Soul Fashion Seeker's Mumbling

i was restless all day.
i felt desperate for space to breathe the fire out of me.
i realize 30 mins ago that i simply need to write.

thoughts occur to me these past few days.
having everything is great of course but it should teach us the meaning of lost.
i say it should coz i had seen people.

that we put love not on people but love itself.
we make love as exclusive as possible to parade to the world how glorious it is to have it.
and to be in love is enough to justify any means.
and that love is bound to follow certain class.
and that love isn't border less.

i learned the bigger ways to love.
to love the people..not owning the love itself.
in some ways,i grew to be one who have so much love inside me, that it keeps growing as i cared less of myself.
only then i truly see how much i love myself even more.

it's not the clothes i wear, nor the makeup i fixed upon my face.
it is not the knowledge that i seek for myself.
it is not the dreams i wish every night.
it is not the things i wanted to buy.
it is not about seeing myself smiling in the mirror and look happy.

it's about affecting change to others.
it's about us standing together in balance.
that we are equally free within our forms, body & soul to be exactly, ourself.
that we need not hide from the world.
that we should never ever need to ask for anything.

when all we are...are givers.
and everybody wins.
cause we never ever have to be unsatisfied.
imagine...

so the more i care for the people around me, i found myself.
that i am capable of so much more than just loving myself,family and friends.
can u say that for yourself?
can u say that you are a hero in your own way coz you own this massive capability to affect change?
i believe u can.
if you're selfless.
can u?

future holds this simple fact that materialization had somehow blur the image of basic human touch.
we put up walls around us all the time.
cause people could not be trusted.
i think it is because we cant handle the negativity.
we are weak.
imagine..
if all the bad things thrown at you, you find a way to accept it and turn it around.
that you managed to fix everything,
not because you need it but because you want to change the thrower.
you grew wiser and more.

its damn hard i know to put up a smile in front of misery.
its human nature to feel sad at times.
i just think that the world have its fair share of tragedy and disaster.
we dont need the people to do the same as well, no matter how bad life maybe.

tq for reading,
~the perfect soul fashion seeker~