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Thursday, November 06, 2008

Need A Jar

Had 2 shitty days. The problem is I badly want to tell someone but I can't.
I'm starting to think this is some kind of disease? or a malfunction. meh.
But like always, it passed away. Like any problems in the world.
Anyway, my thoughts that came out from the recent 'moment' is this.

I need A Jar. Best it to be Magical because it has to fit pretty big black stuff in it.
See, i also made a theory why the Ocean is made of 70% in Earth.
It's because it needs to clean up ALL the jars in the world.
Like the circle of life,
we take and give, we absorb and exhale. In and out.
Black and white.
The jar is where the blackness needs to be put in.
And knowing that the Ocean will never shrink is a Breeze.

Erin McCarley with Pony.

You hold your head up to the sky
You say what kind of blue
are you? Are you?
Then you ride your pony round and round
It’s diggin’ a hole, right through, right through

You stumble down a yellow brick road,
Spinning your shoes in the air, the air.
Then you, hold your breath, and count to nine,
Hoping that soon somebody will find you, find you,

Go on, go on, go on, the stars are watching,
Just say, just say, just say, what you’re feeling,
You know, you know, you know, you gotta take a bow and do it your way,
It’s okay, ladadadadadadadada, it’s okay, ladadadadadadadada

You’re 15 miles over the speed,
You’re going fast as you can after your daydream Ohh
I might get sad, carried away
Or have a serious talk with your, champaign.

It’s time for you to prove,
Within your ruby shoes
You deserve a smile with no regret,
Look at you
Kicking off your shoes,
Dancing for the world to see,
You got the power to believe,
Open up and see,
And go be free and fly away

~ closer to the Jar ~

Monday, November 03, 2008

Helo November. I'm on my Way.

Abstract linked more with the spirit rather than the physical interpretation.
I decided to look into artworks representing that - just for fun -
a change in the wind!

Have a lovely Nov people.
Here's something cool to look forward to ( besides TWILIGHT ) :

The Spirit
by Frank Miller

~ brainstorming

Tuesday, October 28, 2008

Greatest Day!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i am frantically excited inside!
3rd & 4th JULY 2009 is a mega dream to me.
the answer to 'WILL I SEE TAKE THAT LIVE' will be revealed-in time.

Check out their New Single 'GREATEST DAY'.
The vid is awesome. wait until the end of the vid, you'll know what i mean.
Got goosebumps from it!!!


i'm so happy i could cry.

~ prepared to fall ~

Friday, October 24, 2008

Clap Your Hands, Come On

Feels good to be together ain't it?
With loved ones...and even you with your beloved self. ^_^

Due to Eid Mubarak, overseas friends came home for a quick visit.
A grown up destiny.
An ascending goodbye moments with hugs and kisses.
Dad went to Portugal.
Even damn Uber.com had to go! (miss you...)
Goodbye..Bye-Bye..Adios..Kak Eera's Sayonara!

The beauty behind these leaves is the new tomorrow it will bring.
Will I ever get to see Take That live?
Will I ever go to Paris?
Will I travel the Middle East?
Will I get slimmer? (lol)
Will I succeed in what I learn?
Will I love life like the present?

Many worries. Many thoughts. Many hopes. Many happiness.
This moment of "Will I"
Let's celebrate the privilege to do so.

Song : Rock&Roll ( OST Sisterhood of the Travelling Pants 2 )
Artist : Eric Hutchinson



He’s been waiting around for the weekend
Figuring which club to sneak in
Fancy drinks and fifty-dollar cover charge
Lately it’s been a big hassle
Heineken and New Castle
So make sure he’s fitting in and living large
Disregard the lies that he will tell
and what he’s probably like 'cause
It's not hard his charm is gonna
Get him through the night

CHORUS
If he wants to rock he rocks
If he wants to roll he rolls
He can roll with the punches
Long as he feels like he’s in control
If he wants to stay he stays
If he wants to go he goes
He doesn’t care how he gets there
Long as he gets somewhere he knows oh no
ah na na na na na na na na na na na
ah na na na na na na na na na na na

See her heavy make up and cut t-shirt
Every girl out wants to be her
But they look the same already why adjust
Reading the magazine secrets
Forgetting the topical regrets
If she comes home all alone the nights a bust
It’s a must the swivel in her hips
And the look she gives
It’s all her trust if only in the morning
She knew where she lived

CHORUS
'Cause If she wants to rock she rocks
If she wants to roll she rolls
She can roll with the punches
Long as she feels like she’s in control
If she wants to stay she stays
If she wants to go she goes
She doesn’t care how she gets there
Long as she gets somewhere she knows oh no
ah na na na na na na na na na na na
ah na na na na na na na na na na na

And in a wink they’re on the brink
From drink to drink and at the bar
With cash to blow
From shot to shot it’s getting hot
Advance the plot to see how far
It’s gonna go
All depends so ditch the friends
And grab a cab
Another chance for cheap romance
Doesn’t count cause the room is spinning
Nothing to lose tonight they both are winning
And they fall in love as they fall in bed
They sing

CHORUS
If they want to rock they rock
If they want to roll they roll
They can roll with the punches
Long as they feel like they're in control
If they want to stay they stay
If they want to go they go
They don’t care how they get there
Long as they get somewhere they know oh no
ah na na na na na na na na na na na (till close)

~ rock life hard! ~

Friday, October 17, 2008

UBERism

http://www.uber.com Im hooked.

Its a website maker.super easy.great features.
Initially, its made by artists concerned in making a space for artists to post their works.
Be it, Photography, Style, Magazine, Fashion, Lifestyle. etc.
Pretty cool huh?
Wanna be Malaysia's own 'Gossip Girl' ???
Or you think you have a knack for Latest Fashion?
Or you're a Car Freak. Obsessed with design & functionality.
Or create an online Portfolio.

You can also, share your vacation pictures, or Original Recipe? anything.

But in Uber, you can make it look artistic,your own.

I joined in to create a basis as an amateur photographer.
But after exploring the potential, I'd say I love to post anything interesting around me.
Be it, my family, friends updates!, current fav color?
or
continuing LIFESONGS!!!
maybe this blog will end soon.
maybe not.

I haven't finished mine. Looong way to go. But if you want to check it out.
here's the link http://nysh.uber.com/twinkles
ask me for Password. ^_^

~ Uberfectious ~

Thursday, October 16, 2008

Black Out + EP of Lights

Start.
There were lights in the night.
Then there was dark.
Last 2 days, it happened.
Black out.

Fell asleep after maghrib prayer, then woke up at 8.55pm coz the storm cuts out the electricity.
So i woke up, sleepily, to the bathroom, waa..not that dark actually. The street lights comes in from the window.
Washed my face.
And went down and joined the rest of my family on our 'blackout party'. Hang out.Talk.Drink.etc.
Irfan takot guruh rupenye! awwww...

20 mins later.
I can see clearly again.

Then, my mom passed me my mail today.

The EP has arrived from the US.
All Those Pretty Lights is in my hands.
Thanks Drew for signing the EP for me!!!!!!
End.



~ in receiving cycle ~

Saturday, October 11, 2008

Twilight Feeeevaaaaahhh

i know i know. 2 post in a day.
but a DA friend posted this on her blog. irresistible.

Here's the latest TWILIGHT trailer which comes out November 21st!
(thank goodness...after the disappointment of Harry Potter's postponement?!)
***click here for Twilight Trailer***

and the soundtrack is out!



Muse - Supermassive Black Hole
Paramore - Decode
The Black Ghosts - Full Moon
Linkin Park - Leave out all the rest
MuteMath - Spotlight (Twilight Mix)
Perry Farrell - Go All the way into Twilight
Collective Soul - Tremble for my beloved
Paramore - I caught myself
Blue Foundation - Eyes on fire
Rob Pattinson - Never think
Iron&Wine - Flightless bird, American mouth
Carter Burwell - Bella's Lullaby

Decode by Paramore
(odeo is having probs..so i had to resort to this :( meh.)

~ excited! ~

Wicked Betty! Uno, Dos, Tres. Jump.

my left shoulder blade throbbing with pain. muscle pain i reckon. either its due to wrong sleeping posture OR that i held Irfan too much.huhu..

2nd weekend of Eid Mubarak! yey to tht. ^_^
I'm waiting for few stuff to arrive.
1. Shipment from New Zealand.
2. Autographed EP by Andrew Belle who's been wonderful for messaging me and signing it for me too. ^_^
3. CDs from the US and UK.
4. Application forms from varies colleges/uni
5. Kebayas dari Bandung!
6. London keychains.

It hit me! I, really want to do the opposite of waiting.
"Even with one shoulder!"


I watched Ugly Betty Season 2.
3 things i got from that :

Numero Uno
The WICKED theatre was in the show! (Episode 6, Season 2) I went to see it too! The WICKED Musical at Apollo Victoria London with the new London cast! It was brilliant.

Elphaba (Alexia Khadime-new) Gosh her voice! Goooooosebumps.
Alexia Cast Page link
Short Finale of Defying Gravity



Longer recording of Defying Gravity


Glinda (Sarah Earnshaw-standby) was hilarious! lol...Gaaaa...lin. daaaa...toss toss lol!
Sarah Earnshaw Cast Page link

But dang, didnt get the CD. stupid me. huh!

Numero Dos
I'm not really a fan of the show but I admire Betty's "didn't care" attitude and determination during an execution. Brilliant confidence.

Also Mr.Suarez wonderful quotes :

"You just need to search deep inside and then take a deep breath. Jump."
- Episode 18, Season 2.

"Can't you see?You're doing it now.Growing up isn't about making the right decision. It's about dealing with the decision you've made.And picking yourself up.It's not easy.But I know you Betty. You can do it. But right now. These things. This moment. This. Is Growing Up."
- Episode 1, Season 3.

awwwwww...*sniff* Mr.Suarez! You rule! lol.

Numero Tres
Finally it got me hooked to JUMP by Madonna. i never thought i would actually like a song from her- no matter how fab she is as a performer or radio-friendly her songs are.
But I'm making an exception to this one.

DVD Tour Video of Jump by Madonna link

~ defying my own gravity, Jump ~

Tuesday, October 07, 2008

Regular



What's so regular about Regular?
I find excitement at trying new food no matter the price and the "classy-ness" of the place.
As long its clean and halal.
I like that some of my friends eat stuff that i don't. Like weird name of drinks or jellyfish!
Nothing to them but an ocean difference to me.
What's regular nowadays?
When we know more than before. Knowledge is super easy to gain.
New becomes a smaller territory.

However, are we born to know just enough to live?
Or is life a challenge?
Seek unknowns, untouched, undiscovered...even it looks like we don't really need it to survive.
We don't?
Do we really have to search other planets besides Earth that's livable to prepare the future of an entire population the option/door to a new planet to call home?
Japan's already building a hotel on the moon!

Regularity is irregular.
We're the same but we're not.

So you see, to me, regular is extraordinary. Be YOU.

~ life is this, beautiful ~

Monday, September 29, 2008

Raya Shopping Officially Done!

I hope..!!? errr...though looks like my mum took out her old list out. aiyak! of course, it was my own fault in the beginning not to settle everything earlier.
still life shouldn't be a bullet train ride everyday right. i need to be a sail boat once in a while. just waiting for the storm to come.
and then, battle the raging sea so that afterwards, i can have victory moments and cheers! :)



the past week, i've been settling the Aidilfitri list for me and my family. That includes, my parents, my brothers, my sis, and my nephews. Looks like this raya i played the Dresser, the Merchandiser, the the..ermm..ermm...personal shopper? whatever it's called, i'm that.
I chosed KL to shop instead of Damansara for once. Mainly because it only took me 20 mins to reach KLCC with the new highway compared to 3 hours on LDP from Puchong to Uptown Damansara!!! INSANE bukan?
I hit Pavilion (convenient betul!), KLCC, Berjaya Times Square,Lot 10, Ampang Park, Ampang Point even Danau Kota (sampai tp tak jadik coz orang mcm semut!)
All within 3 days! Giler ah. (slang irfan) ngeh2.
Sgt lama tak shopping! well, if count out UK la coz I "HAVE" to.

I wish all my friends and readers who stopped by,
SALAM AIDILFITRI and MAAF ZAHIR BATIN.
Ikhlas dari sanubari ku. Maafkan semua salah silap saya ye? :)


Interesting peculiar events and coincidences happened to me during Ramadhan.
Things that I noticed without wanting or intent to. The signals and dreams. By now, I've used to the idea of universe showing signals and that my 6th sense is quite strong. Merely, signals are just the invincible connection of our entangled lives. I just need to figure out what it is. As usual.

Here's one story.
I wrote before UK that I was in a small accident. So when i was in UK, my dad's driver settled Estima. My mom made sure everything inside was cleaned before that. When I got back from UK, Estima was delivered back to us, fixed and totally washed inside and out.
That was 4 weeks ago.
Yesterday, i picked Lya from Ampang, and as soon as she sit next to me, she screamed!
There laid at her feet, an Avon Lipliner!LOL.
She told me that it was hers and that she's been looking for it since MAY! the last time we had a function @ PWTC.
Note, it wasnt mine, it wasnt my family's.
Then I thought, how weird that this thing just appeared out of nowhere. And that its Lya's?
Rezeki Lya kn.... :)

I've uploaded some more photos into my Deviantart.
I'm writing kad raya too..lama tak buat.
My family will be in Mersing for raya, as usual. But maybe not Terengganu for the 1st time :(

Safe journey everyone!
Take care!

~ apiqness + irfanness ~

Saturday, September 27, 2008

All Those Pretty Lights

in the sky, in your eyes, on your fingertips, in the clouds of your wonders - igniting the spark in your heart.
I feel more like myself at the moment.

Aidilfitri is coming. What does it mean to me? That the calm and blessings of Ramadhan is almost over. The preciousness of nighttime will change back to normal. Long season of rolling with the flow of life. Floating. Easier ways of falling from grace. Cause Ramadhan punches a blissful breeze into our heart. We tend to control our mischiefs. How strong this Ramadhan is. Just because what lies beneath.
So saying goodbye to it? Sad. This year especially.

However, to those who 'won' Ramadhan, celebrate your victories this Aidilfitri.
To me, you know how blessed you are. How tough you are. How hard life is.
Also how goodness still pulses through your veins and people's.
That's good news right? Given the state of the world today. The world is in various troubles!
So Don't close your eyes people!

All Those Pretty Lights comes knocking at the right time in my life.
Clearly, by now, you can figure out how Songs are actors of my storyline.
They tend to fall on my lap from nowhere sometimes.
( thank you Universe!)
Like this particular artist, added me on Myspace.
This is the 2nd Myspace musician I promoted here in my blog.
I sense Big things for him. All The Best! :)

New Upcoming Musician : Andrew Belle
EP : All Those Pretty Lights.
Website :Andrew Belle on Myspace



my Review - get your hands on it! the lyrics are gems. the EP is a window to a promising future.
" we got stars in our eyes, see how they burn, see how they burn - In Your Sleep "

~ feel like myself, more ~

Friday, September 19, 2008

Another Round of Life Coming Up!



I LOVE LOVE LOVE this Album. Period. Cause I was able to listen to the whole album while editing 10 times straight already! And i can't wait to share it here at my beloved blog. ngeh2.
I'm a musical person. It can build or disturb my system. Especially, crap music is a BIG NO NO while i'm driving. It drives me to sleep pretty quickly and can get me in a crappy mood too. Heh.

Anyway, did you guys noticed the full moon these past few days? Subhanallah. Gorgeous ok!
Lagi2 Ramadhan. pergh! And this morning, I saw the Red Rising Sun! it was so low at first. Then it goes up in the middle level of the Putrajaya Mosque. Subhanallah. It was brilliant. Urgh! nope, zero photo cause my tripod is in a ship from UK now. uwaaaa!

Carnival Ride is an excellent choice of phrase to describe life itself don't you think?
It's colorful, exciting, scary, up, down, spins, make you scream, go crazy, chirpy, bounded, enter and fall, bla bla bla...Like a roller coaster ride or those funny mirrors room, which can never seem to stop the phobia of some or excites enough, with boredom potential. Happened, happening or will happen, One time or another.

Back to the album :
My favourite tracks : So Small (below), Wheel of the World, I Know You Won't, Last Name.
Enjoy!




What you got if you ain't got love
the kind that you just want to give away
It's okay to open up
go ahead and let the light shine through
I know it's hard on a rainy day
you want to shut the world out and just be left alone
But don't run out on your faith

'Cause sometimes that mountain you've been climbing is just a grain of sand
What you've been up there searching for
forever is in your hands
When you figure out love is all that matters after all
It sure makes everything else
seem so small

It's so easy to get lost inside
a problem that seems so big at the time
it's like a river thats so wide
it swallows you whole
While you sit around thinking about what you can't change
and worrying about all the wrong things
time's flying by
moving so fast
you better make it count 'cause you can't get it back


Going to School 1882 Jules Bastien-Lepage
(do not own this image)

~ artsy, nephews, salute! ~

Monday, September 15, 2008

Ramadhan 08 so far





has been wonderful. Soaking the manfaats all in. hmmm...
Anak2 buahku are here for a few days its been fun having them around.
My brother's bday was last Sat. We got him a pretty cool all black watch. He loved it. yey!
Then Raya preps, family plans etc..is getting me into a joyful mood.

Baru lepas sahur, so before waiting Subuh, i feel like writing.
I'm staring at the painting postcard i got from Scotland. It's one of my fav piece now.
It made me feel alive. I feel more artsy lately. Which is hard to explain in words.
Just hope i could turned this aura into some kind of piece soon.

Editing photos at the moment is taking longer time, i need Photoshop in this PC asap.
Bigger screen wld be a plus too.hmm...but i need the money to buy charger for my camera's battery. I miss u! huhuhu...

I managed to watched Lipstick Jungle for the 1st time. Its really empowering since it shows real life+work dilemma more than the shoes. :)
Prison Break is ON again! Yey! Awesome.

There's one Big Q floating in my head right now. Something new, but i rather not splatter it out.
Massive work needs to be done 1st.

One step at a time?.. ;)

~ next please! ~

Saturday, September 13, 2008

Weddings

Shocking isn't it? That i would talk about this which is freaking far from my usual post.
I had an earlier sahur just now, so now im just waiting for my perut to turun. ^_^

FB-ing, browsing through Neene's wedding albums. Long relationship that finally made it. :)
Sayang i couldnt make it. I really would love to. But since i was in the UK and i have no useful superpowers. So tht memory goes bye-bye.
(Note to self : Pray not to missed friend's wedding again!hhuhuhu)

Weddings is a beautiful life path. One which i personally feel is a blessing to be able to have that.
Of course, so many things are. Blessings comes in different forms.
Looking through weddings photos, i see FAMILY.
How it all is about Family. Creating new ones. Making old ones stronger.
With different shape of future awaits.

Then i read another of my friend's journal. His wedding was cancelled aside from losing his job and building a new business. Hmm..there goes my happy thoughts.

Then it reminded me of another of my close friend. Who met her new love, who was engaged. At time when love founds itself in stranger time. Unravelled that his old relationship wasn't working, truthfully.

Weddings not marriage.
To write about marriage is another thing completely of course.

What i meant to write is that, lately, especially this Ramadhan, a few of my male friends keeps asking me to find someone. One who felt sorry and want to make a mission out of it.
One suggested that I should walk around at Pasar Ramadhan?! so that i'll find the one? LOL.
One today, asked if i brought back guys from UK.
One, months ago, congratulated me on my weddings out of the blue, assumed based on my general statement, " guess what, i have something big to share." What else kn? Huh.

Please note. These are guys concerned about my singlehood.
Don't get me started on my female friends and family members!!!

See, i view weddings as a chance to have my own family.
Marriage is sharing that dream and make that life the best ones possible.
Being in love while at it, is a luxury.
Loving your kids is eternal duty.

See, i have a family now. I felt and carry the work. I love with all my heart. I sacrificed a lot. And i still fight to stand on my own to quickly run and grab parts of my personal dream as much as i can. Because, that's what singlehood is all about right?!Yourself?!
But do singlehood comes with juggling family stuff??? No.
Mine does.

I do love to have another family of my own someday.
(Wow. another big one)
I do want to be in love doing that too. :)
Come what may.
Sunshine always welcome.

p.s: and friends. I love you all for your concern. really!!!
it's wonderful to have ppl who cared. made life more worthwhile.

~ blessed ~

Thursday, September 11, 2008

Finding the truth with Science

A 16 years old French girl from DA, messaged me and mention that she hoped that the experiment in France yesterday will not cause the end of the world.
We were initially casually exchanging thanks for our artworks.

Anyway, I was intrigued by the general fuss she'd given me so.. what else? I Googled 'em.

Apparently, it was a Physics Experiment revolving around a machine created to detect the 'God's particle' (some call em). Finding it will help to explain the other dimension exist in our world. Will also explained further or changed the Big Bang Theory.
Some were against this, saying it might create a black hole! Hence. my Da fren's cry for not wanting to die young!

At this, i thought about "Ghosts",malaikat, makhluk ghaib etc. The unseen but well known presence that we believe in.
Which then reminded me of the book i read, " The End of Mr.Y ".
Also, once my uncle told me about his PHD friend in the US, who told him, that the study of the paranormal has already started, scientifically. Like a university course.

I admire deeply people who pursue and fight to find the truth.
But not with an unacceptable cost. Then again, Life is Cause & Effect.
Some we can control, and some we leave it at faith.
Some decision, even at the fullest deepest thought, can go sour.
Like a sudden death, that doesn't make sense.
In Islam, that's Qada' & Qadar. Humans never will know better than Allah.
But that does not mean, we should stop pursuing what we believe in.
And stop learning from different angles.


~ oh, Beautiful Gift : Life ~

Here's articles/news of the experiment :

http://news.smh.com.au/world/massive-physics-experiment-on-wednesday-20080908-4byr.html

http://www.independent.co.uk/news/science/the-large-hadron-collider-end-of-the-world-or-gods-own-particle-921540.html

http://www.cnn.com/2008/TECH/09/08/lhc.collider/index.html

http://www.rte.ie/news/2008/0909/cern.html

http://www.sciencedaily.com/releases/2008/09/080903112026.htm

Monday, September 08, 2008

Beautiful Strangers

I just finished trying to kill my sister! Annoying when she does the voice " Get a Grip, Grandma!"
heh. Take that! pow! n that! haiyak! (dust my hands) there. now she's all little like marshmallow.HAHAHA...kidding.i love her. :)

my right wrist hurts. (teringat reenee..hmm..berjangkit?). don't know why really.

I'm back to my usual daily life. Home, DA-ing and always in check with my sister's studies. SPM soon for her. US Open final's today. Rafa respectably lost to Andy Murray. :| darn rain!
AND Andy isnt English. He's Scottish and doesnt like we get it wrong. :)

ooohh...Scotland. (UK memories!!!)
well, i've finally sorted out my DA account. Uploaded few shots. Then, stumbled upon another DA artist and coincidentally he's from ABERDEEN! small2 world. So we got on chatting a bit.
And he went to the Fringe Festival.Twice. (jealous!)

this got me thinking of strangers i met there.

The Liverpool Levi's girl.
She was the 1st modest,helpful and friendly store help i've met in UK!
no seriously, their "attitude" isnt like at home. They made you put back the jeans you tried on back to it's hanger! OMG! and it is so hard to get eye contact/smile/diplomatic gesture.
It made me appreciate shopping in Asia! Here we're treated 'luxuriously' which fits the idea of a shopping=pampering! From my tiny experience, generally, thats London.

oh! and once, we went to this petite French cafe, and the waitress was so rude!
we asked for ice coffee. she said no (eye on the air!). then another guy swoop in, and did a fake super friendly talk and offered us to taste their new iced blended.
at the same time, rolled his eyes to the girl, an act of disaproval of her.
I had my inner evil laugh at this girl.
Obviously, she wasnt english. ( happened much??? mmmmmaybe!)

But, out of London, is where "non-cool" people really are.
Real people.
One time, I was walking into a store, a man stopped, and let me pass through first, With Hand Gesture! waaah..felt like a real lady!

And i was stopped in front of Edinburgh Starbucks, cause these 2 americans wants to take picture wit me! I lmao inside. Weirdos. One of them, started talking, LOUDLY, how we, Starbucks Consumers are contributing to garbage=another world problem.etc.
While he was babbling, i cant help but smile at how bored he must be.
He continued talking to others inside the shop, but people's faces weren't as friendly and shaked their heads off.
Then, he said "i don't want to start a long political debate now, i'll go".
He then asked us to thank our friend for "making garbage".
So i replied with a wide grin, " thanks for your sarcasm!"
"This is the truth! " he said smilingly.
"OK! Whatever. Bye! " happily i responded.

Funny cheerful bored guy.
There's time and place for things right people?
:)

~ smiling to myself ~

Saturday, August 30, 2008

For my kind of UK that i knew


WONDERFUL
by Chantal Kreviazuk

I'm alone in this life

And these old jeans are too tight
And now I can't pick my feet off the floor
I try to laugh but I cry
My dignity's undignified
I guess i'm really on my own

Love is like a little boy
No I'm not paranoid
But I'm onto you yeah yeah
Well I'm not seventeen
And I don't wanna be
So why am I hiding?

[Chorus:]
Is it too late to call you on the phone
Too late to tell you I'm alone
I wanna wake you from another lonely night
Is it too late to wonder where you are
Too late to hold you in my arms
Cause if you're looking for wonderful
I'm wonderful

I'm a very simple girl
And I don't fit into this world
The city lights leave me in a daze
And even though we've never met
You know what I'm trying to forget
Some things you can never change
[Chorus]

I'm underneath
Underneath
I'm underneath
I'm underneath

Good Feeeeeel'a'ng!

Thats how it goes. Good Things Comes to an End.
It obviously meant that when things are good! Enjoy!
Deserve it. :)

Yeah, my UK trip was excellent. Im having trouble catching up to all my memories, thoughts,emotional absorption and organizing defining words to describe the whole experience.
Its like stuffing too many jelly beans into a clear long vase where the top cover is missing under the mountain of jelly beans next to it!
Make sense?hahaha...
and yes, i did ate jelly beans there!

Love IT! thats as short as i can say to express myself on the 3 weeks UK venture.

Near the end of the journey, during our long drive down from Scotland to London, i love Nina for letting me hear the Queens of the Stone Age! Gosh! where have i been all these years!
apela Nina! sampai hati..lambat gile nk share! now our Korn days are even! ^_^
concert!concert!hehe..

my inspiration replica! BUFFY!!!!!!!!



more stories later.
~ to be continued ~

Wednesday, August 13, 2008

Sisters, You're A Gem


Always There

© Rachel S. Lengefeld

I'll always be here through thick and thin
You can come to me, I'll listen
I'm your friend, I won't push you away
When you need a hug, my arms are wide open
When you need to talk, I have an open ear
Your growing up and getting older
Know that I'm always here, I'm not going anywhere
Wherever you are, I'm there with you
You’re in my heart and my prayers
Just know I'm here, because I truly care
You’re my sister, you mean so much
Don't want to see you hurt or cry
I'll wipe the tears, I'll get rid of your fears
Want to see you grow up and achieve
Just believe, have faith
You can do anything
You’re beautiful inside and out
You’re smart and very talented
You’re many things, but most all, you’re my sister
I believe in you and know that I'll never stop loving you.

p.s: can't wait to see Alexis in the movie, n i miss u SIS! xxo

~ in artistic mood ~

Monday, August 11, 2008

For Me

There are things you can't change and you can't have them back once its lost.
Finding those that are lost is harder, and will get harder as time goes by.
Within the time frame thats been given to us, we choose what we keep and what we let go.
In return, in this temporary life, we learn to get by along with the pain of it.
In space where you can breath freely, is where you'll realize, the painful choices that you made before, had been done, based on a tiny prayer inside you.
That prayer is change for the better. And to keep on holding to whats actually real and good for your soul since that counts for not just today but forever.

ps: I MISS HOME SO BADLY! but im having a blast here in the UK. :)

Alhamdulillah, im fine ere.
Tonnes of pictures. Good frens. Cant wait to see Nina soon!

~ live now for tomorrow ~