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Sunday, March 30, 2008

Raining Season Friend

1. The Cure for the Pain
2. Southbound Train
3. Lord, Save me from myself.
4. Equally Skilled
5. The Moon is a Magnet
6. My Love Goes Free

" it will be a lot to run will be a will be a will be a lot to run away"
" what are we, if we're not in love. what are we, if i'm not alone."
One of my favourite Lyricist, ever!!!

scratch the different religion. neither this cool dude can take away my faith.
but listening to this EP, he got talent to write one of the most sincere human feelings-
and its damn beautiful.
right to the core of his work, i think its only a human desire questioning and asking for something better and some meaning that should bloom out from our struggle, choices and mistakes.
and that we feel the presence of a distant destiny, that lingers too near.
words like his, played almost perfectly. music that do-breathe.
and again, may i remind myself, life is still a journey.

~war of love is loving~

Wednesday, March 26, 2008

It's Time

ya Allah. Me n my plans!

28 in 2008. ada ong ka? hehe.according to one of my DA frens, in Chinese Horoscope, Monkey ppl will hv a rocky year this yr. ahahaha...
i dun care! im a rebellious horoscope reader. teehee.
tht means, im kicking the negative ones out, by turning it 360 degrees, or jst lmao.

my bdy was on the 18th. 18th. 28 yrs old. 2008.
beautiful March - coz its raining season in KL.
n oh how i LOVE rain.
i really do.
we Malaysians, can never have tht perfect wintery Sotto voce conversation with ourself.
or open the enveloping secrets and excitements of Autumn n Spring .

My beautiful plans. In this rainy season, races of flashes crashed in my mind.
I am happy as i can be.

With all my heart, I thank you all.
My long lost friends, close ones, cyber friends, and for sure loved ones.
For the thought n best wishes.
Tq WYNN for a blog entry for me. XX.
Tq NINA for singing the bdy song in sms from far away in Aberdeen.
TQ SYAHIDA for emailing me from Spore.For never forgetting me after 6mnhts in Astronomy together.
Tq ZUE for the lovely thought of spending the time wit me.

Bdy isnt a big deal like when im young. Since i hvnt really celebrate this day wit family, (4 years). This yr is different.
Y? coz my dearie nephew Apiq (3years old), all dressed up at home excited to come n see me on my bdy. can i say no to tht?
To my mum, who ordered special delivery of food frm Kuantan.
She made Steamboat for the bdy menu. (terharu)
My dad who managed to do spend time wit me, (b4 Golf of course..haha..) still, i love the time we had.
My relatives.
Especially, my Sister. Such a sweetheart. She is the mastermind behind the Big Gift.
My parents and her, bought dream helper.
i never guess. which is y i didnt update this blog.
i jst dunno how to write this.
My bro went all the way too. He bought me a Lifecam for my pc. something he never did.

So 28 became something more.
With all the plans i do hv right now..more is inevitable.
the key is to work it out.
and i'll always feel blessed, even some things don't work out.
Hikmah learned.

So life up until now, hv been full of risings and downfalls.
My basket is overloaded.
I could hv written one complete book of my life.
Its time for a new basket. New beginnings.
Its time to really grow up.
and im glad to be. :)

Love with fresh eyes,
~ someone who managed to be true to the truth~

Monday, March 17, 2008

Sunburst Burst More than Incubus

yeah.did this.

surprisingly, Incognito got me excited first and in the mood for music. Positive, fun, pop, funky songs certainly one of the highlights for me tht night. My tenses, and negativity vibe, slowly went away as i dance away.Enjoying myself wit the crowd.

Sunburst started at 2pm, but i went there around 9pm.
Although, Incubus was the main reason im there, seeing John Legend singing Save Room was priceless too! I bet the girl who got picked personally by Mr.Legend, to slow dance wit him on stage cant sleep!hahaha...n..her name was Nisha!!! erk.

Then there was the graffiti thing, fire thing, wall thing, and Incubus rare song list.
Aqueous Transmission was the last song. Perfect.
My fav tht night, definitely wld be : Quicksand, Anna Molly, Warmth, Talk Shows of Mute.

Little extra when the crowd sang Happy Birthday to Ben. :)

Incubus ended nearly 2am and it was awesome. Money well spent.
Best of all, i met Loth! my long lost high school buddy! cool! as usual she had her "The Secrets" Tee on. (the exact tee like Brandon's)..hehe.

for more BUZZ on Incubus tht night, click this ->INCUBUS ONLINE VIEW

ere's shots of tht night.

since my vids tht nite is so i wont upload it.hehe.

so next in line...Brandi Carlile! she'll be in OZ end of March and no tickets will fall from the sky for tht one.huhu..SO, next year or end of this year then. :)

~someone who needs loads of hug at the moment~

Friday, March 14, 2008

Selfless Nanny McPhee

me n my bestie talked the all common issues of our life.
and the topic, Selfish came up.
n yes, i heard this many times, and am aware of the rational reason behind it.

that being selfish in certain cases is needed, even if we dont want to be.
in circumstances where, cruel to be kind i guess, kindness benefiting ourself.
in a way, it teaches other people around us to practice their self efficiency.
too much help, can teach us to learn to be weak. even though in my opinion, we all are not.

on the other hand, with the world as it is today, helping hands and hearts, are crucially needed.
self confidence and self esteem can easily be mistaken as selfish.
even confusing the possessor of this positive attitude.
coz sometimes, i see ppl get lost in showing how strong and self worthy ones are,
that they tend to see others as, lesser.

i jst watched Nanny McPhee for the 1st time, and i am caught in the genius literature,
and how genuine the story is.

Nanny McPhee incredible charisma
"There is something you should understand about the way I work.
When you need me but do not want me, then I must stay.
When you want me but no longer need me, then I have to go.
It's rather sad, really, but there it is."

I didnt get the 'sad line' part, until the end when she walked away in a content, accomplished, charismatic manner surrounded by snow which contradicts her black attire.
A little symbolism there.
But most importantly, she walk away full of Love, at the place she left behind, in that walking moment, and certainly-future.

The End, leaves me, reassuring myself, that selfless is beautiful and complete, when it is simply appreciated and nothing more.
Appreciation is the simplest thing in the world really.

I do know that we all experienced or soon will, that selfish in terms of situation is ok.
But I applaud and thanking, who could be more.

Who in my opinion, must be a magical creature or some kind.
A Nanny McPhee.

that with Nanny McPhee-ses,
LIFE is Beautiful-ler.

jealous of OZ

if my plan to be in Adelaide this yr has not been postponed,
than i could have go and see Brandi Carlile LIVE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

yup.i did put her up in my blog ere last time,but its her music.
It's like magnet.
keeps bringing u in. amazing.
i didnt really dig her infos or bios etc.
jst for the sake of her music, is enuff for me.
but today,for the 1st time,i checked her bandout in youtube.
the usual,radio appearances,interviews,tour vids, tht sort of stuff.

she's real,cool and humble and freakin awesome Live!
and yeah,i agree her smile actually lights a room.
she didnt believe in the whole follow ur heart and chase ur dream thing.
for her, what works, is the key.
she said tht the point of making music is to get as many humans attached to her music.
and tht is all.
she never even heard of the show Grey's Anatomy when her breakthrough to mainstream happens due to her single used in it.the band was bz touring.
afterwards, was when she knew tht the show also make a base for unheard artists.
only then,she got her Tivo, and did wat we all do. Series Marathon.

All of these lines across my face
Tell you the story of who I am
So many stories of where I've been
And how I got to where I am
But these stories don't mean anything
When you've got no one to tell them to
It's true...I was made for you

I climbed across the mountain tops
Swam all across the ocean blue
I crossed all the lines and I broke all the rules
But baby I broke them all for you
Because even when I was flat broke
You made me feel like a million bucks
Yeah you do and I was made for you

You see the smile that's on my mouth
Is hiding the words that don't come out
And all of my friends who think that I'm blessed
They don't know my head is a mess
No, they don't know who I really am
And they don't know what I've been through like you do
And I was made for you...

All of these lines across my face
Tell you the story of who I am
So many stories of where I've been
And how I got to where I am
But these stories don't mean anything
When you've got no one to tell them to
It's true...I was made for you
Oh yeah, it's true... I was made for you

p.s : i had a gr8 day yesterday! *wink*

Thursday, March 06, 2008

Sunny Inside Me

got my tix!!! how abt u?
Incubus oh Incubus.
they love March around ere do they. my bdy month.
this bring back memories of my 1st ever Incubus Concert in Wellington, NZ - March 2004.
hmmm....still yummy. :)

i checked out John Legend songs. I do notice him. Never really care.
but now, SAVE ROOM, is one of my fav song now.
i listen to it, like 20 times in a row. damn good music.
have a go listening to won't be disappointed.

~"pagi yang gelap, kini sudah terang...." Pagi Yang Gelap, HUJAN~

Monday, March 03, 2008


its March! it hit me..when i jst got my "bday card" ? frm JJ jst now.
cool coupons! Baskin Robbin, GSC, and what i really need, a discount for eye treatment!heck yeah!hehe..but 18 is still a long way.shooh shooh! haha.

i didnt mention earlier abt the minor surgery i had last Wed.
i got heel spurs.not sure the exact term is, coz i went to a really special surgeon. he studied both, the whole practitioner thing and he spent years in Indonesia and China to study traditional meds.
He's been around more than 6-10 yrs now.
And his patients is so multi-racial.
The day i had my surgery, there were 2 breast cancer chinese patient, 1 brain tumor indian patient, a malay woman with a nerve malfunction - surgery next to her left eye!
golden age ppl, and the normal diabetic,high blood pressure, heart problem, patients.
This doctor is like their last hope.

so yeah,i went through my 1st surgery.
it was painful but stitches.15mins after,i can walk but i had to rest or it will get swollen.
but it was worse when, the day after, i had a shivering fever.sigh.

now im much better,& i can't wait to start doing my things again. ;)
i'm ready.

"when i wake in the morning,i want to blow into pieces, i want more than just ok...."~MORE THAN FINE, SWITCHFOOT~

dear Horoscope


And here I am, choosing which Today's Horoscope that I'm gonna use to my advantage, happy and like about, or even a little proud.

Look! Read! Here's what I had pick. (from Friendster's Horoscope)

The Bottom Line

Today, when you know you're right, you're right. Intellectual impulses are good.

In Detail

Today, when you know you're right, you're right! Your intellect is strong and focused right now, and it's going to give you a sixth sense about who's telling the truth, who's trying to hide the truth, and who is afraid of the truth! This type of knowledge could be a dangerous thing in the hands of lesser beings. But a superstar like you knows how to use your powers for good, not evil. You'll finally have the opportunity you've been waiting for to introduce two like-minded people.

there...silence. it made it sound so Heroic! doesnt it?haha.."powers for good,not evil". uuuu...

n yeah...everyone in the planet knows that Pisces = The Dreamer

but does everyone knows that this Piscesean is a Fighter?
which means, Im fighting my way for Concrete.

xx a.k.a muah muah

currently singing to the song "Human" by Jon McLaughlin.
miss listening to it..
"afterall....we're only human...hurt instead of healing...."

Saturday, March 01, 2008 tired.

the thing about people speaking up is that...when many talks all it gives is noise.
i personally didn't truly believe that speaking up is needed more.
i do think listeners are way underrated.

we have eyes so we can see which perhaps can be helped with the words to explain.
but if we can be a true listener, then we can see, acknowledge to the extent that we do not need words to realize something.
an expression, body language, a vibe or aura or whatever the heck our 6th sense catch the key.

we all have voices inside.some screams to be let out.
then again.should it?
words is a powerful tool. which means, speaking up about everything...even little annoying things are wasteful.

again,i adore people who speaks the truth.
i adore people who fight for something real.
but i only adore those who do it, after they listened to more than what's being meant to say.
a compact speaker with many stories to back em up.

so hence my thoughts that listeners should be praised.
that i do see you, everyday.