Soul Fashion Seeker's Mumbling

i was restless all day.
i felt desperate for space to breathe the fire out of me.
i realize 30 mins ago that i simply need to write.

thoughts occur to me these past few days.
having everything is great of course but it should teach us the meaning of lost.
i say it should coz i had seen people.

that we put love not on people but love itself.
we make love as exclusive as possible to parade to the world how glorious it is to have it.
and to be in love is enough to justify any means.
and that love is bound to follow certain class.
and that love isn't border less.

i learned the bigger ways to love.
to love the people..not owning the love itself.
in some ways,i grew to be one who have so much love inside me, that it keeps growing as i cared less of myself.
only then i truly see how much i love myself even more.

it's not the clothes i wear, nor the makeup i fixed upon my face.
it is not the knowledge that i seek for myself.
it is not the dreams i wish every night.
it is not the things i wanted to buy.
it is not about seeing myself smiling in the mirror and look happy.

it's about affecting change to others.
it's about us standing together in balance.
that we are equally free within our forms, body & soul to be exactly, ourself.
that we need not hide from the world.
that we should never ever need to ask for anything.

when all we are...are givers.
and everybody wins.
cause we never ever have to be unsatisfied.
imagine...

so the more i care for the people around me, i found myself.
that i am capable of so much more than just loving myself,family and friends.
can u say that for yourself?
can u say that you are a hero in your own way coz you own this massive capability to affect change?
i believe u can.
if you're selfless.
can u?

future holds this simple fact that materialization had somehow blur the image of basic human touch.
we put up walls around us all the time.
cause people could not be trusted.
i think it is because we cant handle the negativity.
we are weak.
imagine..
if all the bad things thrown at you, you find a way to accept it and turn it around.
that you managed to fix everything,
not because you need it but because you want to change the thrower.
you grew wiser and more.

its damn hard i know to put up a smile in front of misery.
its human nature to feel sad at times.
i just think that the world have its fair share of tragedy and disaster.
we dont need the people to do the same as well, no matter how bad life maybe.

tq for reading,
~the perfect soul fashion seeker~

Here's to the Real Night

i just like to dedicate this song to everyone in this planet.

To those who are like me,wishing at night that the stars will always show itself.
That i wish, that we all will feel grateful every night.
That the dark of the night is lighten everyday by what you did when the sun comes up.
No matter how little or simple, big task you full filled, people you annoyed and smiled at, at angry times you had and mistakes you've made.
That despite it all, i wish you still have your heart sings.
Cause sometimes, choices arent picked, choices are made for us.
Like the day we will die.
Like the person we will marry.
Like the day we are born.
Still, enjoy every night.Cause you breathed that day before tonight.
And the breathing part is always real.

~loads of love :)

So denied, so I lied
Are you the now or never kind?
In a day and a day love
I'm gonna be gone for good again

Are you willing to be had?
Are you cool with just tonight?
Here's a toast to all those who hear me all too well

Here's to the nights we felt alive
Here's to the tears you knew you'd cry
Here's to goodbye tomorrow's gonna come too soon

Put your name on the line
Along with place and time
Want to stay, not to go, I want to ditch the logical
Here's a toast to all those who hear me all too well

Here's to the nights we felt alive
Here's to the tears you knew you'd cry
Here's to goodbye tomorrow's gonna come too soon

All my time is froze in motion
Can't I stay an hour or two or more
Don't let me let you go

Don't let me let you go

Here's a toast to all those who hear me all too well

Here's to the nights we felt alive
Here's to the tears you knew you'd cry
Here's to goodbye, tomorrow's gonna come too soon
Too soon
Here's to the nights we felt alive
Here's to the tears you knew you'd cry
Here's to goodbye tomorrow's gonna come too soon

Song : Here's to the Night
Band : EVE 6

Improvement Pt 2 : Myself

a.k.a Changing Life Lane.

FIRST A SONG TO SHARE!(coz this time my babbling is soo long!)

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Here's to the Night
by EVE 6

So denied so I lied are you the now or never kind
In a day and a day love I'm gonna be gone for good again
Are you willing to be had are you cool with just tonight
Here's a toast to all those who hear me all too well

c/0
Here's to the nights we felt alive

Here's to the tears you knew you'd cry Here's to goodbye Tomorrow's gonna come too soon Put your name on the line along with place and time Wanna stay not to go I wanna ditch the logical Here's a toast to all those who hear me all too well All my time is froze in motion Can't I stay an hour or two or more Don't let me let you go Here's a toast to all those who hear me all too well
EVE 6 WEBSITE HERE

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this weekend has past. My parents arrived safely home yesterday evening frm Spore n im so glad i cooked. coz my dad ate like its the most delicious meal in the world! and tht made me smile :)

i might have mention about Bags in Spore, and apparently my mum bought one for me!!!
i specifically told her not to, if we can buy it here. But she bought them anyway and its a pair - a grunge bag + its matching purse. Even i never get a matching pair ever.haha...its wonderful!
its the latest Guess bag with silver black n silver strand and gorgeous satin silk inside.
smile :)

right after dinner, the ladies in this house went out to Tesco Ampang. n again my mum, bought me n my sisters jewellery + clothes!
I totally love the bracelet i got.
I asked the seller what kind of stone is it?
I didnt really care actually..but as soon as i tried it..it felt cooler on my wrist.Weirdly,felt a lil calmer.So i ask without much thought.
She told me its made from Cat's Eye Stone which is less harder than Jade.
Oooohhh....(no idea)

I googled it jst now.
Apparently Cat's Eye Stone is some kind of a healer stone, used for health of the mind not body which sometime leads to heatlhy, wealthy and good luck. And harmful if used unwisely.
HUH?...........the magical healing power of stones.?.
something i so don't know anything about but has been used in medically practice for since ancient time.

I saw on E! once, that celebrities that are involved during Oscar night, will be given each a luxurious room 2 weeks before the event to "prepare". And it includes Diamond Healing!
The diamond is so expensive that it has one of the highest quality of aura healing.
Hah! anything for beauty huh?!

interesting but i dont really care much really.
but if you do, here's a link http://www.orissagems.com/cats_eye.htm
i do love my bracelet though. :)

moving along...tooooooooooo EBAY MALAYSIA.
its ok i think. i registered and bought a set of Buffy Season 8 comics and (i think) a fake Anya "I'm Not A Plastic Bag" grocery bag.
READ THIS LINK : BAG SNOB

After researching, apparently bag addicts are real. They have websites n everything. I read a guideline from an Ebay er, about how to spot a fake Anya grocery bag.
Mine was almost perfect except the rope on the strand.
It's insane really that such a good idea is now delivered in a materialistic way.
Why make a statement when the action (which in this case..wearing a designer bag to parade its genuine thought) is controlled. High-price.US$45-US$200.Limited bags are made. Pre-orders. Limited purchase each person.
Which in the end, leads to....imitations.
And caused more trouble. Negative ones when the ebay sellers lied and sell fake with authentic price.
What's more sad, is that wearing fake is considered a crime contributor.
It lower the users standard as no genuine fashion sense, n no respect of the ownership of the maker.

If it does, does that mean owning a print poster of paintings of Da Vinci's, is low taste of art?
No respect?
If a painting can be reproduce.
Why cant a bag?
It all came down to Money and the idea of Materialism and its Rules.doesnt it?
If u hate fake...make more.coz dhuh! a bag can be reproduce many times and still have the same quality.
A painting with the exact quality?Are u insane?
Perhaps in this case, limitations create that pure, divine aura...?

What i could see is this particular bag is like a billboard sign.
Few here and there to be seen and read.
So i understand the reason behind it.
It's a gr8 idea.
So people we don't need Anya's bag to support this.
but since Anya's also doing it as in a fashion sense way, it becomes that.
Fashion.
Which is art but also leads to Materialism.
In artistic point of view, she achieved the genius use of Material to express positivity.
Kudos.

Last weekend is a good one.
Im glad.
More packing to do now.
Till i have more enthusiasm to write...

~ positive thinker.

Home Improvement Part 1

got my copy of Jan FEMALE magz nxt to me now- unopen.
my face screams for attention - a facial appointment will be in order soon.
my Nineteen Minutes book by Jodi Picoult - is currently marked on page 42 with the used Peter Pan Muscial tickets since...erm..lets see....a week!
and i bought a mic for my PC.

so far,my study plans is in motion but its as slow as my dying passion.*sigh*
its been hectic these past 2 weeks.
a new niece! n finally her name is now Daniala Isabella.
my charming nephew name is Danial Irfan.
(oh i miss him).

Irfan left me with GERMS!again..i took care of him for a week while my sis in law is resting after the labour. as usual, its a delicate time for her,so she needs to be taken care of.
while she's at her home in ampang, im ere at home, with irfan.
thank goodness, he can sleep with me,listens to me, played wit me..n most importantly, he's been an angel.
except the germs part.which is actually the maid's fault. she got sick (dunno where she got it from)..and passed it to irfan....nnnnnnnn...then me.
its not a surprise actually..cause since last year..the only time i was sick was when irfan got sick first.

besides being the best aunt in the world!hahaha...ive been bz home planning and designing.
so many renovations in the list,from rooms,kitchen,landscaping and refurbishing the wall parts,incl a swimming pool (this idea totally came to me after i visited Mukh's hse in Taman Enstek).its fun except that it all needed to be done by end of this month!!!

and yet here i am blogging.actually,fun time is filled with facebook-ing.
coz reading is tiring,drawing is hard coz im inspiration-less at the moment,tv is boring,and shopping is time consuming.

managed to watched Grey's yesterday.MY GOD! Seth Green's bursting blood all over the place!!!waaaa.....shocked.didnt see tht coming.hahaha..
cant wait for Smallville n Supernatural's latest.huhu..

i...........'ll stop ere.
what song to share today...hmmm..hmm....nope..cant think of one.

Time Chaser,
~ one who needed a fabulous time with herself.

ps : ive been recording my singing....wakakaka...it sounds...erm...not like me?!?#@!??

More than Fine! oh yeah.

im going to Switchfoot concert this Feb 2nd!yes!one of my fav band.how lucky am i?so thts one thing to look forward too. so now ive been filling up my system with Switchfoot. though i dont call myself the 'FootSoldiers'.haha...

i want to dedicate to all this blog readers...
i hope they will play this Live.
the song 'More Than Fine'
Album : the Beautiful Letdown (2003) - which i think is the best album :)

hv fun ppl & keep up looking towards the sun though it hurts a bit :)

here's 2 version , the album version + the video (studio session)

When I wake in the morning, I want to blow into pieces.

I want more than just ok, more than just ok.
When I'm up with the sunrise I want more than just blue skies.
I want more than just ok, more than just ok.

I'm not giving up, giving up, not giving up now.
I'm not giving up, giving up, not backing down.

More than fine, more than bent on getting by.
More than fine, more than just ok.

When I'm lit with the sunrise. I want more than just a good time.
I want more than just ok, more than just ok. I

'm not giving up, giving up, not giving up now.
I'm not giving up, giving up, not selling out.

More than fine, more than bent on getting by.
More than fine, more than just ok.
More than fine, more than bent on getting by.
More than fine, more than just ok.

More than oceans away from the dawn.
More than oceans away from the dawn.
More than oceans away from who we are
More than oceans, more than oceans, yeah.

More than fine, more than bent on getting by.
More than fine, more than just ok.
More than fine, more than bent on getting by.
More than fine, more than just ok.