What do I do?

I can't let myself sleep.
One reason was the new idea I thought of on the drive way home.
That always happens. My ideas comes naturally while driving and about to sleep state.
Another reason, I'm kinda hungry but lazy to move and find anything.
So I am writing.

"What do I do?" oh boy, how can I ever answer that Q in short sentences.
My common answer would be - nothing, only at home.(which i use everytime)
"Only" at home sounds like nothing isn't it?
Well, I think that's what people think anyway.
Then again, I don't know what people think.
And people don't really know What I do.
But the real Q is, does everyone really wants to know?
Should I share it anyway to fill the empty spaces?
Or should I continue giving the same answer?

I never really care what people think about me.That's who I am.
But I care about the thoughts of who I care about.
Last month, I met up with an old friend.
In 2 years, that was the 1st time ever I told mostly everything what I do.
and it turns out? it was so much that after we pay our parking tickets, we still talk at the parking lot. haha.I guess, my sheltered answers have + and - outcome.

oh well, 2009 is here. I truly felt relieved! "A specific date" will never ever exist anymore.Yey!
To sum it up, 2007&2008 is the 'transition' phase.
While going through the process,

I read. A LOT. sometimes at cafes.
(my money mostly spent for books & i joined Shelfari Book community)
I write. Not as much as I read. (and yes including short stories & fictions)
I listen to people's stories because it's priceless and for me to draw inspiration to create one.
(maybe that's why strangers often ask me things)
I study on my own on photography, literature, art history, the business in photography, interior, design softwares and continue exposing myself with the art world community,galleries,sites & blogs. Learning from the experts. I go to the libraries sometimes.
I continue jotting down ideas in my sketch books.
I recently started to paint with watercolor.
I enjoy spending time in Polyvore & Deviantart.
I follow many TV Series.
I have wardrobe makeover about twice a year.
I always find new song to listen & share.
I do house chores Everyday (physical & emotional needs)
I take care of my sick brother (shower,food and accompany)
I lay down strict rules on certain things (like my sister's study schedule, my nephews sleeping curfew& breakfast, prayers)
I surveyed a lot of Universities and Courses, but still undecided.
I begun to have a dream to open an Art Gallery/art business.
I traveled to NZ and UK.
I have shares in family business.
I have a house. (err..i think so..lol)
I am a member of Glokal Koperasi.
I am a certified beauty&spa practitioner.
I sell Mary Kay cosmetics. (helping my mum)
I have many opportunities to work but it was never the right time.
I hang out with my friends. They kept me sane.
I jogged sometimes and badly want to play netball.
I love my new home area, Putrajaya, simply because it's very peaceful & that's rare. I like to open my window and sit with my feet outside and think.
I or my brother go to Ampang (our old house) every Saturday and picked up our house helper, buy nasi lemak Abg Ramli Sarip & burger ayam cheese.
I teach and draw with my nephews whenever they want to, like a teacher. (usually they ask me to draw things for them like Ben 10,Ultraman or Joker! lol)
I take them out too sometimes to KLCC Kinokunya and sit with them at the children book section until we're tired.
I take care of the family car.
I had a heel surgery.
I was an MC for the 1st time in my life at PWTC under a public event.
I buy CDs and Buffy the Vampire Slayers comics from the same seller from ebay everytime. :)
I have an autographed Andrew Belle's EP which he signed upon my request before sending it to me from the US. ^_^
...
all i can say is that, i have all these routines & events filling up my life.
i juggle everything. one thing for sure, my life was NEVER BORING.
i wake up, family then myself, others then i sleep.
So if people ask me what I do?
I answered, "only at home".
Because that is one big world in my book - the people in it needed me as much as i needed them.

2009 is going to be something new again.
despite everything i do, i want to do more.i will continue exploring my creative sides.
continue reading, studying,painting.
I LOVE MY LIFE. as simple as it seems or as complicated as reality bitings,
to know what I do?
i'm only at home.doing nothing much. :)

~ feels good to open up a bit.