LiFeSoNgS

Deep and Meaningless - Rooster

2009-05-29T01:41:00.007+08:00

recently, i found my Rooster CD. miss the guitar sound. knew today, they've broken up.
still, good music.

Deep And Meaningless - Rooster - Watch more Videos at Vodpod.

~ tired easily

Penelope!

2009-05-22T13:48:00.002+08:00

a 2006 movie. as late as i was, I LOVE the movie! James are too cute! ^_^
great soundtrack too. enjoy this song 'String of Blinking Lights by Paper Moon'

~ Hoppipolla!

LostinSpace Collection has moved!

2009-05-18T10:26:00.004+08:00

my "babies" got a new home. ^_^
soon, my poem blog Write to Breathe will be too. just don't know how to present that yet.
so it looks like only LifeSongs left with Blogger.
---> LostinSpace Collection

~ on a roll

You Always Believed by In This Moment

2009-05-10T00:09:00.002+08:00

dislike her choice of style, but the band and her voice rocks.

~ a crazy past week

Break Me Out by The Rescues

2009-05-04T16:43:00.006+08:00

but even when our hopes gives way to reality
and we finally have to surrender to the truth
it just means we’ve lost today’s battle
not tomorrow’s war .
- - -> listen to Grey's

Grey's 20th episode in Season 5 is by far the most heart-wrenching ever!
and this song is perfect for the ending of 'Sweet Surrender' ^_^

~ had a good cry

Madi Diaz

2009-05-02T18:26:00.005+08:00

have a go listening to this amazing band. all the songs are here --> www.madidiaz.com
my personal fav - let's go, nothing at all, love you now

and the stories ...
*warning* might annoy the heck out of You! - - -> zoning in

~ belle, bella, bello

Too Too Too Fast by Ra Ra Riot

2009-04-25T09:45:00.003+08:00

i can't stop playing this song everyday all week. it will grew on you. ^_^
the vid is a live version recorded in their attic. they are known to play super well live.

~ slept with a pencil on my hand.

Jenny Lewis - Acid Tongue

2009-04-23T16:33:00.001+08:00

~ and you don't know what i've done

Caitlin Crosby with Flawz

2009-04-20T16:11:00.001+08:00

read how I got to know about her --->Tumblr entry Apr 20,2009

so Followers?

2009-04-17T12:22:00.004+08:00

so i've been playing with the idea of permanently closing this blog.
just because i'm having too much fun in Tumblr. haha.
but i got 1 follower today. a default follower! i think.
so like Twitter and Tumblr, Blogger have this too. kinda cool. so Rethinking?
i'll see how it goes.
but still, here i can babble all i want. cause i want to keep my tumblr clean and artistic.
meh. still there's babbling there too. gosh can't help it.

anyway, just want to share the song for today.
go here-- > CATALYST by ANNA NALICK

~ o^_^o catching invincible butterflies

nurturing creativity

2009-04-15T02:44:00.009+08:00

Elizabeth Gilbert talks
">http://www.ted.org/index.php/talks/elizabeth_gilbert_on_genius.html

I had a massive relief from hearing this particular talk.
It sums up almost Everything of my worries.
Few points rapped the clouds off my head.

it explains exactly why I have lightnings of ideas keep striking me and that sometimes my mind is in crazy need to get it out of my system in creative forms, like my writings, paintings and scribble journals.
of course all comes from Allah. I knew that deep down.
it's just that, it's really hard to grasp that doing what i do is enough?.
which i guess we all feels sometimes.
to have No Worries at all is of course present more thinking space available for something else.

so the idea of being more than you really ARE is the ego talking.
being the best of what you are able to become is functional.
that's what i get from her talk.
but of course, a source isn't sufficient.
another way of looking at it is that her idea might send a message that we can't grasp the unreachable ourselves. that we are limited. which in return, stop us from pushing ourselves to the limit and beyond or cause some Men to feel they are God.

so i can see why in Islam, moderation is ultimate.
living large in sufficient.
i need to find more knowledge on this particular way.

at least for now, i get to grip little bit more on my entire principle.
that i love to grow and learn. that is my job. my goal.

~ getting a job

ain't no love like the one i got

2009-04-09T07:48:00.002+08:00

7:49am 9.4.09 wake up song ---> Brand New Start by Little Joy

~ juicy fresh moments of ideas

never go to bed angry they say

2009-04-04T03:28:00.003+08:00

i tried to go to sleep. reading Children if Hurin. before that checking my usual net stops. no tumblr post idea yet. then i got really sleepy while thinking about my dad and his dream for me. it's an admiration how much he works for us. *sigh*
anyway, for some reason i checked my deviantart. then i read a DA friend's journal. He posted about how DA rejected to ban an art drawing of prophet Muhamad with swords in his hand and "killer" in a sentence portraying that Islam first breed of murder.
Reason : not Hate Art.
it's disgraceful. many of us, non-muslims included exploded with opinions, reasons, statements, this and that.
within all those words, it seem clear cut to me that the rule which Muslim believed in at it's core = "NO DRAWING OF PROPHET'S FACE" is exactly what "these" people used to provoke ANGER.

so now, I couldn't sleep at all! urgh! after my own feedback to that, now i'm sitting here and thinking. If this is the tactic "they" are using. the same as the comic years ago.
Why the same reaction?
So i pat myself in the back, for not replying to the guy's journal.
Instead, I just converse with others on how we agree that this "kind" still exist.
And now I'm laughing hysterically in my mind...of course THEY DO! dhuh!

what came out of this was to continue living and paint the right way for the generations before me. because, the legacy we are creating today, is what shaped them. we want LESSER humans with this "hatred mind games lovers". we want to let them grow knowing that the better way is the ONLY way. no matter how cool the Wrong seems to be.

in order to do this, WE have to Change..Now! keep the counter-attack full-on.
it's How we live our lives that matters. period. and i intend to live mine bravely and as rightly as I could. for the black potches, i need YOU to help me.

~ ya Allah, forgive all my wrong doings. amin.

16, 1996 Marina Hotel, Las Vegas ^_^

2009-03-31T22:46:00.007+08:00

click links for the fuss! ^_^

*tumblr post: Mar 31,2009*

--->ACDC - If You Want Blood ( You've Got It)<---

~ memories fade, sometimes

Hands on Me by Vanessa Carlton

2009-03-19T23:49:00.008+08:00

LOVE! ---> nysheart expressaway

I first saw you at the video exchange
I know my heart and it will never change
This temp work would be alright if you'd call me
You'd call me
I lay awake at night for you
And I pray

We'd cross the deepest oceans
Cargo across the sea
And if you don't believe me
Just put your hands on me
And all the constellations
Shine down for us to see
And if you don't believe me
Just put your hands on me

The subway radiates with heat
We've barely met and still I cross the street to your door

Someday when our stories are told
They'll tell of a love like this
When our descendents are all growing old
1,000 years they'll be singing
Nah-nah, nah-nah, nah, nah, nah

We'll climb Tibetan mountains
Where we can barely breathe
I'll see the Dali Lama
I'll feel him blessing me
And all the constellations
Shine down for us to see
And if you don't believe me
Just put your hands on me
Your hands on me...

First saw you at the video exchange

~ sleepy eyes, big heart, small steps full of urgency

HAPPY 29th!!!!

2009-03-18T08:22:00.004+08:00

Good Morning gorgeous beings! ^_^ ---> nysheart expressaway

~ time off!

runny nose cheering up

2009-03-12T20:10:00.004+08:00

little sore throat but thank Allah not that bad.
so today it's been 62 days of NO COKE! yesss! once giving that up, i realized that not everything that feels good worth having. and yesterday, after chatting with mum and reading a link a friend sent me about coke, i came down to NO FIZZY DRINKS! lol.
well, in certain occasion, sure i'll have some, but the truth is, there's no desire for it anymore.
wow! i'm even stunned at myself for feeling this way. lol.
there is one drink that i really don't think i'll give up totally yet and that is the Evervess Ginger Ale!
if that is the only fizzy drink i will drink in my entirely life? i am so fine with that!

Vampire Weekend mood today. Even the vid cheer me up. ^_^ Enjoy!

~ tumblr is delicious!

Tumblr Rocks

2009-03-08T16:50:00.001+08:00

i know at least one of my friend has one. anyone else? ^_^

hot weekend

2009-03-02T17:41:00.004+08:00

Kuantan is so hot! literally.
anyway, the last post of Ladyhawke i forgot to mention a few things about the vid.
1. the video use "watercolor" medium, which i am studying right now.
2. she's driving, I heart driving.
coincidence? hehe.

~ hate unpacking.

Presenting LadyHawke from NZ!

2009-02-27T23:51:00.003+08:00

OMG! i didn't have a clue she was from NZ even lived in Wellington for some time.
this is truly a fantastic coincidence of "connection".
see, i told ya the "connection" always finds me. ^_^

i heard this song from a pv friend from australia.
Totally love the song My Delirium. been listening to it non stop since yesterday!
will be checking out her album when i get back from my weekend trip to Kuantan.

here it is!
Official Website : http://www.ladyhawkemusic.com/

~ pap pap parra

remembeR err err?

2009-02-27T17:33:00.003+08:00

remember UBER? the site i was excited about few months ago?
huge bummer when it was shut down.

now I am a Tumblr.
born today.
excited with all the potentials.

check it out : http://nysheart.tumblr.com/

~ scribblings.

Love at first Preview

2009-02-19T23:36:00.011+08:00

The Fray self titled album kidnapped my heart to a place I have been missing for a while.
It feels good to be with the melody and to be able to 'sing' again.
Last night, I went to Amazon.com and previewed their latest album.
It got me so excited, that I bought it today.

I LOVE IT! really do. instantly, it's in my fav album of all time list.
10 years from now, I will still love it.
The album, reads like a story book. The design is brilliant. It was all connected to the songs, lyrics & voice. I sit and read, and listen, all at the same time.
(haven't done this since high school!) .
Reached the end, there were tiny tears in my eyes.
Perhaps, I'm around that time.
Which is good, considering I need to refuel my passion with inspiration.

Looks like, the "connection" found it's way to me again.
I think no one understands what the heck I am saying but that's ok.
It's unseen for a reason.

Few days ago, while I was driving and stopped at a red light. There was a bird on top of a row of bushes. Parallel to my driver seat window, I observed it's behavior. The red/black bird struggled on its feet to drink the flowers. It looks painful, I thought. but maybe the bird feels nothing because I assumed the feet must be thick and hard that the bushes sharp branches couldn't have hurt it.
Then, the bird lost its balance, fell down into it and disappeared from my sight!
Then the light changed to green.
Continued driving, I thought.
No matter what ones first thought formed based on clear view and knowledge, people and life surprised us at our most sincere pure moment.
It shakes us. It made me feel that nothing is permanent.
It feels good to know that there are mysteries and more to be discovered.
To be able to, is actually one of Allah's gift.

~ grateful for the deeper sight.

Mode : Fresh

2009-02-18T23:52:00.010+08:00

Kelly Clarkson : my life would suck without you

~ after all, restart, refresh, different.

never settle for 'just good'

2009-02-14T02:06:00.003+08:00

when it could be worth much more.
i try to always keep that in mind in my everyday life decision making.
of course it's exhausting.
sometimes too much, to think and do.
always seem to derailed from being the best of me.
but i can rest when i'm dead.
life have so much more to give, while i am still here.

Enjoy 'I'm Not Over' by Carolina Liar.
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~ packing for grandparents weekend.

thanks sis for 'forcing' me to listen to "David"

2009-02-07T14:23:00.002+08:00

it happens sometimes.we unconsciously got cuts and wonder why.
i got one on my left index fingertip. ^_^ LOL.

i gotta say, David Archuleta's pop album is very good. his voice itself is amazing enough.lucky boy.
Here's one of my fav song from that album, "My Hands". Enjoy!

~ wondering when will Jojo make a new album.

everyday song - Not Tonight by Kristy Lee Cook

2009-01-31T10:28:00.004+08:00

this is the ultimate song that never bore me. Always makes my day.
I just LURVVEEE singing it.
her other songs are pretty awesome.she just have that raspy voice that i adore.
Enjoy!

~ want New Hair like Now!

Alter Bridge - Watch Over You

2009-01-23T23:22:00.003+08:00

a friend recalled this song to me.
i forgot how nice the song is. ( great 90s rock band. love them all. )
so here it is. :)

~ run, jump, sprint!

Headache

2009-01-14T21:00:00.004+08:00

am tired of people who use the word "I" in everything they do.
please, you're not alone in this universe!
so Open Your Damn Eyes.
sheesh.

~ controlled selfishness.

I have decided..No Coke

2009-01-10T12:47:00.008+08:00

until Peace & Democracy is fully imposed in Israel.
(an sms was given to me by a friend yesterday morning)
I read further. Google these : killercoke, ei:the case for boycotting Israel.

It's the state of mind of a community.
We tell ourselves, we can't change who we are, who they are, that some people will not change just because we told them to. We change when we want to.
If that so, in this case of a country, it is a dead end, right?
Revolution is a waste of time then huh.

Well, this got me thinking, of individuality & humanity.
It is not the same thing is it.
Humanity is embedded in us.
Individuality is created by us.

So I believe, people can change.That's the whole purpose of humanity.
We evolved. We don't get stuck in a rut forever.
We just got lost sometimes.

In Palestine, families got killed in the name of power.
Humans will fight back on injustice. Why question that?
When we know the tug and war of both opposite will go on,
because there is No Justice in War.
History teach us that.
This 'humanity' process of attack and fight is the middle phase.
The beginning phase is 'our mind'.
where we decided on choices.
The end phase MUST BE 'our mind' as well.
where we Must decide on choices as well.

The choices lies back to the 'humanity' in us.
Until what end,
does the Israeli willing to kill for power?
how long can the Palestine die to hold their land?

It seems, both are strong.
Though, the Israeli looks stronger because they are "Big".
And to kill the "Small" is pretty much an easy task.
Which tells me about their Individuality.
They chose to be a killer. A greedy type of killer.
What force in today's world made them become this 'barbaric'?
The responsible people of this war is by far the ugliest form of humans.
Humanity & Individuality, both destroyed.
So how to fix that kind of loss?

Forgiveness.
The good people of Israeli have to unite against their rotten breed and give back what's right to the people of Palestine.
The victims of Palestine, somehow someway have to take the high road too.
Blood for blood isn't going to work. Because let's face it, no other Muslim country wants to be in war. (yeah i know, we are selfish too) or is it because we found a better way to stand for our rights without bloodshed?
Or should every country in the world form a group of willing soldiers to Unite and take down the 'gone too far' Israeli once & for all?!
If succeeded, what then?Teach them a lesson?Punishment?
It's going to come back to their Humanity and Individuality.
Can we change who they are?

That's the question isn't it?
Let it be the hope and goal. Change your own world,Israeli.
I believe in Humanity even how tiny it is.
We can change.
Stop trying to control others when you can't even keep your soul.

and finally, I do not want to live in "Gotham City".

~ my heart prays for the victims of any war.

10000 or ...

2009-01-08T21:22:00.006+08:00

or a million, it doesn't matter.
i have made peace.
picked up the brushes, terrified then excited, then in awe.
how did that came out?

Song for Today, 10000 Stones by Adrianne.

My days are filled with mistakes
Some that I didn't make
I carry them around
Some people don't feel a thing
Some kind of blissful dream
Wish I could live that now
oh I wish I could live that now

10,000 stones hanging
deep in my heart
no I don't know how they
don't tear me apart
how could I ever believe
10,000 stones would build
the best of me.

I've seen a lot in my life
I've seen two wrongs make a right
When everything was crashing
I know that you got your plans
You're always taking your stand
But I was only asking
No I was never asking for

who knows what you think of me now
knowing sooner or later
the truth would come out
but I don't want to look back
don't want to look back to

10,000 stones hanging deep in my heart
no I don't know how they don't tear me apart
how could I ever believe
10,000 stones would save the fool in me
10,000 stones would be a strange blessing
10,000 stones would build the best of me

~ today is going to be Brilliant. (everyday)

What do I do?

2009-01-03T03:20:00.000+08:00

I can't let myself sleep.
One reason was the new idea I thought of on the drive way home.
That always happens. My ideas comes naturally while driving and about to sleep state.
Another reason, I'm kinda hungry but lazy to move and find anything.
So I am writing.

"What do I do?" oh boy, how can I ever answer that Q in short sentences.
My common answer would be - nothing, only at home.(which i use everytime)
"Only" at home sounds like nothing isn't it?
Well, I think that's what people think anyway.
Then again, I don't know what people think.
And people don't really know What I do.
But the real Q is, does everyone really wants to know?
Should I share it anyway to fill the empty spaces?
Or should I continue giving the same answer?

I never really care what people think about me.That's who I am.
But I care about the thoughts of who I care about.
Last month, I met up with an old friend.
In 2 years, that was the 1st time ever I told mostly everything what I do.
and it turns out? it was so much that after we pay our parking tickets, we still talk at the parking lot. haha.I guess, my sheltered answers have + and - outcome.

oh well, 2009 is here. I truly felt relieved! "A specific date" will never ever exist anymore.Yey!
To sum it up, 2007&2008 is the 'transition' phase.
While going through the process,

I read. A LOT. sometimes at cafes.
(my money mostly spent for books & i joined Shelfari Book community)
I write. Not as much as I read. (and yes including short stories & fictions)
I listen to people's stories because it's priceless and for me to draw inspiration to create one.
(maybe that's why strangers often ask me things)
I study on my own on photography, literature, art history, the business in photography, interior, design softwares and continue exposing myself with the art world community,galleries,sites & blogs. Learning from the experts. I go to the libraries sometimes.
I continue jotting down ideas in my sketch books.
I recently started to paint with watercolor.
I enjoy spending time in Polyvore & Deviantart.
I follow many TV Series.
I have wardrobe makeover about twice a year.
I always find new song to listen & share.
I do house chores Everyday (physical & emotional needs)
I take care of my sick brother (shower,food and accompany)
I lay down strict rules on certain things (like my sister's study schedule, my nephews sleeping curfew& breakfast, prayers)
I surveyed a lot of Universities and Courses, but still undecided.
I begun to have a dream to open an Art Gallery/art business.
I traveled to NZ and UK.
I have shares in family business.
I have a house. (err..i think so..lol)
I am a member of Glokal Koperasi.
I am a certified beauty&spa practitioner.
I sell Mary Kay cosmetics. (helping my mum)
I have many opportunities to work but it was never the right time.
I hang out with my friends. They kept me sane.
I jogged sometimes and badly want to play netball.
I love my new home area, Putrajaya, simply because it's very peaceful & that's rare. I like to open my window and sit with my feet outside and think.
I or my brother go to Ampang (our old house) every Saturday and picked up our house helper, buy nasi lemak Abg Ramli Sarip & burger ayam cheese.
I teach and draw with my nephews whenever they want to, like a teacher. (usually they ask me to draw things for them like Ben 10,Ultraman or Joker! lol)
I take them out too sometimes to KLCC Kinokunya and sit with them at the children book section until we're tired.
I take care of the family car.
I had a heel surgery.
I was an MC for the 1st time in my life at PWTC under a public event.
I buy CDs and Buffy the Vampire Slayers comics from the same seller from ebay everytime. :)
I have an autographed Andrew Belle's EP which he signed upon my request before sending it to me from the US. ^_^
...
all i can say is that, i have all these routines & events filling up my life.
i juggle everything. one thing for sure, my life was NEVER BORING.
i wake up, family then myself, others then i sleep.
So if people ask me what I do?
I answered, "only at home".
Because that is one big world in my book - the people in it needed me as much as i needed them.

2009 is going to be something new again.
despite everything i do, i want to do more.i will continue exploring my creative sides.
continue reading, studying,painting.
I LOVE MY LIFE. as simple as it seems or as complicated as reality bitings,
to know what I do?
i'm only at home.doing nothing much. :)

~ feels good to open up a bit.

Quiet Times opens 2009!

2009-01-02T06:02:00.006+08:00

from Dido's new album Safe Trip Home.
Beautiful words and melody.
Though, the song was in Grey's Anatomy,
I love it when it is in Ghost Whisperer Season 4 Episode 9.
It's perfect for a morning song. :)
Like a morning like the one I'm having now.
The Quiet Times.
Truly love it.
Enjoy!

You ask me where I'd go tonight
I'd go back to today last year
We knew how to make each other happy
And there was hope of everything
It's hard enough to feel the world as it is
And hold on anything
Without these quiet times
You've bought round here

I'm gonna to have to run away
I'm sure that I belong some other place
I've seen another side of all I've seen
It keeps me wondering where my family is
It's hard enough to see the world as it is
And hold on anything
Without these quiet times
Coming round here

Now I miss you
And I want you
But I can't have you
Even when you're here

I suppose I have to take you with me broken mind
I'd rather leave you here
So forget everything you've seen and known
Erase every idea
If you walk up in the street
And hold my hand and smile
Well I won't be taken in
Cos I know how it turns out
And it takes me back
To these quiet times
Coming round here

Now I miss you
And I want you
You're not coming back
And I need you
But I can't have you
Even when you're here

Now I miss you
And I want you
You're not coming back
And I need you
But I can't have you
Even when you're here

~ Today, will be Good

Lost

2008-12-31T02:15:00.002+08:00

was I?
maybe. it's a possibility.
What am I talking about?
the Past.
Sometimes, people who are a sensitive radar like me, tend to think about the Past more than I should.
For me, it's just about remembering the struggle I've had overcome, defining what I am Today and what I am capable to be Tomorrow.
Sometimes, I surprise myself.
So, No regrets.

Since all the TV shows actors are on holiday and all the program start next year.
So I've picked the show LOST.
I've never seen it.
So far, it's so good. I understand why people like it.
The survivals, struggles, hard decisions, the haunting past, the magical island that holds an unknown territory - all in extreme situation.
I think it's brilliant.
But I'm still on Season 1 episode 15.
And Evangeline Lily is gorgeous :)

Besides Lost,
I found this phrase from Polyvore and I think it's hilarious! LOL

Sparkle you fool, Sparkle! hahahaha..it's going to be a classic.

~ my way, all the way ~

Blank Month

2008-12-26T00:47:00.004+08:00

December is ending.
No post at all huh?
I could write my philosophies according to what I learned, (which I did but decided not to post them).
So here it is. New post.

Dear coming Maal Hijrah and 2009,
Alhamdulillah for the possibility of loving the life given.
Even after the deep battle, I am still here.
And I wish to share my glorifying moment of thought.
From now until the end, my friends, I want to continue loving.
And keep what matters, matter.
Thank You for choosing to fit in my little world.
It's a blessing not to live alone.
(this also goes especially to the Deviantart Community, I heart you guys!)

"The measure of love is to love without measure" - author unknown. (anyone knows?)

dedicating 'YOU' by Take That from their new album The Circus.

~ one and only, with all my heart ~

Wild Horses

2008-11-21T22:21:00.004+08:00

Me and my sis love this song from the movie FLICKA.
I think it is one of the most beautiful song I've ever heard. ^_^

Wild Horses by Natasha Bedingfield.

I feel these four walls closing in
My face up against the glass
I'm looking out... hmm
Is this my life I'm wondering
It happened so fast
How do I turn this thing around
Is this the bed I chose to make
Its greener pastures I'm thinking about hmm
Wide open spaces far away

All I want is the wind in my hair
To face the fear but, not feel scared

[Chorus:]
Wild horses I wanna be like you
Throwing caution to the wind
I'll run free too
Wish I could recklessly love, like I'm longing to
Run with the wild horses, run with the wild horses!
Oh yeah yea

I see the girl I wanna be
Riding bare back, care free along the shore
If only that someone was me
Jumping head first headlong without a thought
To act and damn the consequence
How I wish it could be that easy
But fear surrounds me like a fence
I wanna break free

All I want is the wind in my hair
To face the fear but, not feel scared
Hoohhh woah woah

[Chorus:]
Wild horses I wanna be like you
Throwing caution to the wind
I'll run free too
Wish I could recklessly love, like I'm longing to
I wanna run with the wild horses, run with the wild horses!
Oh yeah yea

I wanna run too.
Hohhh woah oh woah oh
Breaklessly abandoning my self before you
I wanna open up my heart tell him how I feel

[Chorus:]
Wild horses I wanna be like you
Throwing caution to the wind
I'll run free too
Wish I could recklessly love, like I'm longing to
I wanna run with the wild horses, run with the wild horses! [X2]
Hooaah woah oh woah
Yeah

I wanna run with the wild horses

~ so many things left unsaid ~

Find a way to smile

2008-11-18T21:50:00.005+08:00

I was sick yesterday.
Got treated well. My dad gave me his medicine, eaten McD Chicken Porridge and got a heart shaped strawberry cake from my mom.
Even my adorable nephew Irfan, made my day ^_^.
I'm ok now. Still got the flu though.

Yey!!! Congratz to DREW! for making his TV debut on 90210 with 'I'll Be Your Breeze' !!! n yes! I already own that EP with his signature!
Wonderful!

Here's a song from a Polyvore friend that cheered me up.
Enjoy! Pappa..para pappappa!

Artist : Pearl and the Puppets
Song : Because I Do

~ only you have the power to believe ~

Creative?

2008-11-16T01:28:00.003+08:00

Is just a word now for me. It is not a definition anymore.
Basically, I'm letting the thinking of the thinking go.
Ironically, my subconscious mind aka inspiration will do the 'creative' thinking itself.
Forcing it to do that is a waste and I do know that, IF I cut off the thinking of the thinking.
So many thinking. I may loose my mind!!!
But I'm not. Cause I'm letting me be. I am born with this ability to do so.
So be it. Bluek!

Back to the Q i wrote few weeks ago. It's now in the orbit again.

Observation.
Sometimes i think we are like parasites. We feed on each other to get what we want. There's good and bad parasites. Then again, we are both really.
So perhaps, we exchange to balance each other?
It's when, we became greedy that we make the other weak and eventually some will die.
And the greedy parasites tag n war with each other.
Leaving the last winner ONE HUGE UGLY BLOATED BIG MESSY of a Parasite with millions of dead parasites! What's left to happen? It will EXPLODE! and die of course.

Now, isn't the balanced world is much better and that the fact that we won't be alone is a major cheery part?

So, If one more person ask me to BE SELFISH even a bit as a solution? I'll just IGNORE!
Why do you think that I have this ability and power in the 1st place?

I'll be where I be. I am what I am.

p.s : I want to open an Art Gallery!

~ looking up, feet on grass ~

Chilling Day with LENKA

2008-11-09T23:23:00.007+08:00

She's adorable.weird.imperfect.wonderful. ^_^ Like me! hehehe...

Initially, my day started with plans. But this week cycle ain't over yet.
So, I am chilling with Lenka while at the same time deals with the world inside my home that spinned in every direction. waarrgghhh! phewww!

See....I am breeze walking through all of it! Seriously!!! ladadadadadadada...

LENKA album is a Breeze.

My fav tracks :
Trouble is A Friend, Knock Knock, Live Like You're Dying, Don't Let Me Fall.

Knock Knock by Lenka.

She's from Sydney though now live in LA. ;)

p.s : i added POLYVORE's badge below my DA favs! check it xx

~ give me a break, a little escape ~

Need A Jar

2008-11-06T21:19:00.005+08:00

Had 2 shitty days. The problem is I badly want to tell someone but I can't.
I'm starting to think this is some kind of disease? or a malfunction. meh.
But like always, it passed away. Like any problems in the world.
Anyway, my thoughts that came out from the recent 'moment' is this.

I need A Jar. Best it to be Magical because it has to fit pretty big black stuff in it.
See, i also made a theory why the Ocean is made of 70% in Earth.
It's because it needs to clean up ALL the jars in the world.
Like the circle of life,
we take and give, we absorb and exhale. In and out.
Black and white.
The jar is where the blackness needs to be put in.
And knowing that the Ocean will never shrink is a Breeze.

Erin McCarley with Pony.

You hold your head up to the sky
You say what kind of blue
are you? Are you?
Then you ride your pony round and round
It’s diggin’ a hole, right through, right through

You stumble down a yellow brick road,
Spinning your shoes in the air, the air.
Then you, hold your breath, and count to nine,
Hoping that soon somebody will find you, find you,

Go on, go on, go on, the stars are watching,
Just say, just say, just say, what you’re feeling,
You know, you know, you know, you gotta take a bow and do it your way,
It’s okay, ladadadadadadadada, it’s okay, ladadadadadadadada

You’re 15 miles over the speed,
You’re going fast as you can after your daydream Ohh
I might get sad, carried away
Or have a serious talk with your, champaign.

It’s time for you to prove,
Within your ruby shoes
You deserve a smile with no regret,
Look at you
Kicking off your shoes,
Dancing for the world to see,
You got the power to believe,
Open up and see,
And go be free and fly away

~ closer to the Jar ~

Helo November. I'm on my Way.

2008-11-03T01:53:00.010+08:00

Abstract linked more with the spirit rather than the physical interpretation.
I decided to look into artworks representing that - just for fun -
a change in the wind!

Have a lovely Nov people.
Here's something cool to look forward to ( besides TWILIGHT ) :

The Spirit
by Frank Miller

~ brainstorming

Greatest Day!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2008-10-28T20:48:00.002+08:00

i am frantically excited inside!
3rd & 4th JULY 2009 is a mega dream to me.
the answer to 'WILL I SEE TAKE THAT LIVE' will be revealed-in time.

Check out their New Single 'GREATEST DAY'.
The vid is awesome. wait until the end of the vid, you'll know what i mean.
Got goosebumps from it!!!

i'm so happy i could cry.

~ prepared to fall ~

Clap Your Hands, Come On

2008-10-24T01:30:00.006+08:00

Feels good to be together ain't it?
With loved ones...and even you with your beloved self. ^_^

Due to Eid Mubarak, overseas friends came home for a quick visit.
A grown up destiny.
An ascending goodbye moments with hugs and kisses.
Dad went to Portugal.
Even damn Uber.com had to go! (miss you...)
Goodbye..Bye-Bye..Adios..Kak Eera's Sayonara!

The beauty behind these leaves is the new tomorrow it will bring.
Will I ever get to see Take That live?
Will I ever go to Paris?
Will I travel the Middle East?
Will I get slimmer? (lol)
Will I succeed in what I learn?
Will I love life like the present?

Many worries. Many thoughts. Many hopes. Many happiness.
This moment of "Will I"
Let's celebrate the privilege to do so.

Song : Rock&Roll ( OST Sisterhood of the Travelling Pants 2 )
Artist : Eric Hutchinson

He’s been waiting around for the weekend
Figuring which club to sneak in
Fancy drinks and fifty-dollar cover charge
Lately it’s been a big hassle
Heineken and New Castle
So make sure he’s fitting in and living large
Disregard the lies that he will tell
and what he’s probably like 'cause
It's not hard his charm is gonna
Get him through the night

CHORUS
If he wants to rock he rocks
If he wants to roll he rolls
He can roll with the punches
Long as he feels like he’s in control
If he wants to stay he stays
If he wants to go he goes
He doesn’t care how he gets there
Long as he gets somewhere he knows oh no
ah na na na na na na na na na na na
ah na na na na na na na na na na na

See her heavy make up and cut t-shirt
Every girl out wants to be her
But they look the same already why adjust
Reading the magazine secrets
Forgetting the topical regrets
If she comes home all alone the nights a bust
It’s a must the swivel in her hips
And the look she gives
It’s all her trust if only in the morning
She knew where she lived

CHORUS
'Cause If she wants to rock she rocks
If she wants to roll she rolls
She can roll with the punches
Long as she feels like she’s in control
If she wants to stay she stays
If she wants to go she goes
She doesn’t care how she gets there
Long as she gets somewhere she knows oh no
ah na na na na na na na na na na na
ah na na na na na na na na na na na

And in a wink they’re on the brink
From drink to drink and at the bar
With cash to blow
From shot to shot it’s getting hot
Advance the plot to see how far
It’s gonna go
All depends so ditch the friends
And grab a cab
Another chance for cheap romance
Doesn’t count cause the room is spinning
Nothing to lose tonight they both are winning
And they fall in love as they fall in bed
They sing

CHORUS
If they want to rock they rock
If they want to roll they roll
They can roll with the punches
Long as they feel like they're in control
If they want to stay they stay
If they want to go they go
They don’t care how they get there
Long as they get somewhere they know oh no
ah na na na na na na na na na na na (till close)

~ rock life hard! ~

UBERism

2008-10-17T14:17:00.004+08:00

http://www.uber.com Im hooked.

Its a website maker.super easy.great features.
Initially, its made by artists concerned in making a space for artists to post their works.
Be it, Photography, Style, Magazine, Fashion, Lifestyle. etc.
Pretty cool huh?
Wanna be Malaysia's own 'Gossip Girl' ???
Or you think you have a knack for Latest Fashion?
Or you're a Car Freak. Obsessed with design & functionality.
Or create an online Portfolio.

You can also, share your vacation pictures, or Original Recipe? anything.

But in Uber, you can make it look artistic,your own.

I joined in to create a basis as an amateur photographer.
But after exploring the potential, I'd say I love to post anything interesting around me.
Be it, my family, friends updates!, current fav color?
or
continuing LIFESONGS!!!
maybe this blog will end soon.
maybe not.

I haven't finished mine. Looong way to go. But if you want to check it out.
here's the link http://nysh.uber.com/twinkles
ask me for Password. ^_^

~ Uberfectious ~

Black Out + EP of Lights

2008-10-16T04:05:00.006+08:00

Start.
There were lights in the night.
Then there was dark.
Last 2 days, it happened.
Black out.

Fell asleep after maghrib prayer, then woke up at 8.55pm coz the storm cuts out the electricity.
So i woke up, sleepily, to the bathroom, waa..not that dark actually. The street lights comes in from the window.
Washed my face.
And went down and joined the rest of my family on our 'blackout party'. Hang out.Talk.Drink.etc.
Irfan takot guruh rupenye! awwww...

20 mins later.
I can see clearly again.

Then, my mom passed me my mail today.

The EP has arrived from the US.
All Those Pretty Lights is in my hands.
Thanks Drew for signing the EP for me!!!!!!
End.

~ in receiving cycle ~

Twilight Feeeevaaaaahhh

2008-10-11T08:57:00.004+08:00

i know i know. 2 post in a day.
but a DA friend posted this on her blog. irresistible.

Here's the latest TWILIGHT trailer which comes out November 21st!
(thank goodness...after the disappointment of Harry Potter's postponement?!)
***click here for Twilight Trailer***

and the soundtrack is out!

Muse - Supermassive Black Hole
Paramore - Decode
The Black Ghosts - Full Moon
Linkin Park - Leave out all the rest
MuteMath - Spotlight (Twilight Mix)
Perry Farrell - Go All the way into Twilight
Collective Soul - Tremble for my beloved
Paramore - I caught myself
Blue Foundation - Eyes on fire
Rob Pattinson - Never think
Iron&Wine - Flightless bird, American mouth
Carter Burwell - Bella's Lullaby

Decode by Paramore
(odeo is having probs..so i had to resort to this :( meh.)

~ excited! ~

Wicked Betty! Uno, Dos, Tres. Jump.

2008-10-11T00:35:00.017+08:00

my left shoulder blade throbbing with pain. muscle pain i reckon. either its due to wrong sleeping posture OR that i held Irfan too much.huhu..

2nd weekend of Eid Mubarak! yey to tht. ^_^
I'm waiting for few stuff to arrive.
1. Shipment from New Zealand.
2. Autographed EP by Andrew Belle who's been wonderful for messaging me and signing it for me too. ^_^
3. CDs from the US and UK.
4. Application forms from varies colleges/uni
5. Kebayas dari Bandung!
6. London keychains.

It hit me! I, really want to do the opposite of waiting.
"Even with one shoulder!"

I watched Ugly Betty Season 2.
3 things i got from that :

Numero Uno
The WICKED theatre was in the show! (Episode 6, Season 2) I went to see it too! The WICKED Musical at Apollo Victoria London with the new London cast! It was brilliant.

http://www.wickedthemusical.co.uk/

Elphaba (Alexia Khadime-new) Gosh her voice! Goooooosebumps.
Alexia Cast Page link

Short Finale of Defying Gravity

Longer recording of Defying Gravity

Glinda (Sarah Earnshaw-standby) was hilarious! lol...Gaaaa...lin. daaaa...toss toss lol!
Sarah Earnshaw Cast Page link

But dang, didnt get the CD. stupid me. huh!

Numero Dos
I'm not really a fan of the show but I admire Betty's "didn't care" attitude and determination during an execution. Brilliant confidence.

Also Mr.Suarez wonderful quotes :

"You just need to search deep inside and then take a deep breath. Jump."
- Episode 18, Season 2.

"Can't you see?You're doing it now.Growing up isn't about making the right decision. It's about dealing with the decision you've made.And picking yourself up.It's not easy.But I know you Betty. You can do it. But right now. These things. This moment. This. Is Growing Up."
- Episode 1, Season 3.

awwwwww...*sniff* Mr.Suarez! You rule! lol.

Numero Tres
Finally it got me hooked to JUMP by Madonna. i never thought i would actually like a song from her- no matter how fab she is as a performer or radio-friendly her songs are.
But I'm making an exception to this one.

DVD Tour Video of Jump by Madonna link

~ defying my own gravity, Jump ~

Regular

2008-10-07T02:04:00.006+08:00

What's so regular about Regular?
I find excitement at trying new food no matter the price and the "classy-ness" of the place.
As long its clean and halal.
I like that some of my friends eat stuff that i don't. Like weird name of drinks or jellyfish!
Nothing to them but an ocean difference to me.
What's regular nowadays?
When we know more than before. Knowledge is super easy to gain.
New becomes a smaller territory.

However, are we born to know just enough to live?
Or is life a challenge?
Seek unknowns, untouched, undiscovered...even it looks like we don't really need it to survive.
We don't?
Do we really have to search other planets besides Earth that's livable to prepare the future of an entire population the option/door to a new planet to call home?
Japan's already building a hotel on the moon!

Regularity is irregular.
We're the same but we're not.

So you see, to me, regular is extraordinary. Be YOU.

~ life is this, beautiful ~

Raya Shopping Officially Done!

2008-09-29T00:49:00.005+08:00

I hope..!!? errr...though looks like my mum took out her old list out. aiyak! of course, it was my own fault in the beginning not to settle everything earlier.
still life shouldn't be a bullet train ride everyday right. i need to be a sail boat once in a while. just waiting for the storm to come. and then, battle the raging sea so that afterwards, i can have victory moments and cheers! :)

the past week, i've been settling the Aidilfitri list for me and my family. That includes, my parents, my brothers, my sis, and my nephews. Looks like this raya i played the Dresser, the Merchandiser, the the..ermm..ermm...personal shopper? whatever it's called, i'm that.
I chosed KL to shop instead of Damansara for once. Mainly because it only took me 20 mins to reach KLCC with the new highway compared to 3 hours on LDP from Puchong to Uptown Damansara!!! INSANE bukan?
I hit Pavilion (convenient betul!), KLCC, Berjaya Times Square,Lot 10, Ampang Park, Ampang Point even Danau Kota (sampai tp tak jadik coz orang mcm semut!)
All within 3 days! Giler ah. (slang irfan) ngeh2.
Sgt lama tak shopping! well, if count out UK la coz I "HAVE" to.

I wish all my friends and readers who stopped by,
SALAM AIDILFITRI and MAAF ZAHIR BATIN.
Ikhlas dari sanubari ku. Maafkan semua salah silap saya ye? :)

Interesting peculiar events and coincidences happened to me during Ramadhan.
Things that I noticed without wanting or intent to. The signals and dreams. By now, I've used to the idea of universe showing signals and that my 6th sense is quite strong. Merely, signals are just the invincible connection of our entangled lives. I just need to figure out what it is. As usual.

Here's one story.
I wrote before UK that I was in a small accident. So when i was in UK, my dad's driver settled Estima. My mom made sure everything inside was cleaned before that. When I got back from UK, Estima was delivered back to us, fixed and totally washed inside and out.
That was 4 weeks ago.
Yesterday, i picked Lya from Ampang, and as soon as she sit next to me, she screamed!
There laid at her feet, an Avon Lipliner!LOL.
She told me that it was hers and that she's been looking for it since MAY! the last time we had a function @ PWTC.
Note, it wasnt mine, it wasnt my family's.
Then I thought, how weird that this thing just appeared out of nowhere. And that its Lya's?
Rezeki Lya kn.... :)

I've uploaded some more photos into my Deviantart.
I'm writing kad raya too..lama tak buat.
My family will be in Mersing for raya, as usual. But maybe not Terengganu for the 1st time :(

Safe journey everyone!
Take care!

~ apiqness + irfanness ~

All Those Pretty Lights

2008-09-27T09:40:00.008+08:00

in the sky, in your eyes, on your fingertips, in the clouds of your wonders - igniting the spark in your heart.
I feel more like myself at the moment.

Aidilfitri is coming. What does it mean to me? That the calm and blessings of Ramadhan is almost over. The preciousness of nighttime will change back to normal. Long season of rolling with the flow of life. Floating. Easier ways of falling from grace. Cause Ramadhan punches a blissful breeze into our heart. We tend to control our mischiefs. How strong this Ramadhan is. Just because what lies beneath.
So saying goodbye to it? Sad. This year especially.

However, to those who 'won' Ramadhan, celebrate your victories this Aidilfitri.
To me, you know how blessed you are. How tough you are. How hard life is.
Also how goodness still pulses through your veins and people's.
That's good news right? Given the state of the world today. The world is in various troubles!
So Don't close your eyes people!

All Those Pretty Lights comes knocking at the right time in my life.
Clearly, by now, you can figure out how Songs are actors of my storyline.
They tend to fall on my lap from nowhere sometimes.
( thank you Universe!)
Like this particular artist, added me on Myspace.
This is the 2nd Myspace musician I promoted here in my blog.
I sense Big things for him. All The Best! :)

New Upcoming Musician : Andrew Belle
EP : All Those Pretty Lights.
Website :Andrew Belle on Myspace

my Review - get your hands on it! the lyrics are gems. the EP is a window to a promising future.
" we got stars in our eyes, see how they burn, see how they burn - In Your Sleep "

~ feel like myself, more ~

Another Round of Life Coming Up!

2008-09-19T08:32:00.007+08:00

I LOVE LOVE LOVE this Album. Period. Cause I was able to listen to the whole album while editing 10 times straight already! And i can't wait to share it here at my beloved blog. ngeh2.
I'm a musical person. It can build or disturb my system. Especially, crap music is a BIG NO NO while i'm driving. It drives me to sleep pretty quickly and can get me in a crappy mood too. Heh.

Anyway, did you guys noticed the full moon these past few days? Subhanallah. Gorgeous ok!
Lagi2 Ramadhan. pergh! And this morning, I saw the Red Rising Sun! it was so low at first. Then it goes up in the middle level of the Putrajaya Mosque. Subhanallah. It was brilliant. Urgh! nope, zero photo cause my tripod is in a ship from UK now. uwaaaa!

Carnival Ride is an excellent choice of phrase to describe life itself don't you think?
It's colorful, exciting, scary, up, down, spins, make you scream, go crazy, chirpy, bounded, enter and fall, bla bla bla...Like a roller coaster ride or those funny mirrors room, which can never seem to stop the phobia of some or excites enough, with boredom potential. Happened, happening or will happen, One time or another.

Back to the album :
My favourite tracks : So Small (below), Wheel of the World, I Know You Won't, Last Name.
Enjoy!

What you got if you ain't got love

the kind that you just want to give away
It's okay to open up
go ahead and let the light shine through
I know it's hard on a rainy day
you want to shut the world out and just be left alone
But don't run out on your faith

'Cause sometimes that mountain you've been climbing is just a grain of sand
What you've been up there searching for
forever is in your hands
When you figure out love is all that matters after all
It sure makes everything else
seem so small

It's so easy to get lost inside
a problem that seems so big at the time
it's like a river thats so wide
it swallows you whole
While you sit around thinking about what you can't change
and worrying about all the wrong things
time's flying by
moving so fast
you better make it count 'cause you can't get it back

Going to School 1882 Jules Bastien-Lepage
(do not own this image)

~ artsy, nephews, salute! ~

Ramadhan 08 so far

2008-09-15T05:17:00.003+08:00

has been wonderful. Soaking the manfaats all in. hmmm...
Anak2 buahku are here for a few days its been fun having them around.
My brother's bday was last Sat. We got him a pretty cool all black watch. He loved it. yey!
Then Raya preps, family plans etc..is getting me into a joyful mood.

Baru lepas sahur, so before waiting Subuh, i feel like writing.
I'm staring at the painting postcard i got from Scotland. It's one of my fav piece now.
It made me feel alive. I feel more artsy lately. Which is hard to explain in words.
Just hope i could turned this aura into some kind of piece soon.

Editing photos at the moment is taking longer time, i need Photoshop in this PC asap.
Bigger screen wld be a plus too.hmm...but i need the money to buy charger for my camera's battery. I miss u! huhuhu...

I managed to watched Lipstick Jungle for the 1st time. Its really empowering since it shows real life+work dilemma more than the shoes. :)
Prison Break is ON again! Yey! Awesome.

There's one Big Q floating in my head right now. Something new, but i rather not splatter it out.
Massive work needs to be done 1st.

One step at a time?.. ;)

~ next please! ~

Weddings

2008-09-13T03:37:00.012+08:00

Shocking isn't it? That i would talk about this which is freaking far from my usual post.
I had an earlier sahur just now, so now im just waiting for my perut to turun. ^_^

FB-ing, browsing through Neene's wedding albums. Long relationship that finally made it. :)
Sayang i couldnt make it. I really would love to. But since i was in the UK and i have no useful superpowers. So tht memory goes bye-bye.
(Note to self : Pray not to missed friend's wedding again!hhuhuhu)

Weddings is a beautiful life path. One which i personally feel is a blessing to be able to have that.
Of course, so many things are. Blessings comes in different forms.
Looking through weddings photos, i see FAMILY.
How it all is about Family. Creating new ones. Making old ones stronger.
With different shape of future awaits.

Then i read another of my friend's journal. His wedding was cancelled aside from losing his job and building a new business. Hmm..there goes my happy thoughts.

Then it reminded me of another of my close friend. Who met her new love, who was engaged. At time when love founds itself in stranger time. Unravelled that his old relationship wasn't working, truthfully.

Weddings not marriage.
To write about marriage is another thing completely of course.

What i meant to write is that, lately, especially this Ramadhan, a few of my male friends keeps asking me to find someone. One who felt sorry and want to make a mission out of it.
One suggested that I should walk around at Pasar Ramadhan?! so that i'll find the one? LOL.
One today, asked if i brought back guys from UK.
One, months ago, congratulated me on my weddings out of the blue, assumed based on my general statement, " guess what, i have something big to share." What else kn? Huh.

Please note. These are guys concerned about my singlehood.
Don't get me started on my female friends and family members!!!

See, i view weddings as a chance to have my own family.
Marriage is sharing that dream and make that life the best ones possible.
Being in love while at it, is a luxury.
Loving your kids is eternal duty.

See, i have a family now. I felt and carry the work. I love with all my heart. I sacrificed a lot. And i still fight to stand on my own to quickly run and grab parts of my personal dream as much as i can. Because, that's what singlehood is all about right?!Yourself?!
But do singlehood comes with juggling family stuff??? No.
Mine does.

I do love to have another family of my own someday.
(Wow. another big one)
I do want to be in love doing that too. :)
Come what may.
Sunshine always welcome.

p.s: and friends. I love you all for your concern. really!!!
it's wonderful to have ppl who cared. made life more worthwhile.
~ blessed ~

Finding the truth with Science

2008-09-11T14:14:00.004+08:00

A 16 years old French girl from DA, messaged me and mention that she hoped that the experiment in France yesterday will not cause the end of the world.
We were initially casually exchanging thanks for our artworks.

Anyway, I was intrigued by the general fuss she'd given me so.. what else? I Googled 'em.

Apparently, it was a Physics Experiment revolving around a machine created to detect the 'God's particle' (some call em). Finding it will help to explain the other dimension exist in our world. Will also explained further or changed the Big Bang Theory.
Some were against this, saying it might create a black hole! Hence. my Da fren's cry for not wanting to die young!

At this, i thought about "Ghosts",malaikat, makhluk ghaib etc. The unseen but well known presence that we believe in.
Which then reminded me of the book i read, " The End of Mr.Y ".
Also, once my uncle told me about his PHD friend in the US, who told him, that the study of the paranormal has already started, scientifically. Like a university course.

I admire deeply people who pursue and fight to find the truth.
But not with an unacceptable cost. Then again, Life is Cause & Effect.
Some we can control, and some we leave it at faith.
Some decision, even at the fullest deepest thought, can go sour.
Like a sudden death, that doesn't make sense.
In Islam, that's Qada' & Qadar. Humans never will know better than Allah.
But that does not mean, we should stop pursuing what we believe in.
And stop learning from different angles.

~ oh, Beautiful Gift : Life ~

Here's articles/news of the experiment :

http://news.smh.com.au/world/massive-physics-experiment-on-wednesday-20080908-4byr.html

http://www.independent.co.uk/news/science/the-large-hadron-collider-end-of-the-world-or-gods-own-particle-921540.html

http://www.cnn.com/2008/TECH/09/08/lhc.collider/index.html

http://www.rte.ie/news/2008/0909/cern.html

http://www.sciencedaily.com/releases/2008/09/080903112026.htm

Beautiful Strangers

2008-09-08T20:07:00.007+08:00

I just finished trying to kill my sister! Annoying when she does the voice " Get a Grip, Grandma!"
heh. Take that! pow! n that! haiyak! (dust my hands) there. now she's all little like marshmallow.HAHAHA...kidding.i love her. :)

my right wrist hurts. (teringat reenee..hmm..berjangkit?). don't know why really.

I'm back to my usual daily life. Home, DA-ing and always in check with my sister's studies. SPM soon for her. US Open final's today. Rafa respectably lost to Andy Murray. :| darn rain!
AND Andy isnt English. He's Scottish and doesnt like we get it wrong. :)

ooohh...Scotland. (UK memories!!!)
well, i've finally sorted out my DA account. Uploaded few shots. Then, stumbled upon another DA artist and coincidentally he's from ABERDEEN! small2 world. So we got on chatting a bit.
And he went to the Fringe Festival.Twice. (jealous!)

this got me thinking of strangers i met there.

The Liverpool Levi's girl.
She was the 1st modest,helpful and friendly store help i've met in UK!
no seriously, their "attitude" isnt like at home. They made you put back the jeans you tried on back to it's hanger! OMG! and it is so hard to get eye contact/smile/diplomatic gesture.
It made me appreciate shopping in Asia! Here we're treated 'luxuriously' which fits the idea of a shopping=pampering! From my tiny experience, generally, thats London.

oh! and once, we went to this petite French cafe, and the waitress was so rude!
we asked for ice coffee. she said no (eye on the air!). then another guy swoop in, and did a fake super friendly talk and offered us to taste their new iced blended.
at the same time, rolled his eyes to the girl, an act of disaproval of her.
I had my inner evil laugh at this girl.
Obviously, she wasnt english. ( happened much??? mmmmmaybe!)

But, out of London, is where "non-cool" people really are.
Real people.
One time, I was walking into a store, a man stopped, and let me pass through first, With Hand Gesture! waaah..felt like a real lady!

And i was stopped in front of Edinburgh Starbucks, cause these 2 americans wants to take picture wit me! I lmao inside. Weirdos. One of them, started talking, LOUDLY, how we, Starbucks Consumers are contributing to garbage=another world problem.etc.
While he was babbling, i cant help but smile at how bored he must be.
He continued talking to others inside the shop, but people's faces weren't as friendly and shaked their heads off.
Then, he said "i don't want to start a long political debate now, i'll go".
He then asked us to thank our friend for "making garbage".
So i replied with a wide grin, " thanks for your sarcasm!"
"This is the truth! " he said smilingly.
"OK! Whatever. Bye! " happily i responded.

Funny cheerful bored guy.
There's time and place for things right people?
:)

~ smiling to myself ~

For my kind of UK that i knew

2008-08-30T16:11:00.005+08:00

WONDERFUL
by Chantal Kreviazuk

I'm alone in this life
And these old jeans are too tight
And now I can't pick my feet off the floor
I try to laugh but I cry
My dignity's undignified
I guess i'm really on my own

Love is like a little boy
No I'm not paranoid
But I'm onto you yeah yeah
Well I'm not seventeen
And I don't wanna be
So why am I hiding?

[Chorus:]
Is it too late to call you on the phone
Too late to tell you I'm alone
I wanna wake you from another lonely night
Is it too late to wonder where you are
Too late to hold you in my arms
Cause if you're looking for wonderful
I'm wonderful

I'm a very simple girl
And I don't fit into this world
The city lights leave me in a daze
And even though we've never met
You know what I'm trying to forget
Some things you can never change
[Chorus]

I'm underneath
Underneath
I'm underneath
I'm underneath

Good Feeeeeel'a'ng!

2008-08-30T15:45:00.004+08:00

Thats how it goes. Good Things Comes to an End.
It obviously meant that when things are good! Enjoy!
Deserve it. :)

Yeah, my UK trip was excellent. Im having trouble catching up to all my memories, thoughts,emotional absorption and organizing defining words to describe the whole experience.
Its like stuffing too many jelly beans into a clear long vase where the top cover is missing under the mountain of jelly beans next to it!
Make sense?hahaha...
and yes, i did ate jelly beans there!

Love IT! thats as short as i can say to express myself on the 3 weeks UK venture.

Near the end of the journey, during our long drive down from Scotland to London, i love Nina for letting me hear the Queens of the Stone Age! Gosh! where have i been all these years!
apela Nina! sampai hati..lambat gile nk share! now our Korn days are even! ^_^
concert!concert!hehe..

my inspiration replica! BUFFY!!!!!!!!

Sisters, You're A Gem

2008-08-13T04:19:00.003+08:00

Always There

© Rachel S. Lengefeld

I'll always be here through thick and thin
You can come to me, I'll listen
I'm your friend, I won't push you away
When you need a hug, my arms are wide open
When you need to talk, I have an open ear
Your growing up and getting older
Know that I'm always here, I'm not going anywhere
Wherever you are, I'm there with you
You’re in my heart and my prayers
Just know I'm here, because I truly care
You’re my sister, you mean so much
Don't want to see you hurt or cry
I'll wipe the tears, I'll get rid of your fears
Want to see you grow up and achieve
Just believe, have faith
You can do anything
You’re beautiful inside and out
You’re smart and very talented
You’re many things, but most all, you’re my sister
I believe in you and know that I'll never stop loving you.

p.s: can't wait to see Alexis in the movie, n i miss u SIS! xxo

~ in artistic mood ~

For Me

2008-08-11T19:16:00.003+08:00

There are things you can't change and you can't have them back once its lost.
Finding those that are lost is harder, and will get harder as time goes by.
Within the time frame thats been given to us, we choose what we keep and what we let go.
In return, in this temporary life, we learn to get by along with the pain of it.
In space where you can breath freely, is where you'll realize, the painful choices that you made before, had been done, based on a tiny prayer inside you.
That prayer is change for the better. And to keep on holding to whats actually real and good for your soul since that counts for not just today but forever.

ps: I MISS HOME SO BADLY! but im having a blast here in the UK. :)

Alhamdulillah, im fine ere.
Tonnes of pictures. Good frens. Cant wait to see Nina soon!

~ live now for tomorrow ~

Friends You're Also My Stars ^_^

2008-07-29T14:46:00.005+08:00

Vice Versa ^_^

When You're Gone by Bryan Adams & Mel C

p.s: thanks Tinie for this xxo

~ sedang anxious (pasal benda lain la tapi) ~

Scream Fest in my Head!

2008-07-28T00:51:00.003+08:00

aaaaaaaaaaaargggggggggggghhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i feel like screaming. in my head right now is like not one, not two, but several big busy buzzing cities! aiyak.
OMG!OMG! so many things to prepare. home,work & especially my soul.
i pray ya Allah, that the 3 weeks will teach me more.
Only you & me knows my heart's intention. ^_^

Arini best makan wooo...thanks to Mr.Raja & K.Eera :)
Dadih je tak try.hahaha...n Lya for catching up with me all the way from Perak. hugsss!

Again, no Goldenhorse , no Stardust Soundtrack, no The Honorary Title cds.
Mana laaa aku nk carik ni.

Roger Federer is coming again to KL! yey!

I really have no idea what to write because there's too many!
Like tali putus2. If tulis pun org tak faham. Ha-ha.

Can't wait!!!

p.s: tetibe teringat cupcake Miss Suraya. ;|

~ ke-sewel-an ~

Cute Alert!

2008-07-22T23:46:00.004+08:00

Can't help it! The song is so fine. So are the boys. mwahahahahahahahaha......

She Said,I Said by NLT.

Turn Things Around

2008-07-22T00:16:00.008+08:00

When turning things around we don't really know what's coming. Blind faith.

Long time no news. Had a minor accident last week. Only the car got hit. (Alhamdulillah) Having a blast at home, the boys are here and Mel. :)
Driven crazy by my sis for making me help her with her SPM art projects. Terasa like i was so bck in school. aah...study years. so fun! Will tht come around again?

Study = Adelaide. Thats the equation for tht of me nowadays. The fighting force of Adelaide keeps coming dont they? Last 2 days, someone from the past, ym me. its been years. Shocking. Never expected. But nice that it happened. haha. He so owes me coffee. If I am living the other life that i planned to since last year, we wld be hanging out now. Or i'd be in japan and korea with my fren, taking a semester there :)
All of these made me feel the big space life gives.
At the same time, choices made life seem small.
Putting two together, Life is simply ways we turn it around.
Again, like how Magnorium's Wonder Emporium movie inspired me.

"Turn every ordinary into extraordinary"

I missed the 2nd Deviantart Malaysia gathering! damn damn. huhuhu
And im off to UK the end of this month.
oh Life. :)

~ When It Rains by Paramore ~

And when it rains
on this side of town
It touches everything
Just say it again and mean it
We don't miss a thing
You made yourself a bed at the bottom
of the blackest hole
and convinced yourself
that it's not the reason you don't see the sun anymore

and no (oh) how could you do it
(oh I) I never saw it coming
(no oh) I need an ending
So why can't you stay
Just long enough to explain

And when it rains
You always find an escape
Just running away
From all of the ones who love you
From everything
You made yourself a bed at the bottom
Of the blackest hole (blackest hole)
And you'll sleep till May
You'll say that you don't want to see the sun anymore

and no (oh) how could you do it
(oh I) I never saw it coming
(no oh) I need an ending
So why can't you stay
Just long enough to explain

(Explain your side, Take my side)
Take these chances to turn it around
Take these chances we'll make it somehow
And Take these chances and turn it around
Just turn it around.

and no (oh) how could you do it
(oh I) I never saw it coming
no (oh) how could you do it
(oh I) I never saw it coming
no (oh) how could you do it
(oh I) I never saw it coming and
(no oh) I need an ending
So why can't you stay
Just long enough to explain

You can take your time, take my time

p.s: referring to my last post, Lasagna. thanks Ainee very much. now a teenager wants to marry me!!! (terkelu..apakah perasaan yg patot i ada ni?)

~ passionnista ~

Pasta, Lasagna, LAT and DAD

2008-07-08T22:54:00.002+08:00

All my anak buah just went home.
Always a joy having them around.
More special that i discovered my nephews loved my pasta!
Irfan would make a silly dance after each piece he puts in his mouth.
That boy is too adorable.urgh!

My pasta sensation doesnt really started there.
Thanks to Miss Ainee, i was the Queen of Lasagna in Putrajaya 1 High School (my sis school).
My sis 17 birthday, i made lasagna. And the fact that her class is 3/4 boys, made it a big deal. Suddenly i was like this celebrity. hahahaha...
More so, everytime there's things at school, they nag me to make some.
The birthday was last Feb, and finally last week, i made the dish again for my sister's teacher birthday party. (for FREE!).
Then people start asking to order it from me.
Gosh! thats when it hits me how domestic i am, NOW.

That is my life this past year. Domestic me. Its a different life of course.
Despite the business,studies,etc.
Freedom in a different angle.
Now, this is another phase in my life.
It made me excited to be in my next one.
Like my close frens said, i could write several books just about high school.
Thats how many phases i had.

I had no internet for the past 5 days.
So, pardon my overwhelming story teller urge. :)

I do however have another very interesting story(well to me).
It came as a shock. We always know that parents have different life in the past.
I love that. I love hearing old stories about my grandfather who i never knew, who had the most bizarre adventure i personally ever heard about.
But i think i'll save that for another time.

The story that i want to share, is the one my mum told me about my dad last 2 days.
I never knew that my dad had been in a terrible accident with few colleagues from early government work days. They were all on a way to football match.
Cause of a stupid dare, my dad (who drove), tried to cross a car and end up flying the car across a "gaung" and end up in a river!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
No, it didnt end there. One of them almost died.
One of them get help from an emergency phone.
No, it didnt end there either.
The whole thing was relived by LAT. yes LAT the Malaysian Cartoonist!
In the paper!Apparently, my dad and LAT are friends.
WOW.I was freaking surprised, the accident, the LAT, the paper.
The paper probably around the year 82-85.
I was 2-5 years old. :)
I only experienced 1 accident in my whole life.
It wasn't pleasant at all.
The irony of a tragedy turned into comedy?
WOW.

My domestic life :) comes with travelling, house modelling, school, shopping, kids, recipes. The whole package without the normal entity. hahahaha.Another irony.
The best part is being with my family.
BUT im throwing a UK trip in the mix.
I so Need it!
New thoughts, new stories, new fun.

Last week, i had my music sense filled with Nerina Pallot.
Her new album will be out this year too.
Im glad i encounter her songs.
The FIRES album is so awesome. I love all.

~just following my ancient beat~

Fully Alive

2008-06-28T01:46:00.012+08:00

I had a Mouse crisis.
This is the 2nd one i bought. My good behavior old mouse went bonkers! grrr...malfunction my a*%!
so i went to buy a new one and the wire was freaking short! Then i bought another one, and HA-HA, it is slightly shorter than what i had! Cruel cruel joke.
Should I buy the 3rd mouse? hah?hah? irritating betul.

It's been a while i haven't shared any current songs. Lately, my feminist strength overdriven my music sense..hence the all girls stuff i listened to.
Imaginations that came out from this? very positive. Sunshine, BEACHES!, driving with the window down blowing my hair, cute guys!, the NO one gonna let me down attitude, being totally your-dorky-perky self and all the good good friends!

Hence, i love not to worry. But having nothing to worry about is bad, cause you have no reason to feel certain things. You cant really live your life too perfectly, cause that just means you never change. :)
I may love today, hate tomorrow, or dying-ly loving the next.
Basically, i hate being bored. ngee...

Here's few of Girls Rule Sunny Cheery Songs!
1. The Bangles!!! - Walk Like an Egyptian 80's
2. Sandi Thom - I Wish I was a Punk Rocker (with Flowers in my Head) PopRock
3. Nerina Pallot - All Good People, Everybody's Gone to War PopRock
4. Amy Studt - Misfit Pop
5. Bonnie McKee - Somebody PopRock
6. Katy Rose - Glow PopRock
7. A Fine Frenzy - You Picked Me Acoustic
8. Susan Enan - Bring on the Wonder ( Bones Soundtrack) Acoustic
9. Belinda Carlisle - Heaven is a place on Earth 80's
10. Lucie Silvas - What You're Made of Ballad
and my sister's favorite, any songs by Jessie Daniels. Pop

and a more emo-rock by FLYLEAF. the album is pretty good. :)

Flyleaf with All Around Me
(wait for 3:02 hehe)

~still waiting for her Quintuplets~

Cartoon Life!

2008-06-09T02:14:00.005+08:00

Thanks Mr.Raja Kuwait for introducing me to the adorable YUNA!
I adore Cartoon Couple! have a listen here, this Malaysian girl is awesome. :)
http://www.myspace.com/yunaroomrecords

THE AFTERS!

Another Cartoon Fiesta is my current favourite band.
I love listening to them. It uplifted my rainy mood yesterday. :)
Here's their song Myspace Girl! The video is so damn cute.
Its actually inspired by one of their bandmember who met his wife through myspace. :)click this->Myspace Girl on YouTube

I guess I have many things to smile about today. :)
More so, Im so glad for my fren for covering Foo Fighters in Wembley. :)
Also, for my really cool fren NINA!!! for calling me!!!!
Trip trip trip! ( ya allah harap2 jadik!yey) :) :) :)

all this is made me Cartoon Like...silly. :)
wrote few stuff too.
though, i really do miss my bestie so much + im very happy for her. :)

until my next emotional rumble...taa!
~passionnista~

Earth Agrees

2008-06-08T03:20:00.008+08:00

I thank the rain this late night for falling for me,
(at least it felt that way)
Cause it works.(until few months soon)
When I'm sad, i love to listen to Patty Griffin. I love her idea of inspiration - that her shyness is overcome through music. I could feel her honesty of being herself. And true artist truly does shine through that way. Just by being yourself.

Her sites
http://www.pattygriffin.com/
http://www.pattygriffin.net/

RAIN by Patty Griffin
It's hard to listen to a hard hard heart
Beating close to mine
Pounding up against the stone and steel
Walls that I won't climb
Sometimes a hurt is so deep deep deep
You think that you're gonna drown
Sometimes all I can do is weep weep weep
With all this rain falling down

Strange how hard it rains now
Rows and rows of big dark clouds
When I'm holding on underneath this shroud
Rain

Its hard to know when to give up the fight
Two things you want will just never be right
Its never rained like it has tonight before
Now I don't wanna beg you baby
For something maybe you could never give
I'm not looking for the rest of your life
I just want another chance to live

Strange how hard it rains now
Rows and rows of big dark clouds
When I'm holding on underneath this shroud
Rain

Strange how hard it rains now
Rows and rows of big dark clouds
When I'm still alive underneath this shroud
Rain Rain Rain

~passionnista~

Passion, dearest Passionists

2008-05-31T02:04:00.002+08:00

I place a high admiration for people with passion.
When I say Passion, I meant those who owns it in their heart to simply live.
I do not associate Passion with only Success.
True Passion is when it outlive reality.
When no matter what circumstances we are in, Passion never fades.

I realize another reason why i love Tennis Matches so much.
Now,French Open is on.Round 3 today.
Watching a new player, playing their hardest, losing the 1st two set..winning the next 2 sets..and to loose in the final set..lost in the end.
And yet, people stand up, applaud for the outstanding effort he/she made.
Due to the fact, the big lost, is actually a grand exit.
Where people enjoyed one of the best matches.
And that in the end of the day, nobody left the court a loser.

Imagine producing the same energy, perspective and respect to everyday people.
Those who fight, within ordinary compound, and yet even there is no Grand Exit,
no Billboard to show off ones effort, no Glitz and Glamor spilled on them exaggerating their life,
i always manage to be amazed at how little people appreciate people.

Single mothers, orphans, grass cutters, hawkers, gas station workers, contractors, etc..
that usually called 'ordinary' people.
When i did see these people, did their job, in the best manner possible,
i wonder how did they do it.
And i think the answer is Passion.
Somewhere somehow in the tiny space of their heart, lies Passion.
Saying that the life given, is worth only the best effort.

Don't you think this ought to be applaud?
Don't you think they are Kings in their territory?

Im not naive. I know people never choose to be a grass cutter...if they can.
But when i saw, a father, cutting bushes near the Shell at my house, Smiling, while his young daughter and son, playing nearby...
(he said to them : "play nicely..watch around and be safe, dad will be done in a few")
I have nothing but respect.
Trust me that the bushes at my Shell, are always in perfect shape.

Is that Passion of cutting tree OR Passion of Life?

After reading, The Witch of Portobello and watched Mr.Magorium's Wonder Emporium..
what came out is this..

"Turn every ordinary into extraordinary"

Now, Passion is Heart and is about appreciating Life.
Washing the dishes, taking care of the sick, respecting our parents, be kind even to the mean,
aware of death and after life, Islam, flaws, faults, sacrifices, forgiveness and learn.

With this in mind, nothing seem unworthy.
Like Allah said, no obstacles laid for you if you aren't capable of handling.

By understanding, Passion, Life and Death..(with Islam),
we are smart for what we are.
*Applaud*

Thanks for reading.
~ passionista ~

Mr.Magorium's Wonder Emporium!

2008-05-24T12:47:00.003+08:00

Resulted in 2 entries in a time. I watched it sometime few days back. And it affect me and my running to.. especially the phrase.
Life is an occasion. Rise to it!
i keep recalling it to myself.

After that dvd, i look at life like a space. A square, circle, any shape i dont really care.
Cause it can be any. Like Mr.Magorium's Wonder Emporium. It's magical.
Like life. We know anything can happen. We know of the cause and effect.
We also know about the unexplained events that happened.
We know reality.
We know after-life.
So why stop expanding when life is a "magic" tool in the first place?
We may not know how to use it at times, there arent step by step methods.
We only have guide.
I intended to use. Its "magic". So anything is possible. :)
Will it and work it.

There are many wonderful eccentric sayings by Mr.Magorium.
Here are the few i love!
Mr. Edward Magorium: I fell so completely in love with these shoes, I bought enough pairs to last my whole lifetime. This is my last pair.

Mr. Edward Magorium: Unlikely adventures require unlikely tools.

Mr. Edward Magorium: [to Molly, about dying] When King Lear dies in Act V, do you know what Shakespeare has written? He's written "He dies." That's all, nothing more. No fanfare, no metaphor, no brilliant final words. The culmination of the most influential work of dramatic literature is "He dies." It takes Shakespeare, a genius, to come up with "He dies." And yet every time I read those two words, I find myself overwhelmed with dysphoria. And I know it's only natural to be sad, but not because of the words "He dies." but because of the life we saw prior to the words. [pause, walks over to Molly]

Mr. Edward Magorium: I've lived all five of my acts, Mahoney, and I am not asking you to be happy that I must go. I'm only asking that you turn the page, continue reading... and let the next story begin. And if anyone asks what became of me, you relate my life in all its wonder, and end it with a simple and modest "He died."

Molly Mahoney: [starting to sob] I love you.
Mr. Edward Magorium: I love you, too. [picks Molly up, sighs heavily]
Mr. Edward Magorium: Your life is an occasion. Rise to it.

Mr. Edward Magorium: 37 seconds.
Molly Mahoney: Great. Well done. Now we wait.
Mr. Edward Magorium: No. We breathe. We pulse. We regenerate. Our hearts beat. Our minds create. Our souls ingest. 37 seconds, well used, is a lifetime.

that's all!
Take Care. :)

Running Week

2008-05-24T11:49:00.004+08:00

this past week started with my 'running' routine.
Work is work.Nothing much.I guess,promoting gym,spa and beauty products had its effects.
= RUN!
reading a new book now, The Witch of Portobello. so far, it's been a really good read, about Sufism, art, caligraphy and trance.Haven't finished it though.But its a journey of a woman who had hard life but have special characteristics/abilities few only aware.

I also bought a 1968 Time Life book on Manet. A France painter who's been considered the one who changed traditional - modern painting / impressionism. (though he's only considered a genius after his death.)

aah..usually, that happens with people who think further ahead.
while, people who think in the now, couldn't understand how and why some think differently.
Some just learned more than others.
It's all about being yourself really. Nothing more.
Though, Manet did hid his painter side, with his people side.
Artist do that i guess. Or else, there's no painting to paint about. If everything was revealed.
Or is because some thing in our soul, need a conventional vessel to come out?

In the book box, there's an extra booklet too, a Chronology of Western Art dated from 1250 which started mostly in Florence and Siena.
Got me thinking, if i could popped in the library in Turkey right now, i so want to read books about Islamic paintings.Which is mostly Sufism.
I read somewhere that eastern books on world matters were adopted by the west.
hmm..

arrgh!all this extra thinking is all because of The End of Mr.Y. 4th dimension,mind journey.
also because, i just want to paint my life, everyday, with as many colors as possible.
i hate the idea of filling it with materialism as a ruler of how successful i am as a human.
i love to have my short life filled with everything that ruled by Islam.
That would be everything really. Love,myself,family,friends,knowledge,hardships given,dreams.
Especially knowledge. Its the way to grow.
How successful i am is how i am as everything i am. And that excludes me being a Bitch!
hahahaa..

I written my 1st News Article in DeviantArt. Check it out if you want.
Nothing much, just basics really.
http://news.deviantart.com/article/48940/

Enjoy your weekends people!

~Love always~

Twilight !!!

2008-05-15T21:35:00.001+08:00

Just finished watching the tennis match, Davydenko vs Keifer,
an Atp Masters Series : Hamburg. It's on Live in StarSport the whole week now.
Its so fun to get to watch it now and again.
Before my rest, i've been meaning to share, about a series of book by Stephenie Meyer.
The first book is called "Twilight".

more info link here : http://www.stepheniemeyer.com/twilight.html

One of my deviantart (DA) friend urged me to read it months ago. Since she was also like me, a big Roswell fan. So she understands my taste on books and tv shows. ha-ha.
Another time it came up in the chatroom of DA (deviantart) recently, and a US friend told me abt this too. But i started getting too excited when the DA friend showed her screenshot of the movie!!!
YES! There's a movie! Began production February 2008 and release date 12 December 2008!
That's like after Harry Porter right!(another one that i'm eager about)
You can read about Twilight movie in the link i gave above.
Here's few posters/fanarts.Gosh!I cant wait!

and Twilight trailer

So i'm so getting my hands on the book series tomorrow. Havent got time to do so.
Also, cause im reading a book now, "The End of Mr.Y" and its been a crazy ride.
4th dimension, philosophers, mind ventures - urgh! heavy stuff.

Thanks for reading!
~ aware to fight ~

Starting Fresh and THT

2008-05-13T00:51:00.010+08:00

is my intention and is in motion - regarding my next life phase that is. ha-ha. Pause the seriousness, and back to what i enjoy at the moment.

The Honorary Title, though barely known, (2004) the music is something.
There's little punches of the Beatles, in "Bridge and Tunnel"- that i agree with some = made me smile, or The Remembrandts in "Anything Else but the Truth".
But most of all, to get the feel of it, is to listen to each song, about 3 times..and after that, it kinda rang in my head, quite addictive i say.
What's unique about their sound, is their composition! Get you entangled!
The lyrics are sad.
I haven't gone through the albums, but here are list of tracks that got me into more in the first place.

(2006 - Anything Else but the Truth)
Anything Else but the Truth
The Bridge and Tunnel
Everything I Once Had
Frame by Frame

(2007 - Scream and Light Up the Sky)
Stay Away ( also OST One Tree Hill 3 )

“Our intention with Scream and Light Up the Sky was to communicate pessimism and the darkest of emotions,” he says, “but at the same time not take ourselves too seriously.
It’s heartfelt, but expressed with a sarcastic tone."
~ taken from http://www.thehonorarytitle.com

~love,love,love : fresh and peachy xx ~

Photo from : http://phillyist.com/2007/10/05/insert_honorary.php

Shadowfeet and Lucky 8

2008-05-09T01:17:00.012+08:00

What was on the screen on board of Air New Zealand from Auckland to Wellington, during my visit last month? Brooke Fraser.
Since yesterday, I've been listening to her new album.
Which is actually a 2006 album but will be a new release in the US this May 26th.
I miss listening to her. I recall in 2004, her first album was a huge hit in her home country New Zealand. The year i first step foot there as well.

I bring home her music with me until now.
Here's the 2nd single from her 2nd album, 'Albertine'.
Wait, whats 'Lucky 8' has anything to do with today's pick? Well, 8 is like my life number. Harder to explain, but the entire course of my life, 8 has always been, a 'companion'.
And i discovered and fell in love with "Shadowfeet", on the 8th, and the video,
well.... that's just...*smile*...ME. Enjoy!

~SHADOWFEET~

click here for website--> BROOKE FRASER

Walking,stumbling on these shadowfeet
toward home, a land that i've never seen
I am changing: less and less asleep
made of different stuff than when i began
and i have sensed it all along
fast approaching is the day
***
when the world has fallen out from under me
I'll be found in you, still standing
when the sky rolls up and mountains fall on their knees
when time and space are through
I'll be found in you
***
Theres distraction buzzing in my head
saying in the shadows it's easier to stay
but I've heard rumours of true reality
whispers of a well-lit way
***
You make all things new
***
When the world has fallen out from under me
I'll be found in you, still standing
Every fear and accusation under my feet
when time and space are through
I'll be found in you

~ someone who love laughing at her silliness ;) ~

'This is Home' is here!

2008-05-06T03:50:00.008+08:00

I just watched the video of Switchfoot's 'This Is Home' that is the theme movie song for
Prince Caspian:The Chronicles of Narnia! w0000t!!! so exciting!

VIDEO HERE! VIDEO HERE! VIDEO HERE! VIDEO HERE!
watch it here with a note from Jon too! here's the link
This Is Home by Swithcfoot

"As a band we have held firm to the idea that music can bring people together to accomplish much more than a show. We've always tried to play music for everyone regardless of ideology, race, or genre. So with that in mind we are proud to announce our involvement in one of the most diverse lineups we've ever been a part of. We dreamed up the The Music Builds Tour along with a few friends of ours whose main commonality is a dream to see this world change for the better. Different bands, different backgrounds, one goal: A traveling festival to raise money and awareness for Habitat for Humanity. We think very highly of the people who listen to our music. We are grateful for the open minded audience who have embraced our songs and allowed us to push the boundaries of where the music can go. We invite you to put differences in musical taste aside and focus on our commonalities: we all want to see this world change for the better. We hope that you'll come with us on this next part of the journey and get involved in something much bigger than ourselves." - Chad

I checked out a few of local acts last night, and it got me thinking.

What makes an artist an artist? Is it always about the good work well presented or is it the ideology behind every piece or the person, that made them matter?

I've always turn to hidden gold, when it comes to what i choose to hear,view, read or write.
Its always been one of my strong value i cherished.
So me as an art appreciator, Ive always dig deep.
With the world today as it is, with Pluto gone, with Earth at stake, with teenagers eager to be old, with adults who cant keep up with life's high expectancy, with the world becomes flat, and we are close to thousands of doors yet made us feel stuck to open one.

I wonder, have life been this hard ages ago?

So far, as a human, living..it always comes back to what matter.
What matter is loving the good things, appreciate the simpler things, untangled the complications, believe in justice and forgiveness, be true to the truth and keep learning.
What matter is that you try ---> to be more.
Now that is a masterpiece.

~ i'm not a miracle worker, but i admire small changes ~
*please note the photos are not mine

Window and Words

2008-05-03T21:52:00.009+08:00

There's a window in our heart.
There's a window inside.
But to remain closed, is it still a window,
without the View?

-to listen please go the right side page for Odeo Player-
Kate Voegele with "Kindly Unspoken"
(as heard in One Tree Hill)
As high as the moon | So high were my spirits | When you sang out my name
And coming from you | It was enough just to hear it | Oh, it rang like the bells did today
But even the sturdiest ground | Can shift and can tremble and let us fall down

Kindly unspoken
You show your emotion | And silence speaks louder than words
It's lucky I'm clever | If I didn't know better
I'd believe only that which I'd heard

In the days of my folly | I followed your lead | I did what Simon Said to do
But I won't let melancholy | Play me for a fool | Oh, no I'm on my way somewhere new
And as far as your lack of something to say |
Well, to tell me goodbye there was no better way

So don't keep me up till the dawn | With words that'll keep leading me on
I know much better than to wait for an answer from you

Brandi Carlile and Band in the UK!

2008-05-03T03:33:00.008+08:00

i knew about the tour, while she and the band were in Australia before that.
If i was in Adelaide this year, i definitely had been to the show. :)
Oh well, here's the latest video from them.
Brandi and the gang in their dressing room in London.
I cant believe that "The Story" album just coming in the UK end of April!!!!
I own the album like in the middle of last year!
I dont understand how the music business world works..but em...there you go.

Enjoy the behind the scenes On Tour clip,'Turpentine' and 'The Story,
though i posted The Story video before which i think had more raw and rock into it. :D
but you'll see she changed her guitar in the middle of the song. Awesome!

"i'll fall back in line but i'm warning you we're growing old.." - Turpentine.

"you see the smile that's on my mouth, tired of words that won't come out, all of my friends who think that i'm blessed, they don't know my hair is a mess.." - The Story.

On Tour (UK)

The Story Live on Later

Turpentine Live on Later

Cherry Blossom Blooming

2008-04-29T22:03:00.002+08:00

when i splashed myself with the lovable Cherry Blossom L'Occitane Bath Gel.hmmm.....i understand y its freakin expensive!
i heart heart heart it!

In 1976, the founder,Olivier Baussan,(yes a dude!) start this when he was 23! So the 30 years of success story is basically producing very fine authentic made product, harvested in Provenance, France.

http://www.loccitane.com

btw, SYA! HAPPY BIRTHDAY GIRL!
May your Year be Gorgeous & Blessed. :)

~ someone in romantic mood ~

These Hard Times by Matchbox 20

2008-04-29T13:12:00.010+08:00

yesterday i recall a line of a song -
"why don't they understand, that someone else's pain, is not for gain."
catchy n simple :)
for the latest Hoo-Ra of my song pick.

Morning falls like rain Into the city life
There goes another night
Losing my breath in waves Knowing that every crash
is bleeding the hourglass
and taking the strife
from all our lives

Everyone keeps talking They promise you everything
But they don't mean anything
We may loose our focus There's just too many words
We're never meant to learn
And we don't feel so alive

Say goodbye, these days are gone
and we can't keep holding on
When all we need is some relief
Through these hard times
Through these hard times

Move your hands in circles Keeping me hypnotized
The power behind your eyes
Move around your bedroom Cursing the naked sky
You should be here tonight
But you stay alone and cry

Say goodbye, these days are gone
and we can't keep holding on
When all we need is some relief
Through these hard times
There's something missing You'll never feel it but you
You're gonna feel it when it's gone
When it's gone

Say goodbye, these days are gone
and we can't keep holding on
When all we need is some relief
Through these hard times
(hey)these Hard times (oh no now)Hard times Hard times

Say goodbye, these days are gone
Say goodbye, these days are gone
These days are gone.

and 'How Far We've Come' is another single from this Album that is just brilliant!
Kudos to the video as well.
I heard this the first time while in Wellington and fell in love with it instantly.
The album itself have terrific new tracks! Like, 'All Your Reason'.
too bad for it though since this album is really a greatest hits.
Suddenly, i remembered this is Nina's fav band!!!

~ someone who fell down on a bathroom floor yesterday ~

Total Eclipse of the Heart Fever!

2008-04-26T03:03:00.007+08:00

so Retro! muahaha..
I declare that the song "Total Eclipse of the Heart" is officially the trip song of 2008.
"turn around.............."
Total fun and relaxing 11 days trip to Wellington, NZ, it was. :)
thnks to F.R.I.E.N.D.S!!!
esp Miss Nee Nee n Miss Carrie Underwood for letting me crashed!
Miss Ah Hui for road tripping with me and got to see full rainbow!
i got to do massive catching ups. yey. :)

hv i told you?
i dont blog daily and that i found 4 white hairs tonight?!
does that mean im old or that i straighten my hair too much?!
haha..
Old age. Puh- Lease!!! Im far from it.
Which means " I have miles to go before I sleep."

I uploaded few shots into my Deviantart since yesterday.
Thanks to Mr.Krel and Mr.Emil for being a gr8 sport temaning me jalan2. :)

actually, so many thanks to shout out really. :) though i mention it like 100 times!
still, in ere its like engraving, or its not? ahaha..
I miss Netball :) but I had massive fun playing it again.
With changes that eventually comes, expected too, its a warming feeling that something valuable is never lost. :)
"In the end at what we chose to put value into,
we become who we are."

and with this thought, i bid you goodnight :)

~someone who didnt get to collect gatherings shots~

Packing Blues and Tinglers!!!

2008-04-08T23:34:00.011+08:00

Yup.The day after 2moro..bye Malaysia, and hello New Zealand.
well, for just 10 days. :) so today, i started packing. and it was raining the whole night.
(again...I Love Rain!)
when i was driving out earlier, i imagined what if each drop is like this tingling creature tht can make u tingle inside. and these "Tinglers" can make us feel alive sometimes.hmm...
(waah! found my next writing!)
so next when i came home, i remember the song i explored yesterday.
The Swedish band, The Perishers. and i fell in love with "Sway".
its now playing non-stop in my mind.haha...
Sway+Tinglers = something new...soon.

oh i do want to update on wat i did last saturday.
I became an MC for MSU for the International Book Fair 2008 at PWTC.
my god! there's a lot of ppl. n me talking????hahahahaha...weird.
i was supposed to dance. but i cldnt, due to my tight schedule with my new business wit my aunt. but my fren really need my help...so there i was...babbling.
phewww! i think i did ok - for my 1st time!!!! insane.

thts it for now. Enjoy SWAY u humans!!!

Let There Be Morning (2005)

http://www.theperishersmusic.com/

I talk to you as to a friend
I hope that’s what you’ve come to be
It feels as though we’ve made amends
Like we found a way eventually

It was you who picked the pieces up
When I was a broken soul
And then glued me back together
Returned to me what others stole

I don’t wanna hurt you
I don’t wanna make you sway
Like I know I’ve done before
Iwill not do it anymore
I’ve always been a dreamer
I've had my head among the clouds
Now that I’m coming down
Won’t you be my solid ground?

I look at you and see a friend
I hope that’s what you wanna be
Are we back now where it all began?
Have you finally forgiven me?

You gathered my dreams in
When they all blew away
And then tricked them back into me
You saved me I was almost dead

I don’t wanna hurt you
I don’t wanna make you sway
Like I know I’ve done before
I will not do it anymore
I’ve always been a dreamer
I've had my head among the clouds
Now that I’m coming down
Won’t you be my solid ground?

I don’t wanna hurt you
Like I know I’ve done before
I will not do it anymore...

I don’t wanna hurt you
I don’t wanna make you sway
Like I know I’ve done before
I will not do it anymore
I’ve always been a dreamer
I've had my head among the clouds
Now that I’m coming down
Won’t you be my solid ground?

~loving my Tinglers,really really do~

My fav Songwriter Talks

2008-04-04T01:52:00.006+08:00

The words he chosed to say...love em. :)
Plus, coz of this particular video, Jon said he's been working with one of the Nickelcreek!!!!
I never knew! coz like Nickelcreek was my last year obsession!
Their songs are brilliantly written!
~ We are drawn into what we feel.~ This is one of my proof. :)

Enjoy! Jon in an interview for the
Writer's Symposium By The Sea at Point Loma Nazarene University, Feb 6,2008.
The Song : War in My Blood, Southbound Train.

Jon's a Magnet

2008-04-04T00:45:00.005+08:00

Current obsession : The Moon is A Magnet by Jon Foreman.
Current fuel : The OC every 2.30am & Coffee everyday/ once in 2 days.
I couldn't sleep since last week, not after 3.30am and then can only wake up by 10am.
Afterwards, days been hectic every minute. Here there.
With the current biz project, hobby stuff, friends, family, sister, writings, crushes, up to NZ - soon.
Im just in love with this song :)
u can listen to it in this page, on the left - odeo player!

The moon is a magnet
Everyone's at it
Everyone's had it
Love is a sadness
Love is a madness
We are the addicts

What are we
If we're not in love?
What are we
If we're not in love?
These are the cages
A kiss is contagious
It will betray us all
A kiss will betray us all

Somebody told me
That everyone's phony
'Til somebody's lonely
I hope that you're lonely
I hope that you're only
Waiting to phone me

What are we
If we're not alone?
What are we
If we're not alone?
These are the cages
A kiss is contagious
It will betray us all
A kiss will betray us all

The moon is a magnet
Everyone's at it
Everyone's had it

~ someone who wonder what kind of magnet she is ~

Raining Season Friend

2008-03-30T23:34:00.012+08:00

1. The Cure for the Pain
2. Southbound Train
3. Lord, Save me from myself.
4. Equally Skilled
5. The Moon is a Magnet
6. My Love Goes Free

" it will be a lot to run away....it will be a lot..it will be a lot...it will be a lot to run away"
" what are we, if we're not in love. what are we, if i'm not alone."
One of my favourite Lyricist, ever!!!

SCREEEEEECHHHHH.....STOP!
scratch the different religion. neither this cool dude can take away my faith.
but listening to this EP, he got talent to write one of the most sincere human feelings-
and its damn beautiful.
right to the core of his work, i think its only a human desire questioning and asking for something better and some meaning that should bloom out from our struggle, choices and mistakes.
and that we feel the presence of a distant destiny, that lingers too near.
words like his, played almost perfectly. music that do-breathe.
and again, may i remind myself, life is still a journey.
:)

~war of love is loving~

It's Time

2008-03-26T19:01:00.013+08:00

ya Allah. Me n my plans!

28 in 2008. ada ong ka? hehe.according to one of my DA frens, in Chinese Horoscope, Monkey ppl will hv a rocky year this yr. ahahaha...
i dun care! im a rebellious horoscope reader. teehee.
tht means, im kicking the negative ones out, by turning it 360 degrees, or jst lmao.

my bdy was on the 18th. 18th. 28 yrs old. 2008.
beautiful March - coz its raining season in KL.
n oh how i LOVE rain.
i really do.
we Malaysians, can never have tht perfect wintery Sotto voce conversation with ourself.
or open the enveloping secrets and excitements of Autumn n Spring .

My beautiful plans. In this rainy season, races of flashes crashed in my mind.
I am happy as i can be.

With all my heart, I thank you all.
My long lost friends, close ones, cyber friends, and for sure loved ones.
For the thought n best wishes.
Tq WYNN for a blog entry for me. XX.
Tq NINA for singing the bdy song in sms from far away in Aberdeen.
TQ SYAHIDA for emailing me from Spore.For never forgetting me after 6mnhts in Astronomy together.
Tq ZUE for the lovely thought of spending the time wit me.

Bdy isnt a big deal like when im young. Since i hvnt really celebrate this day wit family, (4 years). This yr is different.
Y? coz my dearie nephew Apiq (3years old), all dressed up at home excited to come n see me on my bdy. awww...how can i say no to tht?
To my mum, who ordered special delivery of food frm Kuantan.
She made Steamboat for the bdy menu. (terharu)
My dad who managed to do spend time wit me, (b4 Golf of course..haha..) still, i love the time we had.
My relatives.
Especially, my Sister. Such a sweetheart. She is the mastermind behind the Big Gift.
My parents and her, bought me....my dream helper.
CANON EOS40D.
i never guess. which is y i didnt update this blog.
i jst dunno how to write this.
My bro went all the way too. He bought me a Lifecam for my pc. something he never did.

So 28 became something more.
With all the plans i do hv right now..more is inevitable.
the key is to work it out.
and i'll always feel blessed, even some things don't work out.
Hikmah learned.

So life up until now, hv been full of risings and downfalls.
My basket is overloaded.
I could hv written one complete book of my life.
Its time for a new basket. New beginnings.
Its time to really grow up.
and im glad to be. :)

Love with fresh eyes,
~ someone who managed to be true to the truth~

Sunburst Burst More than Incubus

2008-03-17T22:26:00.010+08:00

yeah.did this.

surprisingly, Incognito got me excited first and in the mood for music. Positive, fun, pop, funky songs certainly one of the highlights for me tht night. My tenses, and negativity vibe, slowly went away as i dance away.Enjoying myself wit the crowd.

Sunburst started at 2pm, but i went there around 9pm.
Although, Incubus was the main reason im there, seeing John Legend singing Save Room was priceless too! I bet the girl who got picked personally by Mr.Legend, to slow dance wit him on stage cant sleep!hahaha...n..her name was Nisha!!! erk.

Then there was the graffiti thing, fire thing, wall thing, and Incubus rare song list.
Aqueous Transmission was the last song. Perfect.
My fav tht night, definitely wld be : Quicksand, Anna Molly, Warmth, Talk Shows of Mute.

Little extra when the crowd sang Happy Birthday to Ben. :)

Incubus ended nearly 2am and it was awesome. Money well spent.
Best of all, i met Loth! my long lost high school buddy! cool! as usual she had her "The Secrets" Tee on. (the exact tee like Brandon's)..hehe.

for more BUZZ on Incubus tht night, click this ->INCUBUS ONLINE VIEW

ere's shots of tht night.

since my vids tht nite is so few..so i wont upload it.hehe.

so next in line...Brandi Carlile! she'll be in OZ end of March and no tickets will fall from the sky for tht one.huhu..SO, next year or end of this year then. :)

XX
~someone who needs loads of hug at the moment~

Selfless Nanny McPhee

2008-03-14T22:46:00.004+08:00

me n my bestie talked the all common issues of our life.
and the topic, Selfish came up.
n yes, i heard this many times, and am aware of the rational reason behind it.

that being selfish in certain cases is needed, even if we dont want to be.
in circumstances where, cruel to be kind i guess, kindness benefiting ourself.
in a way, it teaches other people around us to practice their self efficiency.
too much help, can teach us to learn to be weak. even though in my opinion, we all are not.

on the other hand, with the world as it is today, helping hands and hearts, are crucially needed.
self confidence and self esteem can easily be mistaken as selfish.
even confusing the possessor of this positive attitude.
coz sometimes, i see ppl get lost in showing how strong and self worthy ones are,
that they tend to see others as, lesser.

i jst watched Nanny McPhee for the 1st time, and i am caught in the genius literature,
and how genuine the story is.

Nanny McPhee incredible charisma
"There is something you should understand about the way I work.
When you need me but do not want me, then I must stay.
When you want me but no longer need me, then I have to go.
It's rather sad, really, but there it is."

I didnt get the 'sad line' part, until the end when she walked away in a content, accomplished, charismatic manner surrounded by snow which contradicts her black attire.
A little symbolism there.
But most importantly, she walk away full of Love, at the place she left behind, in that walking moment, and certainly-future.

The End, leaves me, reassuring myself, that selfless is beautiful and complete, when it is simply appreciated and nothing more.
Appreciation is the simplest thing in the world really.

I do know that we all experienced or soon will, that selfish in terms of situation is ok.
But I applaud and thanking, who could be more.

Who in my opinion, must be a magical creature or some kind.
A Nanny McPhee.

that with Nanny McPhee-ses,
LIFE is Beautiful-ler.

jealous of OZ

2008-03-14T15:39:00.009+08:00

if my plan to be in Adelaide this yr has not been postponed,
than i could have go and see Brandi Carlile LIVE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

yup.i did put her up in my blog ere last time,but its her music.
It's like magnet.
keeps bringing u in. amazing.
i didnt really dig her infos or bios etc.
jst for the sake of her music, is enuff for me.
but today,for the 1st time,i checked her bandout in youtube.
the usual,radio appearances,interviews,tour vids, tht sort of stuff.

she's real,cool and humble and freakin awesome Live!
and yeah,i agree her smile actually lights a room.
she didnt believe in the whole follow ur heart and chase ur dream thing.
for her, what works, is the key.
she said tht the point of making music is to tour.to get as many humans attached to her music.
and tht is all.
she never even heard of the show Grey's Anatomy when her breakthrough to mainstream happens due to her single used in it.the band was bz touring.
afterwards, was when she knew tht the show also make a base for unheard artists.
only then,she got her Tivo, and did wat we all do. Series Marathon.

All of these lines across my face

Tell you the story of who I am
So many stories of where I've been
And how I got to where I am
But these stories don't mean anything
When you've got no one to tell them to
It's true...I was made for you

I climbed across the mountain tops
Swam all across the ocean blue
I crossed all the lines and I broke all the rules
But baby I broke them all for you
Because even when I was flat broke
You made me feel like a million bucks
Yeah you do and I was made for you

You see the smile that's on my mouth
Is hiding the words that don't come out
And all of my friends who think that I'm blessed
They don't know my head is a mess
No, they don't know who I really am
And they don't know what I've been through like you do
And I was made for you...

All of these lines across my face
Tell you the story of who I am
So many stories of where I've been
And how I got to where I am
But these stories don't mean anything
When you've got no one to tell them to
It's true...I was made for you
Oh yeah, it's true... I was made for you

p.s : i had a gr8 day yesterday! *wink*

Sunny Inside Me

2008-03-06T09:28:00.004+08:00

got my tix!!! how abt u?
Incubus oh Incubus.
they love March around ere do they. my bdy month.
this bring back memories of my 1st ever Incubus Concert in Wellington, NZ - March 2004.
hmmm....still yummy. :)

i checked out John Legend songs. I do notice him. Never really care.
but now, SAVE ROOM, is one of my fav song now.
i listen to it, like 20 times in a row. damn good music.
have a go listening to him...you won't be disappointed.

~"pagi yang gelap, kini sudah terang...." Pagi Yang Gelap, HUJAN~

hah!March!

2008-03-03T20:01:00.006+08:00

its March! it hit me..when i jst got my "bday card" ? frm JJ jst now.
cool coupons! Baskin Robbin, GSC, and what i really need, a discount for eye treatment!heck yeah!hehe..but 18 is still a long way.shooh shooh! haha.

i didnt mention earlier abt the minor surgery i had last Wed.
i got heel spurs.not sure the exact term is, coz i went to a really special surgeon. he studied both, the whole practitioner thing and he spent years in Indonesia and China to study traditional meds.
He's been around more than 6-10 yrs now.
And his patients is so multi-racial.
The day i had my surgery, there were 2 breast cancer chinese patient, 1 brain tumor indian patient, a malay woman with a nerve malfunction - surgery next to her left eye!
golden age ppl, and the normal diabetic,high blood pressure, heart problem, patients.
This doctor is like their last hope.

so yeah,i went through my 1st surgery.
it was painful but quick.no stitches.15mins after,i can walk but i had to rest or it will get swollen.
but it was worse when, the day after, i had a shivering fever.sigh.

now im much better,& i can't wait to start doing my things again. ;)
i'm ready.

"when i wake in the morning,i want to blow into pieces, i want more than just ok...."~MORE THAN FINE, SWITCHFOOT~

dear Horoscope

2008-03-03T01:03:00.007+08:00

Predictions.

And here I am, choosing which Today's Horoscope that I'm gonna use to my advantage, happy and like about, or even a little proud.
muahahahahaha...

Look! Read! Here's what I had pick. (from Friendster's Horoscope)

The Bottom Line

Today, when you know you're right, you're right. Intellectual impulses are good.

In Detail

Today, when you know you're right, you're right! Your intellect is strong and focused right now, and it's going to give you a sixth sense about who's telling the truth, who's trying to hide the truth, and who is afraid of the truth! This type of knowledge could be a dangerous thing in the hands of lesser beings. But a superstar like you knows how to use your powers for good, not evil. You'll finally have the opportunity you've been waiting for to introduce two like-minded people.

there...silence. it made it sound so Heroic! doesnt it?haha.."powers for good,not evil". uuuu...

n yeah...everyone in the planet knows that Pisces = The Dreamer

but does everyone knows that this Piscesean is a Fighter?
which means, Im fighting my way for Concrete.

hehe.
xx a.k.a muah muah

currently singing to the song "Human" by Jon McLaughlin.
miss listening to it..
"afterall....we're only human...hurt instead of healing...."

Talking..im tired.

2008-03-01T05:31:00.004+08:00

the thing about people speaking up is that...when many talks all it gives is noise.
i personally didn't truly believe that speaking up is needed more.
i do think listeners are way underrated.

we have eyes so we can see which perhaps can be helped with the words to explain.
but if we can be a true listener, then we can see, acknowledge to the extent that we do not need words to realize something.
an expression, body language, a vibe or aura or whatever the heck our 6th sense catch up...is the key.

we all have voices inside.some screams to be let out.
then again.should it?
words is a powerful tool. which means, speaking up about everything...even little annoying things are wasteful.

again,i adore people who speaks the truth.
i adore people who fight for something real.
but i only adore those who do it, after they listened to more than what's being meant to say.
a compact speaker with many stories to back em up.

so hence my thoughts that listeners should be praised.
that i do see you, everyday.

Rocked Out : Switchfoot in KL

2008-02-05T16:56:00.000+08:00

i had a full Pre-SF day, with my lovely sis.
then met few friends for drinks.
Picked up Lya tht night too to spend the night at my home.

So 2nd Feb arrived, and somehow im nervous. heh.
So 4.30pm, we arrived at KL Convention Centre we're already at the back of the line.
my bestfren Zue, came at 6.30 and didnt believe the line is this long.cheh!
we got in...and proceed to the left stage, just below the waiting room.

2 bands instead of 1 played opening,with 4 songs each.
Love Me Butch wasnt that bad after all :)

Lovely moment no 1 :
i glanced up towards the big window of the waiting room, and i saw half of Chad's body!haha...
he was checking us out down ere.
I show him the peace sign!
and he replied back!!!
nice :)

Then, history took its steps.
Switchfoot came on stage. and...screeeeaaaaammmmssss....
I knew they're gonna be playing Oh!Gravity and Stars as the 1st two songs..so i ignore my cam and rocked myself out!
awesome 1st rush n im ready for more.

then came more of my fav tunes
This is Your Life, Gone, Politicians, Learning to Breathe, Dirty Second Hands, Only Hope, Meant to Live, Shadow Proves the Sunshine,We're Awakening
and specials of
My 'Malaysian' Dream
a lil Ella Ella Ella of Umbrella
+ a lil Beyonce
here are LINKS LINKS LINKS to my fav vids tht night :)
GONE
Jon say Hi to a fan cam+THIS IS YOUR LIFE+UMBRELLA+BEYONCE
ON FIRE

i sang along, jumped though my feet is killing me, hug everyone next to me, and enjoyed the music.
Jon was awesome, Chad was incredible,i couldnt fully appreciate Tim and Drew since they're almost out of my sight. But i was standing near the stage, near Jerome,who's amazing n looking humble all the way..now how did he do tht?hehe..

Lovely moment no 2 :
Then Jon came to the left during ON FIRE and beginning of AWAKENING, hopped on the crowd, and he's almost above me! He sang with us, holding on to few ppl for balance, even borrowed a camera from someone from the crowd,took a picture and gave it back. :)
I didnt take out my cam, i took in Jon's damn near view, ignoring the fact that im crammed by screaming ppl!hahaha..

i found the exact moment vid frm youtube, here's the link :
AWAKENING ON MY CROWD!!!
The crowd is hype all the way till the end.
Now and then, Jon gave out his heart words, phrases by phrases.
Now and then, i keep trying to capture Jon's attention to my Heart Shaped of my Fingers.
haha...with all the Big Signs these kids bring with???

Lovely moment no 3 :
but then during one of the last Jon's phrase, he was looking at my direction, and said the word "Hearts".dont remember exactly whats been said (due to the screamings)
i was stunned and immensely satisfied! :)

moving on to the encore is of course 'I Dare You To Move' :) check out the vid i took!
its shaky i know!but the audio is gr8 :)

After show, it was one of the best feeling to let my feet relax.
The autograph session is on, i couldnt bare myself to stand in line.
So snaps from the bar is enough.

So here's few of the shots i managed to take.(the rest is in my Picasaweb album)
Please note that i sacrificed taking more n better pictures, coz all i ever wanted to do there is to rock myself out!
and i did :)

Mellow Jon

Jon Foreman

Jon's killing it

in 'I Heart KL' Tee

Chad & Drew

and these are shots taken by ZUE

"freeze!!!"

autograph session, now i can see TIM!!!

there's loads of vids on this night in YouTube. go n hv a look & hv fun!

but they didnt play the song "24" :(

Soul Fashion Seeker's Mumbling

2008-01-29T22:39:00.001+08:00

i was restless all day.
i felt desperate for space to breathe the fire out of me.
i realize 30 mins ago that i simply need to write.

thoughts occur to me these past few days.
having everything is great of course but it should teach us the meaning of lost.
i say it should coz i had seen people.

that we put love not on people but love itself.
we make love as exclusive as possible to parade to the world how glorious it is to have it.
and to be in love is enough to justify any means.
and that love is bound to follow certain class.
and that love isn't border less.

i learned the bigger ways to love.
to love the people..not owning the love itself.
in some ways,i grew to be one who have so much love inside me, that it keeps growing as i cared less of myself.
only then i truly see how much i love myself even more.

it's not the clothes i wear, nor the makeup i fixed upon my face.
it is not the knowledge that i seek for myself.
it is not the dreams i wish every night.
it is not the things i wanted to buy.
it is not about seeing myself smiling in the mirror and look happy.

it's about affecting change to others.
it's about us standing together in balance.
that we are equally free within our forms, body & soul to be exactly, ourself.
that we need not hide from the world.
that we should never ever need to ask for anything.

when all we are...are givers.
and everybody wins.
cause we never ever have to be unsatisfied.
imagine...

so the more i care for the people around me, i found myself.
that i am capable of so much more than just loving myself,family and friends.
can u say that for yourself?
can u say that you are a hero in your own way coz you own this massive capability to affect change?
i believe u can.
if you're selfless.
can u?

future holds this simple fact that materialization had somehow blur the image of basic human touch.
we put up walls around us all the time.
cause people could not be trusted.
i think it is because we cant handle the negativity.
we are weak.
imagine..
if all the bad things thrown at you, you find a way to accept it and turn it around.
that you managed to fix everything,
not because you need it but because you want to change the thrower.
you grew wiser and more.

its damn hard i know to put up a smile in front of misery.
its human nature to feel sad at times.
i just think that the world have its fair share of tragedy and disaster.
we dont need the people to do the same as well, no matter how bad life maybe.

tq for reading,
~the perfect soul fashion seeker~

Here's to the Real Night

2008-01-21T06:46:00.000+08:00

i just like to dedicate this song to everyone in this planet.

To those who are like me,wishing at night that the stars will always show itself.
That i wish, that we all will feel grateful every night.
That the dark of the night is lighten everyday by what you did when the sun comes up.
No matter how little or simple, big task you full filled, people you annoyed and smiled at, at angry times you had and mistakes you've made.
That despite it all, i wish you still have your heart sings.
Cause sometimes, choices arent picked, choices are made for us.
Like the day we will die.
Like the person we will marry.
Like the day we are born.
Still, enjoy every night.Cause you breathed that day before tonight.
And the breathing part is always real.

~loads of love :)

So denied, so I lied
Are you the now or never kind?
In a day and a day love
I'm gonna be gone for good again

Are you willing to be had?
Are you cool with just tonight?
Here's a toast to all those who hear me all too well

Here's to the nights we felt alive
Here's to the tears you knew you'd cry
Here's to goodbye tomorrow's gonna come too soon

Put your name on the line
Along with place and time
Want to stay, not to go, I want to ditch the logical
Here's a toast to all those who hear me all too well

Here's to the nights we felt alive
Here's to the tears you knew you'd cry
Here's to goodbye tomorrow's gonna come too soon

All my time is froze in motion
Can't I stay an hour or two or more
Don't let me let you go

Don't let me let you go

Here's a toast to all those who hear me all too well

Here's to the nights we felt alive
Here's to the tears you knew you'd cry
Here's to goodbye, tomorrow's gonna come too soon
Too soon
Here's to the nights we felt alive
Here's to the tears you knew you'd cry
Here's to goodbye tomorrow's gonna come too soon

Song : Here's to the Night
Band : EVE 6

Improvement Pt 2 : Myself

2008-01-21T02:47:00.000+08:00

a.k.a Changing Life Lane.

FIRST A SONG TO SHARE!(coz this time my babbling is soo long!)

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Here's to the Night
by EVE 6

          So denied so I lied are you the now or never kind
In a day and a day love I'm gonna be gone for good again
Are you willing to be had are you cool with just tonight
Here's a toast to all those who hear me all too well

c/0
Here's to the nights we felt alive

Here's to the tears you knew you'd cry Here's to goodbye Tomorrow's gonna come too soon Put your name on the line along with place and time Wanna stay not to go I wanna ditch the logical Here's a toast to all those who hear me all too well All my time is froze in motion Can't I stay an hour or two or more Don't let me let you go Here's a toast to all those who hear me all too well
EVE 6 WEBSITE HERE

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this weekend has past. My parents arrived safely home yesterday evening frm Spore n im so glad i cooked. coz my dad ate like its the most delicious meal in the world! and tht made me smile :)

i might have mention about Bags in Spore, and apparently my mum bought one for me!!!
i specifically told her not to, if we can buy it here. But she bought them anyway and its a pair - a grunge bag + its matching purse. Even i never get a matching pair ever.haha...its wonderful!
its the latest Guess bag with silver black n silver strand and gorgeous satin silk inside.
smile :)

right after dinner, the ladies in this house went out to Tesco Ampang. n again my mum, bought me n my sisters jewellery + clothes!
I totally love the bracelet i got.
I asked the seller what kind of stone is it?
I didnt really care actually..but as soon as i tried it..it felt cooler on my wrist.Weirdly,felt a lil calmer.So i ask without much thought.
She told me its made from Cat's Eye Stone which is less harder than Jade.
Oooohhh....(no idea)

I googled it jst now.
Apparently Cat's Eye Stone is some kind of a healer stone, used for health of the mind not body which sometime leads to heatlhy, wealthy and good luck. And harmful if used unwisely.
HUH?...........the magical healing power of stones.?.
something i so don't know anything about but has been used in medically practice for since ancient time.

I saw on E! once, that celebrities that are involved during Oscar night, will be given each a luxurious room 2 weeks before the event to "prepare". And it includes Diamond Healing!
The diamond is so expensive that it has one of the highest quality of aura healing.
Hah! anything for beauty huh?!

interesting but i dont really care much really.
but if you do, here's a link http://www.orissagems.com/cats_eye.htm
i do love my bracelet though. :)

moving along...tooooooooooo EBAY MALAYSIA.
its ok i think. i registered and bought a set of Buffy Season 8 comics and (i think) a fake Anya "I'm Not A Plastic Bag" grocery bag.
READ THIS LINK : BAG SNOB

After researching, apparently bag addicts are real. They have websites n everything. I read a guideline from an Ebay er, about how to spot a fake Anya grocery bag.
Mine was almost perfect except the rope on the strand.
It's insane really that such a good idea is now delivered in a materialistic way.
Why make a statement when the action (which in this case..wearing a designer bag to parade its genuine thought) is controlled. High-price.US$45-US$200.Limited bags are made. Pre-orders. Limited purchase each person.
Which in the end, leads to....imitations.
And caused more trouble. Negative ones when the ebay sellers lied and sell fake with authentic price.
What's more sad, is that wearing fake is considered a crime contributor.
It lower the users standard as no genuine fashion sense, n no respect of the ownership of the maker.

If it does, does that mean owning a print poster of paintings of Da Vinci's, is low taste of art?
No respect?
If a painting can be reproduce.
Why cant a bag?
It all came down to Money and the idea of Materialism and its Rules.doesnt it?
If u hate fake...make more.coz dhuh! a bag can be reproduce many times and still have the same quality.
A painting with the exact quality?Are u insane?
Perhaps in this case, limitations create that pure, divine aura...?

What i could see is this particular bag is like a billboard sign.
Few here and there to be seen and read.
So i understand the reason behind it.
It's a gr8 idea.
So people we don't need Anya's bag to support this.
but since Anya's also doing it as in a fashion sense way, it becomes that.
Fashion.
Which is art but also leads to Materialism.
In artistic point of view, she achieved the genius use of Material to express positivity.
Kudos.

Last weekend is a good one.
Im glad.
More packing to do now.
Till i have more enthusiasm to write...

~ positive thinker.

Home Improvement Part 1

2008-01-15T00:18:00.000+08:00

got my copy of Jan FEMALE magz nxt to me now- unopen.
my face screams for attention - a facial appointment will be in order soon.
my Nineteen Minutes book by Jodi Picoult - is currently marked on page 42 with the used Peter Pan Muscial tickets since...erm..lets see....a week!
and i bought a mic for my PC.

so far,my study plans is in motion but its as slow as my dying passion.*sigh*
its been hectic these past 2 weeks.
a new niece! n finally her name is now Daniala Isabella.
my charming nephew name is Danial Irfan.
(oh i miss him).

Irfan left me with GERMS!again..i took care of him for a week while my sis in law is resting after the labour. as usual, its a delicate time for her,so she needs to be taken care of.
while she's at her home in ampang, im ere at home, with irfan.
thank goodness, he can sleep with me,listens to me, played wit me..n most importantly, he's been an angel.
except the germs part.which is actually the maid's fault. she got sick (dunno where she got it from)..and passed it to irfan....nnnnnnnn...then me.
its not a surprise actually..cause since last year..the only time i was sick was when irfan got sick first.

besides being the best aunt in the world!hahaha...ive been bz home planning and designing.
so many renovations in the list,from rooms,kitchen,landscaping and refurbishing the wall parts,incl a swimming pool (this idea totally came to me after i visited Mukh's hse in Taman Enstek).its fun except that it all needed to be done by end of this month!!!

and yet here i am blogging.actually,fun time is filled with facebook-ing.
coz reading is tiring,drawing is hard coz im inspiration-less at the moment,tv is boring,and shopping is time consuming.

managed to watched Grey's yesterday.MY GOD! Seth Green's bursting blood all over the place!!!waaaa.....shocked.didnt see tht coming.hahaha..
cant wait for Smallville n Supernatural's latest.huhu..

i...........'ll stop ere.
what song to share today...hmmm..hmm....nope..cant think of one.

Time Chaser,
~ one who needed a fabulous time with herself.

ps : ive been recording my singing....wakakaka...it sounds...erm...not like me?!?#@!??

More than Fine! oh yeah.

2008-01-04T07:22:00.000+08:00

im going to Switchfoot concert this Feb 2nd!yes!one of my fav band.how lucky am i?so thts one thing to look forward too. so now ive been filling up my system with Switchfoot. though i dont call myself the 'FootSoldiers'.haha...

i want to dedicate to all this blog readers...
i hope they will play this Live.
the song 'More Than Fine'
Album : the Beautiful Letdown (2003) - which i think is the best album :)

hv fun ppl & keep up looking towards the sun though it hurts a bit :)

here's 2 version , the album version + the video (studio session)

When I wake in the morning, I want to blow into pieces.

I want more than just ok, more than just ok.
When I'm up with the sunrise I want more than just blue skies.
I want more than just ok, more than just ok.

I'm not giving up, giving up, not giving up now.
I'm not giving up, giving up, not backing down.

More than fine, more than bent on getting by.
More than fine, more than just ok.

When I'm lit with the sunrise. I want more than just a good time.
I want more than just ok, more than just ok. I

'm not giving up, giving up, not giving up now.
I'm not giving up, giving up, not selling out.

More than fine, more than bent on getting by.
More than fine, more than just ok.
More than fine, more than bent on getting by.
More than fine, more than just ok.

More than oceans away from the dawn.
More than oceans away from the dawn.
More than oceans away from who we are
More than oceans, more than oceans, yeah.

More than fine, more than bent on getting by.
More than fine, more than just ok.
More than fine, more than bent on getting by.
More than fine, more than just ok.

The End of Harry : The Deathly Hollows

2007-12-31T03:05:00.000+08:00

it matter so little that i knew beforehand,although accidently, that Harry Potter married Ginny Weasley in the last book of Rowling.

I finished it in two days.In fact,just read the last sentence for the first time, "All was well.", 5 minutes ago.

I felt like i had grown with Harry through his course of life as the Boy Who Lived, and Chosen.

But i dont want to express thoughts on all,just the last book.

I found it that i finally understands Harry's world as merely the courage of a person to live. Which he extraordinary managed to keep doing without fail since young age.Most teenagers in reality,chose the easy way out.Taking path that promises nothing good.That lead the pain,become the excuse to simply stop trying to live better.

Deathly Hollows,although,excruciating full of pains and suffering,i could only understand little how to lose someone we love to death.That even though, it seems after a number of deaths, its unbearable, but honestly made life full of meaning. That the love ones that still alive,that we who is well n alive, are the ones, still in need to live.

I felt at times i wanted to throw the book on the wall.At times,i felt like my heart wanted to scream so much but when its ready to explode,the world fall flat.Frustrating indeed.And by the end,its perfectly clear,that humans are capable to live for love.
Love that embodied such bigger meaning than our own gain.
At the same time,it is our right to have it,to feel it,to find it.

Friends,families,even in enemies,lies the grey.
That with love, lights can flick even in the darkest heart.
what tested us,is the thing we choose to love.

Love of powers over others?
Self-love by comparing others as less equal?
Love towards pain?Love towards courage?
or Love for one another?

In more matured perspective,life is full of love.
As far as im concern,it lives in me.
As strong as this is, i think i can somehow manage to step forward.
Cause,after everything, Allah had promised the eternity life for those who fight for Allah's way,
that "All was well", in the end.

What a revelation!

Miss Brandi Carlile and her stories to tell

2007-12-28T13:38:00.000+08:00

infectious.the perfect word for her.
Bought her new Album few months ago from a music store in OU,
but it took me lil weeks after tht to really enjoy it.
After i did go through it,track by track,i get the flow.
Its really quite amazing.

The album called 'The Story'.And its about life and living for it.
And i love how the album starts wit the song, Late Morning Lullaby.
Though, her 1st Single release is track 2, The Story.

lyrical wise like,
"with weight upon my chest and ghost upon my back"-Late Morning Lullaby,#1.
"all of these lines across my face,tell you the story of who i am"-The Story,#2.
"if you only knew my mind is full of razors"-My Song,#4.
"we go to waste like wine,they turn to Turpentine"-Turpentine,#3.
"i have seen your 9 to 5,wash away your dream" - Until I Die,#10.
she gets me thinking which is exactly what i prefer.^_^

melody wise, its really something that get you humming without realizing it afterwards.
it happens to me :)

band info,she and these twin brothers,they're gr8.i dont know how they played live sounds,but in Nov 2007,they did play in Australia.shoot.missed tht.oh well.

Actually,she previously have songs in TV series Grey's Anatomy, 'What Can I Say' and in the movie Sisterhood Travelling Pants, 'Closer to You'.(where i discovered her).
and im delighted tht i decided to check her out.
click here to her Website

xx nysh~
oh btw, HAPPY 2008!!!

The Reason

2007-12-26T07:20:00.000+08:00

The Reason behind this Song Blog.
Is it really just about a good song to recommend?
Well,firstly of course it is.
But i would like to share thoughts on this.
I havent updated lately.Been busy troubling myself wit endless troubles.
Anyway,here it goes.

Some people wrote thoughts on current issues, so that ignorance from some of us can be shake off.
To let us know, that they care and they think more than others.
That they aren't simply floating this earth in a self-centered way.
That our feelings and troubles mattered less than reality of everyday life.

And this is why lyrics/songs come to play.

To me, its a Tool to release the burdening inner quarrel.
It can then clear up the way for Reality.

Denying the need of humans to remain where they are comfortable, is wrong.
Then again, it is fate that even in the calmest weather, disaster awaits its turn and the cycle continues-never ending.
Of course there's an ending. After life-the eternity.

It boils down to one endless fight-keep reaching for the comfort zone.
Every time you win, you have greater capability& experience to show others the way.
And Allah will keep sending new test.And again we fight and learn,then teach.

It is when we stop reaching for comfort zone and stop teaching, that the world keeps becoming impossible to live in.

So songs are just one of the tiny way I saw that can help us reach that comfort zone.
Coz its human made.Human stories and fights.Things we can relate to.
Presented in a simpler - indirect way.
Its jst a tiny tiny thing that brighten the heart and opening up the mind.

So keep washing the inwards thoughts away..and look around!

A Short Notice: NADAL vs GASQUET Shah Alam tickets for SALE!!!

2007-11-19T14:36:00.000+08:00

putting this ad up for a short while (for googlers to have an easy googling)

Nadal vs Gasquet Stadium Malawati Shah Alam
Tickets for sale, selling tickets.

2 Tickets for NADAL vs GASQUET at Stadium Malawati,Shah Alam.
NOV 20,2007.

seat EAST M70,71.
price rm88.

interested?contact : silverhead8@yahoo.com

reason of selling? coz my bro had to give it up,due to more urgent occasion. :p
but i'll b going though :)
dun worry,i am frequently online today n 2moro to check up.

cheers!