israeli willing to kill for power?
how long can the Palestine die to hold their land?

It seems, both are strong.
Though, the Israeli looks stronger because they are "Big".
And to kill the "Small" is pretty much an easy task.
Which tells me about their Individuality.
They chose to be a killer. A greedy type of killer.
What force in today's world made them become this 'barbaric'?
The responsible people of this war is by far the ugliest form of humans.
Humanity & Individuality, both destroyed.
So how to fix that kind of loss?

Forgiveness.
The good people of Israeli have to unite against their rotten breed and give back what's right to the people of Palestine.
The victims of Palestine, somehow someway have to take the high road too.
Blood for blood isn't going to work. Because let's face it, no other Muslim country wants to be in war. (yeah i know, we are selfish too) or is it because we found a better way to stand for our rights without bloodshed?
Or should every country in the world form a group of willing soldiers to Unite and take down the 'gone too far' Israeli once & for all?!
If succeeded, what then?Teach them a lesson?Punishment?
It's going to come back to their Humanity and Individuality.
Can we change who they are?

That's the question isn't it?
Let it be the hope and goal. Change your own world,Israeli.
I believe in Humanity even how tiny it is.
We can change.
Stop trying to control others when you can't even keep your soul.

and finally, I do not want to live in "Gotham City".

~ my heart prays for the victims of any war.

Creative?

Is just a word now for me. It is not a definition anymore.
Basically, I'm letting the thinking of the thinking go.
Ironically, my subconscious mind aka inspiration will do the 'creative' thinking itself.
Forcing it to do that is a waste and I do know that, IF I cut off the thinking of the thinking.
So many thinking. I may loose my mind!!!
But I'm not. Cause I'm letting me be. I am born with this ability to do so.
So be it. Bluek!

Back to the Q i wrote few weeks ago. It's now in the orbit again.

Observation.
Sometimes i think we are like parasites. We feed on each other to get what we want. There's good and bad parasites. Then again, we are both really.
So perhaps, we exchange to balance each other?
It's when, we became greedy that we make the other weak and eventually some will die.
And the greedy parasites tag n war with each other.
Leaving the last winner ONE HUGE UGLY BLOATED BIG MESSY of a Parasite with millions of dead parasites! What's left to happen? It will EXPLODE! and die of course.

Now, isn't the balanced world is much better and that the fact that we won't be alone is a major cheery part?

So, If one more person ask me to BE SELFISH even a bit as a solution? I'll just IGNORE!
Why do you think that I have this ability and power in the 1st place?

I'll be where I be. I am what I am.

p.s : I want to open an Art Gallery!

~ looking up, feet on grass ~

Need A Jar

Had 2 shitty days. The problem is I badly want to tell someone but I can't.
I'm starting to think this is some kind of disease? or a malfunction. meh.
But like always, it passed away. Like any problems in the world.
Anyway, my thoughts that came out from the recent 'moment' is this.

I need A Jar. Best it to be Magical because it has to fit pretty big black stuff in it.
See, i also made a theory why the Ocean is made of 70% in Earth.
It's because it needs to clean up ALL the jars in the world.
Like the circle of life,
we take and give, we absorb and exhale. In and out.
Black and white.
The jar is where the blackness needs to be put in.
And knowing that the Ocean will never shrink is a Breeze.

Erin McCarley with Pony.

You hold your head up to the sky
You say what kind of blue
are you? Are you?
Then you ride your pony round and round
It’s diggin’ a hole, right through, right through

You stumble down a yellow brick road,
Spinning your shoes in the air, the air.
Then you, hold your breath, and count to nine,
Hoping that soon somebody will find you, find you,

Go on, go on, go on, the stars are watching,
Just say, just say, just say, what you’re feeling,
You know, you know, you know, you gotta take a bow and do it your way,
It’s okay, ladadadadadadadada, it’s okay, ladadadadadadadada

You’re 15 miles over the speed,
You’re going fast as you can after your daydream Ohh
I might get sad, carried away
Or have a serious talk with your, champaign.

It’s time for you to prove,
Within your ruby shoes
You deserve a smile with no regret,
Look at you
Kicking off your shoes,
Dancing for the world to see,
You got the power to believe,
Open up and see,
And go be free and fly away

~ closer to the Jar ~

Regular

What's so regular about Regular?
I find excitement at trying new food no matter the price and the "classy-ness" of the place.
As long its clean and halal.
I like that some of my friends eat stuff that i don't. Like weird name of drinks or jellyfish!
Nothing to them but an ocean difference to me.
What's regular nowadays?
When we know more than before. Knowledge is super easy to gain.
New becomes a smaller territory.

However, are we born to know just enough to live?
Or is life a challenge?
Seek unknowns, untouched, undiscovered...even it looks like we don't really need it to survive.
We don't?
Do we really have to search other planets besides Earth that's livable to prepare the future of an entire population the option/door to a new planet to call home?
Japan's already building a hotel on the moon!

Regularity is irregular.
We're the same but we're not.

So you see, to me, regular is extraordinary. Be YOU.

~ life is this, beautiful ~

Finding the truth with Science

A 16 years old French girl from DA, messaged me and mention that she hoped that the experiment in France yesterday will not cause the end of the world.
We were initially casually exchanging thanks for our artworks.

Anyway, I was intrigued by the general fuss she'd given me so.. what else? I Googled 'em.

Apparently, it was a Physics Experiment revolving around a machine created to detect the 'God's particle' (some call em). Finding it will help to explain the other dimension exist in our world. Will also explained further or changed the Big Bang Theory.
Some were against this, saying it might create a black hole! Hence. my Da fren's cry for not wanting to die young!

At this, i thought about "Ghosts",malaikat, makhluk ghaib etc. The unseen but well known presence that we believe in.
Which then reminded me of the book i read, " The End of Mr.Y ".
Also, once my uncle told me about his PHD friend in the US, who told him, that the study of the paranormal has already started, scientifically. Like a university course.

I admire deeply people who pursue and fight to find the truth.
But not with an unacceptable cost. Then again, Life is Cause & Effect.
Some we can control, and some we leave it at faith.
Some decision, even at the fullest deepest thought, can go sour.
Like a sudden death, that doesn't make sense.
In Islam, that's Qada' & Qadar. Humans never will know better than Allah.
But that does not mean, we should stop pursuing what we believe in.
And stop learning from different angles.


~ oh, Beautiful Gift : Life ~

Here's articles/news of the experiment :

http://news.smh.com.au/world/massive-physics-experiment-on-wednesday-20080908-4byr.html

http://www.independent.co.uk/news/science/the-large-hadron-collider-end-of-the-world-or-gods-own-particle-921540.html

http://www.cnn.com/2008/TECH/09/08/lhc.collider/index.html

http://www.rte.ie/news/2008/0909/cern.html

http://www.sciencedaily.com/releases/2008/09/080903112026.htm

For Me

There are things you can't change and you can't have them back once its lost.
Finding those that are lost is harder, and will get harder as time goes by.
Within the time frame thats been given to us, we choose what we keep and what we let go.
In return, in this temporary life, we learn to get by along with the pain of it.
In space where you can breath freely, is where you'll realize, the painful choices that you made before, had been done, based on a tiny prayer inside you.
That prayer is change for the better. And to keep on holding to whats actually real and good for your soul since that counts for not just today but forever.

ps: I MISS HOME SO BADLY! but im having a blast here in the UK. :)

Alhamdulillah, im fine ere.
Tonnes of pictures. Good frens. Cant wait to see Nina soon!

~ live now for tomorrow ~

Passion, dearest Passionists

I place a high admiration for people with passion.
When I say Passion, I meant those who owns it in their heart to simply live.
I do not associate Passion with only Success.
True Passion is when it outlive reality.
When no matter what circumstances we are in, Passion never fades.

I realize another reason why i love Tennis Matches so much.
Now,French Open is on.Round 3 today.
Watching a new player, playing their hardest, losing the 1st two set..winning the next 2 sets..and to loose in the final set..lost in the end.
And yet, people stand up, applaud for the outstanding effort he/she made.
Due to the fact, the big lost, is actually a grand exit.
Where people enjoyed one of the best matches.
And that in the end of the day, nobody left the court a loser.

Imagine producing the same energy, perspective and respect to everyday people.
Those who fight, within ordinary compound, and yet even there is no Grand Exit,
no Billboard to show off ones effort, no Glitz and Glamor spilled on them exaggerating their life,
i always manage to be amazed at how little people appreciate people.

Single mothers, orphans, grass cutters, hawkers, gas station workers, contractors, etc..
that usually called 'ordinary' people.
When i did see these people, did their job, in the best manner possible,
i wonder how did they do it.
And i think the answer is Passion.
Somewhere somehow in the tiny space of their heart, lies Passion.
Saying that the life given, is worth only the best effort.

Don't you think this ought to be applaud?
Don't you think they are Kings in their territory?

Im not naive. I know people never choose to be a grass cutter...if they can.
But when i saw, a father, cutting bushes near the Shell at my house, Smiling, while his young daughter and son, playing nearby...
(he said to them : "play nicely..watch around and be safe, dad will be done in a few")
I have nothing but respect.
Trust me that the bushes at my Shell, are always in perfect shape.

Is that Passion of cutting tree OR Passion of Life?

After reading, The Witch of Portobello and watched Mr.Magorium's Wonder Emporium..
what came out is this..

"Turn every ordinary into extraordinary"

Now, Passion is Heart and is about appreciating Life.
Washing the dishes, taking care of the sick, respecting our parents, be kind even to the mean,
aware of death and after life, Islam, flaws, faults, sacrifices, forgiveness and learn.

With this in mind, nothing seem unworthy.
Like Allah said, no obstacles laid for you if you aren't capable of handling.

By understanding, Passion, Life and Death..(with Islam),
we are smart for what we are.
*Applaud*

Thanks for reading.
~ passionista ~

Mr.Magorium's Wonder Emporium!

Resulted in 2 entries in a time. I watched it sometime few days back. And it affect me and my running to.. especially the phrase.
Life is an occasion. Rise to it!
i keep recalling it to myself.

After that dvd, i look at life like a space. A square, circle, any shape i dont really care.
Cause it can be any. Like Mr.Magorium's Wonder Emporium. It's magical.
Like life. We know anything can happen. We know of the cause and effect.
We also know about the unexplained events that happened.
We know reality.
We know after-life.
So why stop expanding when life is a "magic" tool in the first place?
We may not know how to use it at times, there arent step by step methods.
We only have guide.
I intended to use. Its "magic". So anything is possible. :)
Will it and work it.

There are many wonderful eccentric sayings by Mr.Magorium.
Here are the few i love!
Mr. Edward Magorium: I fell so completely in love with these shoes, I bought enough pairs to last my whole lifetime. This is my last pair.

Mr. Edward Magorium: Unlikely adventures require unlikely tools.

Mr. Edward Magorium: [to Molly, about dying] When King Lear dies in Act V, do you know what Shakespeare has written? He's written "He dies." That's all, nothing more. No fanfare, no metaphor, no brilliant final words. The culmination of the most influential work of dramatic literature is "He dies." It takes Shakespeare, a genius, to come up with "He dies." And yet every time I read those two words, I find myself overwhelmed with dysphoria. And I know it's only natural to be sad, but not because of the words "He dies." but because of the life we saw prior to the words. [pause, walks over to Molly]

Mr. Edward Magorium: I've lived all five of my acts, Mahoney, and I am not asking you to be happy that I must go. I'm only asking that you turn the page, continue reading... and let the next story begin. And if anyone asks what became of me, you relate my life in all its wonder, and end it with a simple and modest "He died."

Molly Mahoney: [starting to sob] I love you.
Mr. Edward Magorium: I love you, too. [picks Molly up, sighs heavily]
Mr. Edward Magorium: Your life is an occasion. Rise to it.

Mr. Edward Magorium: 37 seconds.
Molly Mahoney: Great. Well done. Now we wait.
Mr. Edward Magorium: No. We breathe. We pulse. We regenerate. Our hearts beat. Our minds create. Our souls ingest. 37 seconds, well used, is a lifetime.

that's all!
Take Care. :)

Running Week

this past week started with my 'running' routine.
Work is work.Nothing much.I guess,promoting gym,spa and beauty products had its effects.
= RUN!
reading a new book now, The Witch of Portobello. so far, it's been a really good read, about Sufism, art, caligraphy and trance.Haven't finished it though.But its a journey of a woman who had hard life but have special characteristics/abilities few only aware.

I also bought a 1968 Time Life book on Manet. A France painter who's been considered the one who changed traditional - modern painting / impressionism. (though he's only considered a genius after his death.)

aah..usually, that happens with people who think further ahead.
while, people who think in the now, couldn't understand how and why some think differently.
Some just learned more than others.
It's all about being yourself really. Nothing more.
Though, Manet did hid his painter side, with his people side.
Artist do that i guess. Or else, there's no painting to paint about. If everything was revealed.
Or is because some thing in our soul, need a conventional vessel to come out?

In the book box, there's an extra booklet too, a Chronology of Western Art dated from 1250 which started mostly in Florence and Siena.
Got me thinking, if i could popped in the library in Turkey right now, i so want to read books about Islamic paintings.Which is mostly Sufism.
I read somewhere that eastern books on world matters were adopted by the west.
hmm..

arrgh!all this extra thinking is all because of The End of Mr.Y. 4th dimension,mind journey.
also because, i just want to paint my life, everyday, with as many colors as possible.
i hate the idea of filling it with materialism as a ruler of how successful i am as a human.
i love to have my short life filled with everything that ruled by Islam.
That would be everything really. Love,myself,family,friends,knowledge,hardships given,dreams.
Especially knowledge. Its the way to grow.
How successful i am is how i am as everything i am. And that excludes me being a Bitch!
hahahaa..

I written my 1st News Article in DeviantArt. Check it out if you want.
Nothing much, just basics really.
http://news.deviantart.com/article/48940/

Enjoy your weekends people!

~Love always~

'This is Home' is here!

I just watched the video of Switchfoot's 'This Is Home' that is the theme movie song for
Prince Caspian:The Chronicles of Narnia! w0000t!!! so exciting!

VIDEO HERE! VIDEO HERE! VIDEO HERE! VIDEO HERE!
watch it here with a note from Jon too! here's the link
This Is Home by Swithcfoot

"As a band we have held firm to the idea that music can bring people together to accomplish much more than a show. We've always tried to play music for everyone regardless of ideology, race, or genre. So with that in mind we are proud to announce our involvement in one of the most diverse lineups we've ever been a part of. We dreamed up the The Music Builds Tour along with a few friends of ours whose main commonality is a dream to see this world change for the better. Different bands, different backgrounds, one goal: A traveling festival to raise money and awareness for Habitat for Humanity. We think very highly of the people who listen to our music. We are grateful for the open minded audience who have embraced our songs and allowed us to push the boundaries of where the music can go. We invite you to put differences in musical taste aside and focus on our commonalities: we all want to see this world change for the better. We hope that you'll come with us on this next part of the journey and get involved in something much bigger than ourselves." - Chad

I checked out a few of local acts last night, and it got me thinking.

What makes an artist an artist? Is it always about the good work well presented or is it the ideology behind every piece or the person, that made them matter?

I've always turn to hidden gold, when it comes to what i choose to hear,view, read or write.
Its always been one of my strong value i cherished.
So me as an art appreciator, Ive always dig deep.
With the world today as it is, with Pluto gone, with Earth at stake, with teenagers eager to be old, with adults who cant keep up with life's high expectancy, with the world becomes flat, and we are close to thousands of doors yet made us feel stuck to open one.

I wonder, have life been this hard ages ago?

So far, as a human, living..it always comes back to what matter.
What matter is loving the good things, appreciate the simpler things, untangled the complications, believe in justice and forgiveness, be true to the truth and keep learning.
What matter is that you try ---> to be more.
Now that is a masterpiece.

~ i'm not a miracle worker, but i admire small changes ~
*please note the photos are not mine

Window and Words

There's a window in our heart.
There's a window inside.
But to remain closed, is it still a window,
without the View?

-to listen please go the right side page for Odeo Player-
Kate Voegele with "Kindly Unspoken"
(as heard in One Tree Hill)
As high as the moon | So high were my spirits | When you sang out my name
And coming from you | It was enough just to hear it | Oh, it rang like the bells did today
But even the sturdiest ground | Can shift and can tremble and let us fall down

Kindly unspoken
You show your emotion | And silence speaks louder than words
It's lucky I'm clever | If I didn't know better
I'd believe only that which I'd heard

In the days of my folly | I followed your lead | I did what Simon Said to do
But I won't let melancholy | Play me for a fool | Oh, no I'm on my way somewhere new
And as far as your lack of something to say |
Well, to tell me goodbye there was no better way

So don't keep me up till the dawn | With words that'll keep leading me on
I know much better than to wait for an answer from you

Packing Blues and Tinglers!!!

Yup.The day after 2moro..bye Malaysia, and hello New Zealand.
well, for just 10 days. :) so today, i started packing. and it was raining the whole night.
(again...I Love Rain!)
when i was driving out earlier, i imagined what if each drop is like this tingling creature tht can make u tingle inside. and these "Tinglers" can make us feel alive sometimes.hmm...
(waah! found my next writing!)
so next when i came home, i remember the song i explored yesterday.
The Swedish band, The Perishers. and i fell in love with "Sway".
its now playing non-stop in my mind.haha...
Sway+Tinglers = something new...soon.

oh i do want to update on wat i did last saturday.
I became an MC for MSU for the International Book Fair 2008 at PWTC.
my god! there's a lot of ppl. n me talking????hahahahaha...weird.
i was supposed to dance. but i cldnt, due to my tight schedule with my new business wit my aunt. but my fren really need my help...so there i was...babbling.
phewww! i think i did ok - for my 1st time!!!! insane.

thts it for now. Enjoy SWAY u humans!!!

!

Let There Be Morning (2005)

http://www.theperishersmusic.com/

I talk to you as to a friend
I hope that’s what you’ve come to be
It feels as though we’ve made amends
Like we found a way eventually

It was you who picked the pieces up
When I was a broken soul
And then glued me back together
Returned to me what others stole

I don’t wanna hurt you
I don’t wanna make you sway
Like I know I’ve done before
Iwill not do it anymore
I’ve always been a dreamer
I've had my head among the clouds
Now that I’m coming down
Won’t you be my solid ground?

I look at you and see a friend
I hope that’s what you wanna be
Are we back now where it all began?
Have you finally forgiven me?

You gathered my dreams in
When they all blew away
And then tricked them back into me
You saved me I was almost dead

I don’t wanna hurt you
I don’t wanna make you sway
Like I know I’ve done before
I will not do it anymore
I’ve always been a dreamer
I've had my head among the clouds
Now that I’m coming down
Won’t you be my solid ground?

I don’t wanna hurt you
Like I know I’ve done before
I will not do it anymore...

I don’t wanna hurt you
I don’t wanna make you sway
Like I know I’ve done before
I will not do it anymore
I’ve always been a dreamer
I've had my head among the clouds
Now that I’m coming down
Won’t you be my solid ground?

~loving my Tinglers,really really do~

Raining Season Friend

1. The Cure for the Pain
2. Southbound Train
3. Lord, Save me from myself.
4. Equally Skilled
5. The Moon is a Magnet
6. My Love Goes Free

" it will be a lot to run away....it will be a lot..it will be a lot...it will be a lot to run away"
" what are we, if we're not in love. what are we, if i'm not alone."
One of my favourite Lyricist, ever!!!

SCREEEEEECHHHHH.....STOP!
scratch the different religion. neither this cool dude can take away my faith.
but listening to this EP, he got talent to write one of the most sincere human feelings-
and its damn beautiful.
right to the core of his work, i think its only a human desire questioning and asking for something better and some meaning that should bloom out from our struggle, choices and mistakes.
and that we feel the presence of a distant destiny, that lingers too near.
words like his, played almost perfectly. music that do-breathe.
and again, may i remind myself, life is still a journey.
:)

~war of love is loving~

Selfless Nanny McPhee

me n my bestie talked the all common issues of our life.
and the topic, Selfish came up.
n yes, i heard this many times, and am aware of the rational reason behind it.

that being selfish in certain cases is needed, even if we dont want to be.
in circumstances where, cruel to be kind i guess, kindness benefiting ourself.
in a way, it teaches other people around us to practice their self efficiency.
too much help, can teach us to learn to be weak. even though in my opinion, we all are not.

on the other hand, with the world as it is today, helping hands and hearts, are crucially needed.
self confidence and self esteem can easily be mistaken as selfish.
even confusing the possessor of this positive attitude.
coz sometimes, i see ppl get lost in showing how strong and self worthy ones are,
that they tend to see others as, lesser.

i jst watched Nanny McPhee for the 1st time, and i am caught in the genius literature,
and how genuine the story is.

Nanny McPhee incredible charisma
"There is something you should understand about the way I work.
When you need me but do not want me, then I must stay.
When you want me but no longer need me, then I have to go.
It's rather sad, really, but there it is."

I didnt get the 'sad line' part, until the end when she walked away in a content, accomplished, charismatic manner surrounded by snow which contradicts her black attire.
A little symbolism there.
But most importantly, she walk away full of Love, at the place she left behind, in that walking moment, and certainly-future.

The End, leaves me, reassuring myself, that selfless is beautiful and complete, when it is simply appreciated and nothing more.
Appreciation is the simplest thing in the world really.

I do know that we all experienced or soon will, that selfish in terms of situation is ok.
But I applaud and thanking, who could be more.

Who in my opinion, must be a magical creature or some kind.
A Nanny McPhee.

that with Nanny McPhee-ses,
LIFE is Beautiful-ler.

dear Horoscope

Predictions.

And here I am, choosing which Today's Horoscope that I'm gonna use to my advantage, happy and like about, or even a little proud.
muahahahahaha...

Look! Read! Here's what I had pick. (from Friendster's Horoscope)

The Bottom Line

Today, when you know you're right, you're right. Intellectual impulses are good.

In Detail

Today, when you know you're right, you're right! Your intellect is strong and focused right now, and it's going to give you a sixth sense about who's telling the truth, who's trying to hide the truth, and who is afraid of the truth! This type of knowledge could be a dangerous thing in the hands of lesser beings. But a superstar like you knows how to use your powers for good, not evil. You'll finally have the opportunity you've been waiting for to introduce two like-minded people.

there...silence. it made it sound so Heroic! doesnt it?haha.."powers for good,not evil". uuuu...

n yeah...everyone in the planet knows that Pisces = The Dreamer

but does everyone knows that this Piscesean is a Fighter?
which means, Im fighting my way for Concrete.

hehe.
xx a.k.a muah muah

currently singing to the song "Human" by Jon McLaughlin.
miss listening to it..
"afterall....we're only human...hurt instead of healing...."

Talking..im tired.

the thing about people speaking up is that...when many talks all it gives is noise.
i personally didn't truly believe that speaking up is needed more.
i do think listeners are way underrated.

we have eyes so we can see which perhaps can be helped with the words to explain.
but if we can be a true listener, then we can see, acknowledge to the extent that we do not need words to realize something.
an expression, body language, a vibe or aura or whatever the heck our 6th sense catch up...is the key.

we all have voices inside.some screams to be let out.
then again.should it?
words is a powerful tool. which means, speaking up about everything...even little annoying things are wasteful.

again,i adore people who speaks the truth.
i adore people who fight for something real.
but i only adore those who do it, after they listened to more than what's being meant to say.
a compact speaker with many stories to back em up.

so hence my thoughts that listeners should be praised.
that i do see you, everyday.

Soul Fashion Seeker's Mumbling

i was restless all day.
i felt desperate for space to breathe the fire out of me.
i realize 30 mins ago that i simply need to write.

thoughts occur to me these past few days.
having everything is great of course but it should teach us the meaning of lost.
i say it should coz i had seen people.

that we put love not on people but love itself.
we make love as exclusive as possible to parade to the world how glorious it is to have it.
and to be in love is enough to justify any means.
and that love is bound to follow certain class.
and that love isn't border less.

i learned the bigger ways to love.
to love the people..not owning the love itself.
in some ways,i grew to be one who have so much love inside me, that it keeps growing as i cared less of myself.
only then i truly see how much i love myself even more.

it's not the clothes i wear, nor the makeup i fixed upon my face.
it is not the knowledge that i seek for myself.
it is not the dreams i wish every night.
it is not the things i wanted to buy.
it is not about seeing myself smiling in the mirror and look happy.

it's about affecting change to others.
it's about us standing together in balance.
that we are equally free within our forms, body & soul to be exactly, ourself.
that we need not hide from the world.
that we should never ever need to ask for anything.

when all we are...are givers.
and everybody wins.
cause we never ever have to be unsatisfied.
imagine...

so the more i care for the people around me, i found myself.
that i am capable of so much more than just loving myself,family and friends.
can u say that for yourself?
can u say that you are a hero in your own way coz you own this massive capability to affect change?
i believe u can.
if you're selfless.
can u?

future holds this simple fact that materialization had somehow blur the image of basic human touch.
we put up walls around us all the time.
cause people could not be trusted.
i think it is because we cant handle the negativity.
we are weak.
imagine..
if all the bad things thrown at you, you find a way to accept it and turn it around.
that you managed to fix everything,
not because you need it but because you want to change the thrower.
you grew wiser and more.

its damn hard i know to put up a smile in front of misery.
its human nature to feel sad at times.
i just think that the world have its fair share of tragedy and disaster.
we dont need the people to do the same as well, no matter how bad life maybe.

tq for reading,
~the perfect soul fashion seeker~